10:54 PM 7/15/2018  I’m bringing it down, light and/or dark.  Important things are happening.  I’m fucked up because I have to start my workweek and I’m five days behind on transits.  The engine light in my car is on, which pisses me off because I just had it in the shop a few weeks ago.  Also I’m scheduled to work downtown on Tuesday which is the night the M19 league starts in Schaumburg so whereas I would usually use such a day for a nice relaxing evening at home I’m debating having to drive across town just for that.  And I got a parking ticket back in May which is due this week but the website says I’m not eligible for an installment plan and I don’t want to have to pay the whole thing at once.  Furthermore the men’s water spa at King Spa is closed for remodeling so I didn’t get my usual hot-cold cycle there today.  It was a bit of a downer.  I wound up sleeping in the infra-red room for more than an hour.

My eyes hurt.  I wonder if I need new glasses.  My narrative hurts.  I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing with it.  I need to take out the recycling and I haven’t put my clothes away from the last laundry I did.

On the other hand I have bunch of overtime next Sunday, and I just made it through a relatively stressful weekend with a lot of work in it.

11:22 PM 7/15/2018  I’m having a pretty real spiritual vision now.  I’ve talked to a lot of people over the last two days who have changed my life.  I’m trying to bring down all the blissful white light I’ve experienced into a useable form.  I should look forward to tomorrow evening.  I’ll have a few hours and I won’t have to get up too early in the morning.  This is a different narrative for me, less concerned with the past.  This is what’s happening now.

I’m working on a script, “How to Handle Yourself at a Gangbang”.