I woke up in the morning, very excited for all the time I have to do all the things I want to do, but I soon found myself in my dazed, unfocused but feeling good state where I feel like I can do anything in the world but it’s all so magical I don’t know where to start.  I waste so much time there.

So I started writing about what was going on, just to get things moving, and I realized the best thing to do would be to try to integrate Kara into the stream of activity here, and this is the last time I’m going to explain in a post who she is (angel of Mars) and from now on people can just figure it out for themselves, if they bother to read anything I write at all.

So I did a magical working that went on for hours.  It was the best I’ve ever done.  I got the most clear information I’ve ever gotten.  I wrote a bunch of it down, but I’m not posting it publicly.  I’ll have to go back through and work on it. 

So after hours of doing that I went to Xmas dinner, and then I took a nap, and then I woke up to find that George Michael had died and this is really making me unhappy, but at the same time I’m learning a lot from his spirit.

This is a really good start to my vacation, the working was very successful and Kara is much more in focus for me. 

Even as I wrote that she came down a little harder.  But with this new intensity comes a change in orientation.  It’s as though I’m in the channeling state now and I have to figure out how it relates to daily life.  This is actually one of the big revelations of the working – that when I think I’m daydreaming my mind is actually doing two things at once.  I have to get them so I’m doing one thing at a time.

So much happened today, it was such a whirlwind of psychic activity, that it is extremely frustrating to not be able to describe it. 

But I’m seeing as I write that Kara has actually changed the game plan, that old pattern of describing is over.  When I blog now I’m blogging “with” her. 

The issue is that I have to keep recycling my own emotional patterns in order to get material for her to use symbolically.  I can feel her presence but there’s nothing in the zone between us, I have to loop back and kick up a wave of emotion for her to ride.