I just finished a Zoom circle with Sacelli, et al. and I am wondering what I could write about it that will be useful to read in 13 years.  Turning 50 is bringing me to the single-pointed focus I always wanted.  I went back to nights when I lived at Jarvis, feeling safe & cozy on circle nights, knowing my bedroom was upstairs, there on the edge of bohemia, going to work for a large corporation.  There were specific layers of energy I experienced, specific points of contact with the higher realms, and of course all the evenings socializing around the table in the dining room.  It meant a lot but when John moved to Mexico it was all over for a year.  What did it mean?  I still had to find my place in the world.  Now my own spirit contact is much more stable.  But what is specific about tonight?  So much time spent on this “scene” in Chicago, and it means nothing.  Nothing comes of it.  “Society” is worse, there is no beauty, no honor.  Only the spirit world matters.  And I don’t even want to think about the wreckage of crummy relationships.  But there was all that work, all those readings and meetings…something happened.  I got over a lot of bullshit, occultism and black magic, pretentious assholes, narcissists.  I got clear.  So I want to enjoy the nostalgia.