6:43 PM 3/21/2018

What an amazing ride!  Sixteen days without a blog entry, due to improperly installed drivers for my internet adapter, I think.  Whatever it was on the night of Wednesday the 7th I came home and I couldn’t log in to Windows 10 because it couldn’t get on the web.  I got it back last night and now I’m in the midst of reinstalling everything on my new hard drive, which is much bigger, faster, and quieter than the old one, which is now an external drive from which I am transferring my Poser libraries as we speak.  Sadly, I left my astrological planner at work today so I’ll have to rewrite this whole entry again tomorrow night, but that’s probably ultimately a good thing because this has been a very dense two weeks of transformation for me. 

I remember how excited I was as I wrote my last entry, in the morning before I went to King Spa.  I was looking forward to recording my reactions that evening.  Some of them I’ve noted in the astrological planner I left at work, but for now I must say that it was as rewarding as I expected. It’s a deeply meditative experience for me and I’m getting more into it.  I went again last weekend and I plan to go every two or three weeks until some kind of interdimensional gateway opens and I am sucked into a higher realm or something.

The specific aspects I’ll work on tomorrow but I just want to capture now the intense transformation of being without 3D illustration for two weeks.  It was my constant preoccupation for months and then I was without it for two solid weeks.  I thought about it all the time, and about the meaning of the astral desires involved in it.  It’s gone from being a distracting indulgence in entertainment to a very focused occult process.

Other things have happened to deepen this sense of transformation.  I devloped a nagging pain in my right foot and had to quit working out every night.  I think the pain came from my new car, which is relatively small.  I’m glad it’s small, because I get so many more parking spaces than when I had a minivan, but I’ve been wedging my foot into the steering well and I think it bruised a bone or something so after years of working out five to six times a week I have stopped coled while I heal.  I’m gratified that I’ve been able to continue to control my weight, and also had more time to do other things. Come to think of it, this is also an astral issue because it’s only when I run, really, that I watch video.  So this has been a time of major readjustment relative to the astral plane for me.

Also my computer went bad the day before Jupiter went retrograde.  The last time Jupiter went retrograde was when I started watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer, marking a new era in my life.  Now I’m looking back on that time and what changes have taken place because of my new involvement in the astral and emotional worlds.

I also took a girl to see a creepy horror movie at the Music Box, which was cool, and astral.  And I started up a regular game of Magic the Gathering with a friend, another astral involvement.  So now that I’m writing my blog again I can see the trend and feel a different astral-emotional presence in what I’m doing.

I felt totally overwhelmed and insignificant at work but I did get over some major projects.  I’m having some relief that I’m able to do my job better, although today fifteen minutes before I got off work I found out that there’s an audit tomorrow.  So I’ll be seeing what happens and writing about it tomorrow.  There aren’t too many aspects.  It may work out well.

I keep thinking back to a time four or five years ago when I was trying to talk to a friend of mine about the psychic state I was in and being totally unable to relate it.  Now years later my life is nothing like I’ve expected.  I’ve lowered my expectations for the world considerably.  But at least I’m beginning to feel like I’m in one piece and the terrible isolation is mostly over, even if I find myself “non-isolated” in a crappy, disgusting, pointless doomed world of corporate amorality where I would rather not be. 

My Poser library has finished migrating so I’m going to go work on installing Daz, but I’ll probably be back later tonight.  I do plan to cover every aspect in the last 16 days, including an amazing 2nd trip to King Spa on Sunday.