A friend of mine came over tonight, he picked up some things he’d left here over a year ago. We went for a walk and he talked about his father, who just died a few weeks ago, and surprisingly about how his relationship with his mother was better now. I talked a bit about my relationship with my parents. We talked about how long we’ve been having conversations like this. I thought of other people I met at the same time that I met him who have since long faded away, fake friends while this one has been real. After he left I came home thinking about my life, and how Crunchyroll has energized my feelings. I’ve even been buying crunchyrolls to eat in order to get into the spirit of it. I had Mango on Saturday, and tuna today. I’m immersing myself in the zen of anime, the continuously regenerating poignant sentimentality of almost belonging, almost possessing, but never quite doing so, and yet never losing the beauty of it all. What was it that spoke to me just now, as I walked up the stairs after returning from the lake where we sat on the pier, looking out at the dark skies over the water in the glow of the street lamp? If only I can find an anime with characters who talk like this, who share like this … that is my quest. Perhaps I’ll write one.