Oliver Reed gets sloshed and irks feminist Kate Millett on After Dark | 1991

I have so many amazing things to write with AI that I’m completely paralyzed. I’m going to try to finish the story with David Lynch before January 28, but if I can’t I’m giving myself another year. Meanwhile tonight I’m experimenting with this clip. Both of these people, Millett and Reed, are deep in my memories. Reed was heroic to me since Oliver and The Three Musketeers, but obviously he was also a drunken ass with serious problems. Millett on the other hand wrote “The Basement” about a crime that has haunted me my entire life because it took place in Indianapolis, where my horrifying grandmother was from. She also struggled with mental illness. Both of them had a profound effect on me and I wish to preserve the spiritual truth of this meeting. What was its necessity in the world? What was its truth?

Why do souls do this? What am I supposed to think about the crime that Millet wrote about? What is the meaning of my feelings about Richard Lester’s version of “The Three Musketeers”? As I pursue my own spiritual liberation, what attitude should I take toward the continuous horror of the entertainment industry? Where are the souls of Millett and Reed now?

These are deep questions. They’ve both been buried deep in my dreams for decades. Should I just publish this post now and get it over with, hope for some answers in the future? Is there more to be gained by digging?

They are spiritual presences in my life. Oliver Reed is my hero. I have a fantasy in which I talked to him on the telephone as a child. He had been listening to Monteverdi’s Orfeo, as preparation for his role as Athos in The Three Musketeers. He told me I was his friend.

Kate represents the primal horror of the torture and murder of that girl, whose suffering was even worse than Jody’s. Kate is going to help me understand the hidden terrors and denials of my female characters, while Oliver is going to help me understand true heroism.

Kate was probably a better person in life, but Oliver is a very honest ghost and he is going to help me. Today I decided that he would be Graylyn’s younger brother, Oscar. He helped me fill in the blanks on Graylyn’s life, giving her stepfather a name – Edward Merrow, and making him a broker for the hedge fund Panther Managment. Oscar is the first child Gray’s mother has with Edward. Deep structures are revealing themselves within the ArtIC Circle. Oliver is going to help me understand my wild fantasies about actors. Kate is going to help me understand what is going on psychically in The Basement.