i am thinking of all these people i haven’t seen in years, people i can only remember through fantasy . . . and how we all exist simultaneous on this earth . . . see right now i’m sure this woman’s spirit is healing me.  on some deeper inner level of reality i am receiving energy from her . . . i can clearly identify it . . . this sort of psychic interchange goes on all the time but most people can’t feel it.

at some point i’ll be able to understand it so well i won’t have to talk about it, but until then i’ll have to go on struggling like this.  but what am i struggling for?  it’s all here . . .