Making out with [someone] turned out to be most of what I wanted.  Then I went and got drunk.  Then I went back to [A.T.’s] to talk with her about the study group.  Then I took a nap.

The [sex magic] has certainly changed me.  Something very simple and yet very important happened.  I keep reminding myself that there are millions of people who have sex all the time who don’t have the other-planar insights I have.  And yet the change itself illustrates how much was lost in my life, how stupid and meaningless all the things I experienced were, how totally unimportant they are to me.  I can hardly wait to find out why it was important to experience this.  What a waste of time the chaos in my mind is!  And yet there’s nothing on this physical plane I want to experience.  These people are revolting and disgusting (the American people).   There really never was anything here I wanted to experience.