I haven’t reviewed what I wrote last night, but I wanted to note that I slept for a bit, and I do have a bit of a headache from quitting caffeine, but on the whole I am finally merging with my own darkness.  I feel more “all in one piece” than I ever have in my life.

I slept a little more.  I’m glad I made this blog public.  It was a very magical thing to do.  It changed some things for me very dramatically.  But now I just don’t think I’m going to look back on them.  I’ll reread that post in 13 years.  After so long of going around to events and getting information indirectly, I’m entering a mode of the final third of my life, I’m heading toward my death and I’m very comfortable with the choices I’ve made.  COVID-19 isn’t bothering me as much as it is some people.  I’m glad to be getting it over with.  I’m glad the old world is ending.  I don’t care what happens to the future.

All my experiments with social media are paying off, but ironically they are mostly showing me what I don’t have to say, how I do not want to be involved with people and how I do not want to present myself.  Things  I will never be involved in.