I could keep looking for that girl, or i could leave the message i sent.  I found a picture of her . . . she cut her hair a while ago.  It doesn’t matter.  I should stop pretending to be a slacker.  I’m coming out of a weeklong trance.  I learned a lot, remembered a lot that I’d forgotten — all the really shitty times that had gone by.  How a few of the people I wanted to hang around turned out to have no personality at all.

I’m being reminded of the continuity of my life, that all this weird shit actually happened and started out with me as a geeky atheist poverty-stricken weirdo out in the corn fields of Indiana.  

Anyway I sent this woman a message on a dopey networking site which she probably never checks.  Would it be tacky to break down and spend 10 dollars and just get an e-mail address?  She has indicated on the web that she wants to get in touch with people.

I want to hear her voice again, to see what she’s like.