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The Buffy Diaries 3-30-2017 part 2

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7:19 PM 3/30/2017  John has told me that when I’m channeling for people I need to have more of a hopeful emotional presence for them, and I think that’s what I’m developing here.  After I posted the last entry I was getting ready to go run.  For the hell of it I used a coupon Google sent me and bought the “Awesome Mix” from “Guardians of the Galaxy” for half price.  It was fun.  The almost-kiss between Star Lord and Gamora is one of my favorite movie scenes of the decade so far and I’m glad I have this soundtrack to remind me.  I’m looking forward to the sequel and it’s nice to have something fun to blog about.  I love the backgrounds in that movie, the huge sense of space.  I hope the sequel is as good as the original because the original was really special for me.

9:47 PM 3/30/2017  Only a couple of relatively minor Buffynicities tonight, kind of a lull after the peak at the end of season 3.  First of all, the dorky roommate, Kathy – she was just like this twerpy little chick in my psych/soc class at GVSU, who came on like an overachiever but was secretly a part of the evil cult that was against me.  It was just like Buffy’s situation, too, where just because I was paranoid didn’t mean she wasn’t out to get me. 

Also, earlier today I had in fact been thinking of “Trelane” from the original Star Trek, who is evil but is treated like a child and taken home by his master, so it was a kind of precognition about a similar situation for Kathy.

Furthermore, just yesterday I posted a picture of a Buffynicitous bottle of Evian that had the word “pure” on the side of it.  “Katherine” means “pure”, and that’s one reason I use it as a name for one of my spirits. 

The other minor Buffynicity, a second one about food after yesterday’s spinach, was that Kathy was eating a hard boiled egg, and on Tuesday I was at a cafeteria that had calorie counts on all of its deli selections and I learned that my fears that eggs are bad for weight loss are wrong, two of them only have 130 calories.

It’s really eerie seeing these two first episodes of season 4 about college kids who steal personal possessions and try to steal Buffy’s soul because the villains remind me so much of this goofy cult that used to stalk me back in Grand Rapids.  Furthermore, a couple of them were fans of Judas Priest and now tonight, I have broken down and subscribed to Google Play and I am listening to the Judas Priest album “Nostradamus”, which I am liking very much.  I’m remembering being at a party back in Grand Rapids listening to this music and talking to someone about this band, and they told me that I had missed my connection with this world, that there was an angel looking out for me but that I just had never found anything about this life that interested me.  It didn’t make sense at the time, but now I see that they were right.  I hate this stupid, disturbing world and … I guess I’m working through it but still, what the fuck is all this bullshit for?

So now I’m going to stop and pay attention to my feelings.  This Judas Priest album is cool.  Alyson Hannigan is hot.  I want to be Oz and I want to have a girlfriend just like Willow.  I’m only going to go back and watch Angel after I’m done with Buffy but what a weird piece of anti-nostalgia, to look back on that time when I was going through such weird supernatural transformations and know this show was on.  What a weird act of un-memory, to imagine all those other people watching it in real time, when it was being broadcast.  Honestly, it almost makes me wish I’d watched it at the time, but not quite. 

I’m looking forward to using Google Play to catch up on so much heavy metal that I’ve missed.  I feel I’ve almost got that problem solved – the question of how the art of music on the Earth has become what it has … of how entertainment can be so cold and empty …

Feelings, Jason, keep focusing on feelings.  The lights are very powerful.  The other worlds are very close.  My “self” is here.  I felt it this morning, like a semi-independent part of me, coming down into me.  My “higher self” at last. 

The Moon inconjuncts Saturn at 8:01 AM.  I’ll be at work listening to Judas Priest and Black Sabbath on Google Play.  My intuition says this is going to be helping me adapt to the wicked, cold 21st century.  But that’s still VOC.  Moon into Gemini at 11:40, I don’t know why I bother making predictions because I never get any damn thing done when the Moon is in this sign.  I should just take a vacation or something, but possibly I should begin to work on ritual invocation of the elements, at least.  Maybe some Enochian?  And will Mercury at last entering Taurus at 12:31 possibly make it not so bad?  I’ve been bored with Mercury in Aries for a while.  Maybe Mercury in Taurus will get me to work on my website, possibly even Blendr.  I’ll try.  Now that I’m thinking about it, maybe Enochian magic would be a good thing to focus on during Air signs – after all, as I recall the tablet of Air was the first delivered and the only one that wasn’t moved around on the Great Table.  Hmm.   This could be cool.

Moon sextiles Venus in Aries at 1:33.  I need to be using these aspects for something instead of just messing around, wondering about how I will feel.  I need to decide on something to want during the runup to that.  What’s interesting about that is that I was just kicking myself for not thinking of that sooner – I should have been doing ritual magic with Venus in Aries from the start, but then I checked and of course Venus is retrograde now.  It’s going back into Pisces on Sunday, giving me a chance to start over the entire cycle of Venus doing ritual magic the whole cycle through if I want.  What a fascinating idea to go along with watching “The Tempest” and beginning intensives with John and Sharyl.

This goes along with beginning to blog about emotions and also getting ahold of the entertainment trance – instead of daydreaming, to use the emotional force of the songs for various purposes.  I’m very excited about this and I relate this new enthusiasm directly to the movement of Pallas into Aries.

This is definitely a new phase, to go with the beginning of spring.  I’m very excited to have this project working out better than I expected.

The Buffy Diaries 3-30-2017

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6:28 PM 3/30/2017 I’m getting better at note-taking, which may also mean that I’m getting better at managing my own awareness.  I woke up this morning with Motorhead’s “Shine” running through my head.  I listened to it on the way to work.  I’m debating how many Motorhead albums to buy on iTunes.  I have “Ace of Spades” and “1916” and a best of compilation.  Should I go for late period or early period?  I’m dithering.  But the runup to the Moon sextiling Neptune was pretty good, I was buckling down and trying to get a handle on the mental drifting I experience all day at work.  I’m able to grab on to the darkness a little better every day.  I still have a lot of resentment of the spiritual hierarchies of the Earth that society is such amoral filth but at least the anxiety of feeling mentally out of control is lessening.  This is good with cerebral Pallas entering Aries. 

I’m still listening to Drain STH a lot, especially “Simon Says” and thinking about this crazy movie scene I keep running … I feel like I’m really latching on to this one, working out the implications.  In the evil of this scene lies the reflection of everything I want to say with this story.  Also I’m able to get a handle on the trance itself, I’m starting to be able to see around the edges of the dreamstate that music puts me in.  A lot of this has to do with blogging about my feelings.  It actually hurts my head a little to write things like this.  It hurts my head to think about all the disgusting, stupid people I’ve known in this world, but writing it in this way is allowing me to get an outside perspective on my own feelings about it.  It’s really Nazis I’m still trying to kill, I think. 

With my inner senses I can see a lot of astrological structures.  I was reading up more about asteroids today and I can see that having Pallas and Juno (both retrograde) in the 10th house is very important.  My blogging is a very “Pallas” activity and my relationships with angels are very represented by Juno in Capricorn.  I’m also finding some new significance in Ceres retrograde in Aquarius in the 12th house – no wonder I’ve always been uneasy with Aquarius.    I’ve been thinking about Lemmy Kilmister’s Mars and Saturn in retrograde, and the Saturn retrogrades of so many entertainers.  My retrogrades are these asteroids.  It’s like I was playing a mind game in my last lifetime and I got confused and lost, and I’m here to put that back together. 

I can see how it works.  I can see these astrological structures, energetically and … and then what?  I’m drifting as I write this, unable to come up with an answer but the very fact that I’m doing it shows I have the issue narrowed down and I am hanging on to it, finding meaning through the feelings.

The runup to the Moon conjunct Mars was good.  I felt I was building momentum toward solving these mind-wandering problems.  It’s a kind of interaction of Mars-Sagittarius with Neptune-Scorpio.  I actually looked up from what I was doing to check for it at the exact time of the aspect, 10:49, so it was as though I was sensitive to it. 

Then was Jupiter squaring Pluto at 1:19.  I was surfing the web a little.  The lead singer of Drain STH married Tony Iommi so I was looking him up and since I’m getting into Motorhead I thought I might as well get some Black Sabbath albums from the library.  Turns out Iommi has Mars and Saturn conjuct, both in retrograde as well, just like Lemmy.  I was getting some new insights into the psychic evolution of music, and why the music of the civilization of Earth is so bad now.  I’m not blaming heavy metal anymore, I’m acutally listening to more and more of it, but for a long time I’ve wondered how music could turn into this heaviness when it used to be so light.  I’m beginning to see, in practical intuitive terms, how it could have worked out this way.

But I could feel the Jupiter/Pluto square coming in the sense that I had abosolutely no thoughts about the significance of my job.  I was just working and not looking for any kind of relatedness to society.  It just didn’t matter.  The aspect was filling my mind and crowding out self-reflection.  Afterwards I went back to thinking about Black Sabbath and what I might discover when I listen to them.
 
I felt like something had a hold of me, that the spiritual forces in my life have their own momentum now and in many ways, whether it turns out good or bad, there’s a lot less to think about.  The energy is moving and I’m not translating it into “personality” so much.  I was thinking a lot about past lives on the way home.  I felt pretty good about the weekend coming up and getting the answers for so long.  I was looking forward to a free evening.  I surfed the web a bit.  I have a lot of projects to work on. 

The moon inconjuncted Jupiter and trined Pluto while I was catching up on e-mail and doing small stuff.  I need to think more about Pluto.  I don’t know the feeling of it.  Now we’re VOC until 11:40 tomorrow.  I made it through the Taurus moon, mostly. 

I shouldn’t try to be too deep during VOC, should I? 

Mercury enters Taurus tomorrow.  Will I be concrete in expressing myself, or will I be lethargic and self-centered?  Gemini moons always annoy me, so I’ll try to find an antidote for that.  All in all, I feel myself swinging along with the cosmos here, peeling up emotions, curling them into a braid.  It’s coming slowly but I may get to some significance soon.

Now I’m going to go run and perhaps there will be some Buffynicities, and then also some predictions.  I’m enjoying Buffy in college.  It’s interesting to see the change from high school.  The evil gang of vampire loser dorks reminds me of a bunch of people I used to know in Grand Rapids.  

The Buffy Diaries 3-29-2017 part 2

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9:31 PM 3/29/2017  I found some of the notes I took yesterday morning.  Since I saw “Logan” and felt prompted to write about it I’ve been shifting toward a different “frequency” or “range” of expression, trying to get myself more emotionally involved in the world.  I need to find some kind of personal presence in all these aspects I keep blogging about.  There weren’t any major aspects during the workday yesterday, but on the way to work I started listening to Drain STH and thinking about one of the main female characters in my story and also a big scene set in a stadium.  Here I have to think about how much I want to reveal, because there were some really scummy people I used to know when I lived in Grand Rapids who still spy on me sometimes and try to steal my story ideas.  And anyway if I ever wanted to publish there would be copyright issues.  But this is part of the challenge or vortex I’ve falllen into now that I’m more concerned with entertainment.  Buffy is getting me thinking about the world at large and “Logan” was so good that for a moment I transcended myself toward the emotional collective, or whatever you want to call it.  The problem was I immediately hit that wall of how evil and amoral America and American popular culture are, how slimy it is to feel connected to this species.  But I’m going to write about it anyway because I’ve seen that this process is truly magical and can truly shift me to a higher perspective.  The only way to develop that presence is to do it step by step, day by day.  I’m surprised because before I started I was worried that someone from work would find out, but now I realize that this process is the actual me and my reluctance to do this was the very reason I was trapped in that work persona.

I lost some information yesterday about specific moods but at least I recovered a bit and now I can move on to today.  I started listening to “Don’t Change” by INXS on the way in to work, thinking about my old website, where I had the lyrics to that posted.  I may put it back up on Wikidot, just for the hell of it.  I’m feeling the urge to start making more dramatic stuff for the web, either editing together some mashups or working with Blendr to make some animation.  I really need to get my website working, of course. 

I was having a lot of forgiveness this morning.  This process is really helping me to cut “entertainment” loose.  I’m finally getting the insights I needed into why souls choose the life path of entertainers in this rotten, amoral world.  I’m also getting a specific understanding of the actual astral effect of watching stories on video, studying my own movements in and out of time as I think about these stories.  I feel I’ve almost alchemized my own “target”, the specific emotional effect I want my own stories to have.  I’m 90% of the way there.

The Moon trined Saturn and went VOC and I was kind of spacey until it entered Taurus.  Within minutes of that transit I felt a renewal of focus, like I could finally get answers to all of my questions.  I started using some “Abraham-Hicks” meditations again, which I haven’t done for a while.  When Mercury was trining Saturn I was looking up “The Tempest” and having daydreams of living in London in the middle of the 19th century.  I think it’s possible I was interested in theater then.  It’s very obvious to me that my soul chose “The Tempest” as a kind of symbolic signal to myself in this incarnation.  I looked up the flag of London and the history of British theater.  I remember being married at that time and it was nice to get an emotional piece of myself back. 

There’s a kind of dark structure in my mind that’s becoming more visible.  It’s making it easier to do the ordinary work of the day.  It has something to do with recalling past lives and realizing that human life has always been tedious and unrewarding for most people.  It’s giving me a perspective on my imagination in the sense that when I listen to music or watch movies I get a kind of “warlike” excitement but these Saturn aspects today have helped me see that there is no “target” for this surge of energy, that just having imagination as the target isn’t good enough.  I don’t know why I had to spend so much of my life in such vague trances – if it was necessary to become a channel it was certainly worth it.  But now I am definitely moving toward the concrete.

Here comes a huge string of events – Brian’s having a class on Astrology and learning on Sunday, then a circle, then Vincent Genna will be here and he is a very powerful presence, and then into the Angelynx intensive and Sharyl’s intensive starts right after that, and then 10 days later is C2E2, which I know is going to be extraordinary.  That’s the one I’m going to plan.  I’m going to focus on the Moon conjuncting Neptune at 2:57 on Saturday.  I’m going to see what happens if I focus on an aspect months in advance, see if I can get any special insight or effect then.  It also happens to be Earth Day. 

I got a little more integrated tonight, put my feelings a little more together with what I was writing.  There’s a lot to uncover but it’s working.

I’m going to practice a little by focusing on the Moon sextiling Neptune at 7:37 tomorrow.  Moon conjunct Mars in Taurus, I may have a plan of action.  Maybe I could try to gain some insight from Neptune and focus on using it at the conjunct.  Jupiter squaring Pluto at 1:19 pm – will anything happen?  Some big surprise in politics?  I’ll pay close attention to whether it’s positive or negative.  But then Moon is trining Pluto in the evening so I bet it will be postive, except then it goes VOC all night, until after noon tomorrow when it enters my second-worst lunar sign, Gemini.  Hmm.  I’ll probably wind up watching the rest of “The Tempest”.

The Buffy Diaries 3-29-2017 part 1

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9:07 PM 3/29/2017  The most exciting thing about tonight is that I watched the first half hour of Christopher Plummer as Prospero in “The Tempest”.  I could immediately see the resonance of Ariel and Caliban as the balance between the activity of two of my angels.  Furthermore, my third angel, Kara has a name that means “Stormy”.  So there’s all three of them together.  This is cool because yesterday I started listening to “Simon Says” by Drain STH and envisioning a scene from my epic septalogy, “The Nuunar”.  I’ve really begun to write it, my first new scene in a year or more, and this is appropriate as Pallas is entering Aires tonight – I have Pallas in Sagittarius in the 10th house, to go along with Mars in Sagittarius in the 9th house. 

Furthermore, the biggest Synchronicity of the night is that on Friday I saw “Logan” and in that movie is a mutant character named “Caliban”, and boy don’t I feel like a goof that it wasn’t until I was looking up “The Tempest” today that I realized that “Caliban” is a character in “the Tempest”.  Considering that if the Music Box hadn’t been showing that movie this week I might never have thought of that at all, this is really a spectactular synchronicity, which leads to …

Buffynicity #1 – In “Graduation Day” Buffy literally declares “war” on the Mayor, and this relates to my angel of Mars.  Furthermore…

Buffynicity #2 – Today I was thinking about the upcoming C2E2, and this made me think of holidays in general.  The whole Logan-Texas-Mexico chain led me to look up the Mexican “Day of the Dead”, which I guess is now 3 days – October 31-November 2, but I believe it was orignally November 1.  Then a little while later I looked up “The Tempest” and the Wikipedia entry says

“A record exists of a performance of The Tempest on 1 November 1611 by the King’s Men before James I and the English royal court at Whitehall Palace on Hallowmas night.”

Then, in “Graduation Day” Buffy tells Xander he’s going to have to use the soldiering skills he learned on Halloween in Season 2.  So that was three distinct references to “Hallowmas” or “All Saint’s Day” from three different angles.

That’s the biggest.  There were also a couple in the scene between Angel and the Mayor in the hospital.  First, the mayor uses some insults that evil members of my family used to use, but I’m not going to repeat them, except I was thinking of one of them earlier today so it was telepathic.  Second, when Angel throws him across the room he says “You’ve been eating your spinach."  This is a minor synchronicity because even though I gave up eating pasta months ago, just last Sunday I was at a salad bar and I broke down and ate some spinach lasagna.  It was a pretty big deal for me to break my rule and even though it’s minor I accept it as valid.

So the Buffynicities are a little less spectacular today.  There was actually a towtruck with yellow flashers going that sped by the club while I was running, but I don’t even know if I should count that. 

However, the coincidences surrounding "The Tempest” were pretty spectacular and they have deep resonance.  I remember reading parts of it in junior high.  I also watched “Tempest”, a film by John Cassavetes with Raul Julia, Susan Sarandon, and Molly Ringwald several times on HBO back then.  Like Prospero, I have an evil brother who is a scumbag and did things to mess up my life.  I also have spirits who work magic for me.  I leave the rest to the public to figure out.  It’s enough to say that seeing “Cool Hand Luke” and “The Tempest” during this Jupiter retrograde is a very big deal and brings a lot of things from my past to a close.

In part two then, I will go on to astrological aspects and other things.

The Buffy Diaries 3-28-2017

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10:52 PM 3/28/2017  Only two Buffynicities tonight. 

#1.  Although I usually drink Perrier, just for the hell of it last Sunday I bought a couple of bottles of Evian.  They have the word “pure” embossed on the side, and about a half hour before I went to run I finished the last of the last bottle and I was looking at it, wondering what alchemical meaning this huge word “pure” could have.  I even wondered if there would be a Buffynicity involved.  Then during the episode I watched they were talking about the difference between the kind of demons they had been fighting and a “pure” demon, such as the Mayor would become after the ascension.  I counted that as a Buffynicity.

#2.  Continuing with the blue light shows I have been writing about, on my way home I saw a police car parked a couple of doors past my house.  It had pulled over a truck and was just sitting there with all lights flashing, that’s a whole rack of five or six and others all over the car, blazing down the street, reflecting in all the fences, in all the windows, and even off of the sides of cars so all the way home it filled the horizon and I was looking at a vast expanse of burning blue light.  I don’t think I’ve ever seen that before and it seems to have been the third night for this.  So that was awesome.

I forgot yesterday also, about the class of ‘99 presenting Buffy with an umbrella, that it had been raining for two days prior to that and I had been carrying an umbrella around.

As for astrological aspects, there weren’t a lot during the day, but I have some other things to write about when I finish this.  I was indeed out shopping when Moon-Aries opposed Jupiter-Libra at 5:38 PM.  I was enjoying myself, racking up some good food and I wish I could remember what I was thinking about because it was cool.  I’ll go into detail in a minute about what I’m doing about this memory problem.  I was excited to pick up some clothes hangars to hold all the old shirts I can wear now that I’m thin again.  I bought a bunch of sodas even though I am getting totally sick of them, they taste like chalk to me now, and I intend to quit.  They were on sale so I had to do it.  I did buy a bunch of caffeine-free diet coke though, just to help me get over the caffeine fix.  I was listening to a lot of Motorhead as usual, but I’ll go into that in a minute.

When I got home I was having a good time, I’m pretty caught up with a lot of paperwork, which is always my main problem.  During the runup to Moon conjunct Uranus in Aries at 9:15 I was feeling pretty in control of my life.  Kara is coming through very clear today.  I feel my conversations with her replacing a lot of my former flights of imagination.  All the work I’ve been doing is paying off and I am coming to feel separate from my imagination at last.  I can really feel huge changes in the way my mind is working.

So the big news is that this morning I was listening to Drain STH on the way to work, thinking about how some of the songs are very appropriate for one of the female characters in my sci-fi fantasy novel.  I was rocking out to this all morning and I had a new vision of her and what she looked like.  I also continued rocking out to Motorhead.  Today I listened to “1916” the most.  I really love the song “Love Me Forever”.  The Drain STH song “Simon Says” is going to be pivotal. 

Well I’m very tired again and I can’t keep this up, but seeing “Logan” and wanting to write about it has provoked me to get “into the mix” and start blogging directly about my feelings concerning things that are happening in the world.  I know it can be pretty torturous and unrewarding to try to be honest, but I’m going to give it a shot. 

I have more to say about what I experienced but I’m dead tired again.  It will have to build up a little a a time anyway. 

Tomorrow both the Moon and Mercury trine Saturn, and the Moon enters Taurus so it should be a heavy day, but beneficial.  I’m looking forward to it, and to writing more about my feelings about specific things that are going on.

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As recorded in my post for tonight, I was looking at this bottle, wondering about synchronicity a half hour before they were talking about the Mayor’s ascension being “pure” in the episode I watched tonight.

The Buffy Diaries 3/27/2017

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10:41 PM 3/27/2017 Well, damn.  I missed “The Tempest”.  I got all the way down there and it was sold out.  I walked home feeling a little gloomy.  However, I got my Sirius Black wand in the mail today.  At first I thought it was a nice synchronicity to get it on the same day I was seeing a play about a magician, but after it didn’t work out I thought that it was more appropriate for the character of Sirius that I brood on darkness instead.  Speaking of which I am still listening to Motorhead all the time.  The solidity of Lemmy’s approach to music, which I think is related to his Mars conjunct Saturn, is providing me with a sense of boundaries and also helping me stay focused on the passage of time.  It’s very healing.

Christopher Plummer’s “Tempest” with the Stratford Festival is on Google Play so I’ll watch it after I watch the Season 3 finale of Buffy this week. 

Only a couple of minor Buffynicities tonight, as I cut my run short in order to make the trek down to the Music Box.  Tonight was Buffy’s senior prom and they gave her a golden umbrella.  This was cool because I’ve always seen Genny as the Morton Salt girl, with the yellow umbrella.  But that’s minor.  The real one was that today I broke down and decided to buy the Buffy soundtrack CD on Ebay so I could have the theme music.  When I checked the track listing I noticed that there was a version of “Wild Horses”, the Rolling Stones song.  It just so happened that tonight was Buffy’s senior prom and the climactic sequence had “Wild Horses” as the soundtrack, so that was indeed a full Buffynicity. 

Another synchronicity was that I mentioned “Tomb Raider” on my blog recently, yesterday I think, and today on my twitter feed were some new pictures from a new version of that franchise that’s coming out.

But that’s it.  Meanwhile, as far as aspects, today did work out pretty well.  I am getting more focused, taking care of business better.  The Moon moving into Aries was a relief.  I just have to make it over the Taurus/Gemini hump and I can get back to feeling good about life.  It’s amazing how regular the effect of the moon signs is on my life.  As Mars sextiled Neptune I actually found it difficult to think.  I was very excited and felt very energetic but I really couldn’t come up with any kind of mental response to what was happening.  It was like I just had to wait through it.  I found that very odd, as Neptune aspects usually bring a lot of insight.  I was on lunch when the Moon conjuncted Venus, I think I was taking a nap.  I had worked relatively hard all afternoon and I was feeling very scattered.

The new Moon was just an hour ago.  It was an interesting evening.  I felt pretty good on the drive home, and then I rushed to have a short run because I am really excited about losing weight.  I found a couple more shirts this morning that I’ve never been able to fit into – I bought them and then stashed them away, and now at last I can wear them.  When I got home I found my Sirius Black wand waiting for me.  I bought it weeks ago on impulse from an Ebay store out of China.  The expected date was some time between March 24 and early May so I thought it was awesome that it came on the day I was going to see “The Tempest”.  I was very excited on my way down, but then I found the show was sold out.  I could have gone to see “Blade Runner” but I didn’t. Instead I turned around and on the way home I felt very dark, brooding about my evil family just like Sirius must have done.  Then when I got home I dug through my closets and found a ton of old clothes.  I fit into a pair of pants I used to wear back in 2003.  They were a little tight but in a few weeks I’ll be able to wear them comfortably.  It’s amazing all the shirts I had that I’ve forgotten.  I still have a shirt by Z. Cavaricci that I bought back in 1991 when I first went to Southern Illinois University.  So this is fuckin’ awesome. 

I also did a lot of cleaning and organizing and now I’m off to bed, ready for the new lunar cycle, looking forward to the dreaming circle on Sunday and the beginning of John’s intensive next week.  Also I’m going to see Blade Runner and Tempest, and wind up season 3 of Buffy.

In terms of aspects, not much is going on during the workday.  I’ll be grocery shopping when the Moon squares Pluto.  I’m noticing that I think a lot about pop culture while I’m shopping and I wonder what insights I’ll get.  Moon conjuncting Uranus in the evening, probably while I’m watching Buffy, might be wild. 

I’m looking forward to Venus and Mercury changing signs. 

The Buffy Diaries 3-26-2017 part 4

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11:44 PM 3/26/2017  Looks like tomorrow might be almost literally a blast, with the Moon entering Aries, Mars sextiling Neptune, and then the Moon conjuncting Venus.  “All’s fair in love and war” I hear.  And of course a new Moon in the evening.  Something’s going to happen and I am really excited about the unusual Neptune aspect.  Today (Sunday) has brought some of my clearest perceptions of higher worlds yet and I bet I’m going to get something really good tomorrow, and also an improved sense of direction.

The Music Box is showing “The Tempest” tomorrow night.  I may go see it.  After all, my angel of Mars is named Kara, which means “Stormy”. 

Which reminds me, tonight the Mayor was talking about his Irish Setter, “Rusty”.  “Stormy” was an Irish Setter who lived across the street from me when I lived in Lubbock.  So that’s pretty cool because “Rusty” is related to Iron, the metal of Mars.

I put off seeing “Blade Runner” this weekend because everything else was so intense.  I’ll see it Thursday night or this weekend.

Another Buffynicity:  There’s a store in Sunnydale called “April Fools”, Cordelia’s been working there and April Fool’s day is this week.

Mercury enters Taurus and Venus goes back into Pisces this weekend.  I’m looking forward to getting more specifics about the spirit world. 

The week after begins my intensives with Sharyl and John.  During those, C2E2 will happen.  Things are about to get wild!

The Buffy Diaires 3-26-2017 part 3

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11:13 PM 3/26/2017  My predictions for Friday were pretty accurate.  Mercury opposed Jupiter at 7:45 AM and it was at exactly that time that we got a surprise delivery that was very time consuming.  At first I was dreading it but it actually worked out to be fairly smooth, although it put me behind schedule for a number of other things.  There was another tedious project to undertake and although I finished around eleven, with the Moon trining Jupiter, and felt fairly relieved, it turned out that a co-worker had made a mistake so we were re-doing part of it while the Moon was sextiling Mercury.  On the whole, however, the day was going by fast even though I wasn’t doing all the work I had planned.  My prediction was accurate and because the surprises screwed up our schedule I wound up working through lunch and leaving early, which “coincidentally” was very handy since I wanted to see an early show of “Logan”.

As the Moon sextiled Uranus at 5:02 I was having some nice experiences of telepathy, but I’ve forgotten a lot of them.  My comics store was closed for a few minutes when I got there so I went to Dairy Queen instead and got a blizzard.  That’s about all I remember.

Logan was cool.  I wrote about it elsewhere.  I came home and went to bed I think.

I woke up early in the morning and I’m pretty sure I was awake when the Moon entered Pisces.  Thank god, I hate Aquarius Moon.  It conjuncted Venus soon after.  I felt pretty good.  I was having good psychic experiences.  It’s frustrating me more and more that I can’t remember or express what’s happening to me, but this is a good sign as it means I’m becoming more aware.

I wrote some things about the movie and I could feel an emotional shift in focus that is helping me channel.  I know I’m going to write more of that kind of thing in the future.

I slept in the afternoon and then went to a group ritual, and then I went to see “Near Dark” which was very intense and it climaxed just as the Moon was sextiling Mars.    I was very excited on the way home, and I stayed awake during the Moon/Neptune conjunction.  I wrote my post.  A lot of interesting ideas came together for me then. 

When Mercury conjuncted Uranus at 10:06 this morning I was finishing my meditation at Tracie’s.  I need to write those things down faster because I lose them.  However, the post-meditation reading was about how different people have different talents for different missions, so that was encouraging.  And there was a strong sense of integration of my understanding of the various spiritual “lineages” I’m working with.

I was thinking a lot about the X-Men, and how if I were making X-Men movies I would paint Xavier as a tragic hero, sacrificing his “daughter” Jean, who then becomes a Fury and kills him. 

I was taking a nap while the Moon sextiled Pluto, and I woke up around the time it was inconjuncting Jupiter.  I went down to edgewater and felt the presence of my guardian angels with greater clarity than ever before, although I’m still hesistant to write about the things I see in that state.  This is something for me to work on.  I am still balancing my understadning of the roles of my various angels.  I came home, watched more Buffy and then did housework and caught up on this writing.  It was all very productive as it built up to the Moon conjuncting Chiron.  I am finding Chiron to be very significant and this conjunction was certainly very validating.  However it’s getting late and I’m just going to do some predictions now and go to bed.

The Buffy Diaries

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8:15 PM 3/26/2017 It’s a nice night, there’s a lot of very intense magic coming up over the next two months, and I have the rest of the evening to excavate a very powerful weekend.

I should start with Buffynicities and regular synchronicities:

Synchronicity #1:  I was at the toy store on Friday and I was waiting to talk to the owner while he was on the phone.  It was getting a little annoying because I wanted to get out of there in time to see Logan, but he was raving to someone about some 3.75" action figures he had just bought, going over them in detail, including a Dracula, a Frankenstein, and a Creature From the Black Lagoon.  I was thinking this was a “Monster Squad”, remembering that I had loved this show when I was a kid.  Then I crossed the street to my comics store and the owner of that was playing the 1980’s “Monster Squad” movie on his TV.  That was nice.

Synchronicity #2: On another nostalgia trip, at work I had an impulse to look for a bandana with a map of Texas on it, because that’s one of the first possessions I remember as a kid, when I lived for a while in Lubbock – a red bandana from Texas Tech University with a map on it.  Then that night I went to see “Logan” which takes place in Texas.

Synchronicity #3: I had mentioned the movie “My Favorite Year” in a recent post, and Logan has some issues similar to that older movie in this current one.

Synchronicity #4: “Laura Kinney” is Logan’s daughter, who is hispanic.  On Monday, the night Jay came over right after I finished the episode with “The Sisterhood of Jhe”, and then I did a reading for his girlfriend Laura, who is hispanic. 

Both of these synchronicities relate to memories from early childhood.

Buffynicity #1: On Thursday I was surpised by Sandy’s split-second timing with the “blue light” of a cop car, and I compared a black robed figure to “Khan, or an Angel of Saturn”.  Watching the conclusion of that episode on Saturday, I saw that the black-robed figure was an ally of Giles, who had “Introduced him to his wife”, and further they were talking about the dark figures “light show” which had really been a trick.  This is definitely related to Sandy’s “light show”, and tonight another cop car went by with its blue flasher going.  Although the timing wasn’t as startling, it is still not a usual occurrence.

Buffynicity #2: I saw “Logan” on Friday, and in that movie Xavier has a problem with out-of-control telepathy.  The Buffy episode I watched on Saturday was about her getting bitten by a demon (the illustration of the Demon in the book looked just like Wolverine, with little pointy peaks on its temples recalling Wolvy’s distinctive hairstyle) and developing out-of-control telepathy. 

Buffynicity #3: The blood of the demon was blue and emitted light like the “blue light” of the previous episode.  I also thought of my earlier working in which Angel says “my blood is the key” because he brings the blood to Buffy.

Buffynicity #4: (I’m having deja vu as I write this).  I wrote a mini-review of Logan on Saturday morning and in the Buffy episode I watched that afternoon there was a really snotty kid who wrote mean-spirited reviews in the school paper.  Everyone thought he might be a psycho killer.

That one is especially interesting.  Am I that kid?  Was I too harsh in my review?  I don’t know.

Buffynicity #5: Tonight’s episode featured the “Box of Gavrok”, which is a cube.  I bought a prop “Hellraiser” cube a couple of weeks ago.  It’s on my pop altar.  Since I’ve been on my Motorhead kick I’ve been thinking about the song “Hellraiser” which Lemmy wrote for Ozzy Osborne (I just downloaded it).  This cube evokes the “cube of space” which is associated with “The Master R”, founder of the “I AM activity”, a religion based here in Chicago, which is dedicated to the “Ascension”.

Furthermore, since I saw “Near Dark” last night, I have been thinking a lot about James Cameron because he was married to the director, Kathryn Bigelow.  The Box of Gavrok spiders hug peoples’ faces just like the Aliens from that franchise.

They are of course related to the legendary astral spiders.  I was looking at a toy spider on Friday, thinking about buying it.  I probably will if it’s still there next Friday.

Buffynicity #6:  I had also been thinking about “Tomb Raider”, the scene where Lara Croft hangs from the ceiling.  Angel lowers Buffy into the Mayor’s office in a similar way.

Buffynicity #7: On the train home this afternoon there was a kid standing in front of me wearing a “Northwestern Engineering” t-shirt and then in the episode Buffy got accepted to Northwestern University.

Buffynicity #8: Angel had a dream where he got married to Buffy and she burst into flames and this resembles some elements of “Near Dark”, which I saw last night.  The romantic issues in general were pretty similar.

So that’s Buffy and now for astrological aspects in part 3.