In the dimly lit ambiance of Denny’s at 2 am, the Sickie Souse Club gathered around their usual corner booth, a sense of disillusionment hanging in the air as they discussed the aftermath of Live Aid.

Drake, with his enigmatic aura, broke the silence first. “You know, Live Aid, despite its grandeur, felt overrated to me,” he said, a hint of cynicism in his voice. “It was like watching popular culture being sanitized, stripped of its raw, authentic edge.”

Trish, her slender fingers wrapped around a mug of tea, nodded pensively. “I agree. There was something unsettling about it. Like it was more of a spectacle than a genuine movement for change. It felt… performative.”

Chuck, reclining with his usual nonchalance, added, “Exactly. It was like everyone was there more for the show than the cause. The real issues got lost in the glitter and glam of celebrity.”

Dustin, peering over his glasses, reflected, “It’s a paradox, isn’t it? A concert meant to highlight suffering, yet it felt so distant from the harsh realities of the world.”

Graylyn, her artist’s eyes filled with a critical light, said, “It’s the commodification of activism. Turning empathy into entertainment, that’s what it was. The true message got diluted.”

Angela, her optimism slightly dimmed, sighed. “I wanted to believe in it, I really did. But there was this nagging feeling that it was just a temporary high for the masses, a fleeting sense of unity.”

Alvin, his mystical demeanor somewhat shadowed, leaned in. “It’s like watching a mirage of hope, a beautifully orchestrated illusion. We’re left wondering, what now? What’s the next step after the applause dies down?”

The conversation ebbed and flowed, their voices a chorus of disenchantment. In that small corner of Denny’s, they shared a moment of collective introspection, pondering the complexities of popular culture and the elusive nature of genuine change.

As the night deepened and their coffee cups emptied, they each grappled with the ambiguous feeling that lingered, a sense that the world was shifting beneath their feet, leaving them yearning for something more profound than what the mainstream could offer.

I was determined to use my long weekend to watch Nymphomaniac in its entirety in one sitting. Then some strange power messed up my whole day yesterday, I couldn’t think straight, and I had huge problems installing my new computer and dealing with all sorts of craziness so I got started on Nymphomaniac late and fell asleep with an hour to go. Then I woke up this morning and first thing watched the last hour. Since the sun comes up at the end of the movie it was like I had lived through the whole experience of the movie myself, in a strange magical ritual of rebirth, which was awesome. 

I used Chat-GPT to write two passages about the Sickie Souse Club. Even though they’re hardly original, and I would be very unimpressed with any writer who tried to sell them to me, they’re mine and it did make me happy to read them. So posting them is genuinely an act of self-expression, one step closer to understanding what I I should be doing artistically. They’re both versions of the same prompt, the second one is tweaked a little better.

Version 1

In the hushed corridors of Ravenswood Academy, where the weight of history and privilege pressed down like an invisible fog, the Sickie Souse Club gathered for one last hurrah. It was the eve of graduation, a time when the future beckoned with a mix of dread and anticipation, like the distant rumble of a storm.

Drake Marshall, with his poet’s heart and rebel’s spirit, leaned against the aged oak locker, his thoughts adrift in a sea of Kerouac and Burroughs. The Doors’ lyrics whispered in his mind, a siren song of freedom and chaos. He glanced at Patricia “Trish” Crown, ethereal and dreamy, lost in the melody of Fleetwood Mac that only she could hear. She caught his gaze, her eyes a mirror to his soul, reflecting a shared yearning for a life less ordinary.

Charles “Chuck” Crown, Trish’s twin, stood beside her, a study in contrasts. His future was a well-trodden path laid out by generations of Crowns, yet his eyes held a glint of mischief, a silent rebellion against the inevitability of his destiny. He smirked at Drake, a silent acknowledgment of the wild adventures they had shared, adventures that had become the fabric of their youth.

Dustin Everett, the enigmatic philosopher, leaned against the opposite locker, his expression thoughtful. He was a bridge between worlds, his mind a labyrinth of existential questions and digital dreams. He was bound for M.I.T., a future crafted in codes and algorithms, yet his heart remained in the poetic musings he shared with Drake.

Graylyn Aleksandr, the artist of the group, her spirit as colorful and tumultuous as her canvases, sketched idly in her notebook. Her future at the School of the Art Institute of Chicago was a blank canvas waiting for her vibrant strokes. Her engagement to Drake was a promise of a life painted in bold, unconventional hues.

Angela Thorne, the athlete with a philosopher’s soul, stood slightly apart. Her gaze was steady, her determination as unwavering as her strokes in the pool. She dreamt of Loyola University, of a life dedicated to helping others. In her, the group found their conscience, a grounding force amidst their whirlwind lives.

Alvin Albrecht, the mystic, lounged nearby, his eyes closed as if seeing beyond the physical realm. His future at Cornell was but a stepping stone to a world of design and mystery. He was their oracle, a window to a world of astral planes and ancient wisdom.

As the bell tolled, signaling the end of an era, they gathered their belongings. The Sickie Souse Club, a tapestry of dreams and desires, stepped out into the twilight. The air was electric, charged with the energy of impending change.

Drake led them to Chuck’s borrowed Mercedes Estate, the vehicle of many a nocturnal escapade. The car’s engine hummed a familiar tune, a prelude to their final journey together. They drove through the streets of Evanston, the world outside a blur of neon and nostalgia.

The car came to a stop at their favorite haunt, Denny’s, an oasis of fluorescent light in the encroaching darkness. They piled into a booth, the familiar setting a bittersweet comfort. The waitress, a fixture in their late-night sojourns, approached with a knowing smile, her pen poised over her notepad.

As they ordered, their voices melded into a symphony of laughter and reminiscence. They spoke of the past, of the adventures and misadventures that had forged their bond. They spoke of the future, of the paths they would soon walk, separate yet forever intertwined.

The night deepened, and the moment of parting drew near. They lingered over empty plates and half-drunk cups of coffee, reluctant to break the spell. Finally, as the first light of dawn crept through the windows, they rose as one.

Outside, they embraced, each hug a promise, a pledge of enduring friendship. They whispered farewells, their words echoes of a time that would soon be a memory. As they went their separate ways, the strains of “Don’t You Forget About Me” by Simple Minds filled the air, a fitting anthem to their shared past and individual futures.

In the golden glow of the rising sun, the Sickie Souse Club walked away from Denny’s, their silhouettes etched against the light. They were young, full of dreams and doubts, stepping into a world that awaited them with open arms and unknown challenges. And as they dispersed into the dawn, the echo of their laughter lingered, a testament to their unbreakable bond, a bond forged in the hallowed halls of Ravenswood Academy.

Version 2

In the dim twilight of an early spring evening, the lights of Ravenswood Academy flickered like distant stars, casting a warm glow over the school’s ivy-clad walls. It was a time of endings and beginnings, of whispered secrets and shared dreams. The Sickie Souse Club, seven friends bound by their unique spirits and unspoken bonds, lingered on the edge of tomorrow, the precipice of their graduation in May of 1988.

Drake, his thoughts as tumultuous as the melodies of The Cure, leaned against the ancient oak in the courtyard, his gaze lost in the dance of the fireflies. Beside him, Trish, ethereal as a muse in a painting, watched him with eyes full of unspoken words, her thoughts a blend of longing and uncertainty.

“Remember this moment,” Drake said softly, breaking the silence. “Years from now, when we’re scattered like leaves in the wind, remember this place, this feeling.”

Trish nodded, her hand finding his. “I’ll never forget,” she whispered, her voice barely audible over the rustling leaves.

Nearby, Charles, the mastermind of midnight escapades, leaned against his borrowed Mercedes Estate, a smirk playing on his lips. He was the orchestrator of their nocturnal journeys, the driver of their adventures, always pushing the boundaries of what was possible.

Dustin, deep in conversation with Alvin, discussed the mysteries of consciousness, their voices a low murmur under the starlit sky. Alvin’s mystical insights, gleaned from his belief in past lives, intertwined with Dustin’s philosophical musings, creating a tapestry of thought that stretched beyond the ordinary.

Graylyn, her artist’s soul ever restless, sketched the scene before her, her charcoal strokes capturing the essence of the moment. Angela, her athletic grace belying a depth of thought, listened intently, her mind weaving their words into a tapestry of understanding.

As the night deepened, they found themselves drawn to Graylyn’s studio, a haven for their creativity and camaraderie. The space, much like Andy Warhol’s Factory, buzzed with the energy of youth and the promise of the unknown.

In the studio, amidst the clutter of paint tubes and canvases, they shared stories, laughter, and music that echoed their innermost selves. The Cure’s haunting melodies filled the air, mingling with the scent of oil paint and the warmth of friendship.

As the night wore on, they spoke of their dreams and fears, of the paths they would soon take, diverging yet forever intertwined. Drake’s voice, tinged with a writer’s melancholy, spoke of his literary aspirations, of capturing the essence of their youth in words that would outlast them all.

Trish, her voice soft but resolute, shared her uncertainty about the future, her desire to find purpose beyond the expectations set upon her. Charles, with a confident grin, talked of embracing the family legacy, of adventures yet to come before settling into the inevitable.

Dustin, his eyes alight with the fire of knowledge, spoke of technology’s potential, of worlds yet to be explored. Alvin, his words laced with mysticism, shared visions of beauty and harmony, of designs that would challenge the mundane.

Angela, strong and thoughtful, spoke of her desire to make a difference, to touch lives in ways that mattered. And Graylyn, her artist’s heart laid bare, talked of capturing the fleeting moments of life, of creating beauty that would endure.

As dawn approached, painting the sky in hues of pink and gold, they stood together, a circle of friends on the cusp of change. In that moment, suspended between the past and the future, they made a silent promise to remember, to carry a piece of this night, this bond, into whatever tomorrow held.

And as the first rays of sunlight kissed the horizon, the Sickie Souse Club dispersed, each carrying a fragment of shared dreams and memories, like a melody that lingers long after the song has ended.

Today I was reading “Called Out Of Darkness” by Anne Rice, and she had the text of Gloria In Excelsis Deo in there, saying it was her favorite Hymn back then. Tonight I scryed NIA, the 24th Aethyr, and below is what I wrote on June 16, the first time I scryed it:

A suit of armor appears with a sword, an ancient enemy. None may pass who are not qualified. Beware now the forces you interfere with. It is radiant bliss of the cities of light like the ship in Close Encounters. It is like the medieval room at the Art Institute. Everything is together where it should be. I feel terrible because I’m drunk though, and I should probably not do this again. I feel very drained and I will have to come back in the morning when I am sober. But this does feel more like the Quiet City from my decrees. They would have lived for this, wouldn’t they? It was brought forth from the chaos of nature. There were beings like Dee who knew how to do things, and that was the meaning of guardianship. There is knowledge of civilization here. And I sense Dee and the arising and passing of life, contributing to the edifice of civilization. This was the meaning of Christ at that time.

It will be interesting to compare with other visions of Nia to see if mine is accurate or relevant. I’m having a bit of confusion because even though I’m drunk and got a message that this might not “qualify”, it is vivid and full of information. But perhaps some spirit here will help me see the propriety that Dee was hoping to preserve with this system, extending the British Empire.

Thank you. Gloria In Excelsis Deo.

The above is what I wrote weeks ago, I just want to emphasize that I was reading those words in Rice’s book today, and then found them again tonight in my own record of scrying NIA. There were other things that happened today so absurdly synchronous that I can do nothing but rejoice.

I’m so inspired by my birthday week of conventions – Flashback Weekend last week, seeing the awesome Rose McGowan, and then this weekend FanExpo, the first day of which I just got back from – that I came up with an idea for The Downward Spiral, part 2 of the Sickie Souse Quartet. In the sequel Warren is somehow involved with this sordid disgusting sex-addict director loosely based on a real Hollywood director who millions of people have heard of. This director is a virulent misogynist who has his minions sabotage movies so that he will be called in to “save” them by re-editing them, leaving out scenes where women are portrayed sympathetically and rewriting endings around his own pathologically disgusting idea of male bonding. So there’s a move based on what happened with Aliens 3, where they killed Newt. There’s a young female character that everyone in America loves, just like Newt, and then this freak director directs his minion Warren to sabotage it, and he comes in and kills her and humiliate the lead character, and the lead actress by making the whole thing an exercise in sexual horror like Aliens 3 or The Cook, The Thief, His Wife, and Her Lover. The whole novel is to examine how the entertainment business in the 90s became a breeding ground for disgusting sex and drug addicts who don’t care about audiences at all.

Also, I’m wondering who Warren really is. I may switch up and make Derek the slimiest villain of The ArtIC Circle. Maybe Warren will be the evil adult director, who has this ranch where he has these sex parties where he directs “Warrens”, which are orgies of naked gay men forced together into small spaces, simulating the hellish paintings of M.C. Escher.

But the new idea I got tonight is that a major piece of it is a story based on the travesty of Aliens 3, and whether the friend is Derek or Warren he somehow involves the Sickies in it, and it’s a very dark battle with a sad ending like The Empire Strikes Back.