The Buffy Diaries 6-28-2018

7:54 PM 6/27/2018  I’m drifting, and I need to know where I need to be.  The astral landscape has changed dramatically in the last few months. I can feel how different it all is, and I know my 3D work has been instrumental in this change, but I still get lost in it.  I still don’t have the compass I need.

10:16 PM 6/28/2018 I’m adapting to a new form of blog.  I blogged every astrological transit for two years, I think, and then I hit a big gap.  It was right after I gave up the techniques of the “I AM” activity and began to use that time for other things.  Ironically, after having stopped working out for months I also started back again, this time riding bikes instead of running.  And with working out I’m watching more video, and I’m back involved with stories.  Especially since I “subscribed” to the AMC Theaters A-List and saw two movies this week.  I’m planning on using that time in theaters to work on trance states and focus on emotional transitions.

10:31 PM 6/28/2018 Cancer Sun opposed Capricorn Saturn yesterday at 6:28 AM and I felt it in a sense of being overwhelmed by life, not caring about anything, and yet having a sense of security in my own darkness, impervious to anything this world could bring against me.  Looking back, that transit was totally validated in the sense of escaping from this plane altogether; even though it was a dark escape it was comforting.  Also, thinking about this membership in AMC Theatres has me going deeper into the dream world.  The Moon entered Capricorn at 10:52, I forget what happened but I was making the shift to … suddenly I’m just totally pissed off and I don’t want to go over this in detail anymore.  Except I was certainly enjoying my free time last night, working on 3D while Capricorn Moon conjuncted Capricorn Saturn, feeling relatively secure in my home with my new memberships – The Field Museum and AMC A-List – promising a series of mental adventures over the coming year.

I’m skipping the rest of yesterday’s transits and moving on to today.  I was downtown again, but no Pluto transit.

Capricorn Moon sextiled Scorpio Jupiter at 2:13 PM.  I was feeling great, caught up with work and happy about a relatively peaceful day and an interesting weekend coming up.  Something is peeling me away from my blog again.  (However the transit was validated in the sense of optimism and security in my secret little ritualistic life.)

I went to see Deadpool 2 and even though I’d been wondering whether I’d enjoy it I wound up having fun and feeling like my membership is worth it.  I’m looking forward to a lot of stuff that’s coming up, since I can see it for free anyway.  I got home around the time Capricorn Moon sextiled Pisces Neptune at 8:06 PM, so optimistic about being immersed in the collective dream that I even joined Hulu to see what was on it.  (TV means “transit validated”).

Capricorn Moon just inconjuncted Leo Venus at 10:24 PM.  I would say TV since I’m back to expressing myself, my feelings in a Leonine way, but I feel strange about it in the cold, Capricornian Lunar landscape of nothing but greed and emptiness in this crummy world.  I’m getting used to my own futurelessness and darkness even as my telepathic powers increase.

Mercury enters Leo at 12:16 AM.  I can feel it in the sense of control I’m getting over my own 3D projects and my familiarity with film through increased exposure.  A lot of my mental processes which have been occupied with my various stories are coming to the level of self-expression.  It’s going to be an interesting arc.  I’m very excited to get to work on 3d even now and I feel very happy with my new AMC membership, like I belong somewhere.  I’m expecting a ton of information from this process.

Also coming up this weekend will be another workshop with John which I expect to be very dramatic.  

At 3:58 AM the Capricorn Moon conjuncts Capricorn Pluto, which I guess validates my working downtown/Pluto serial-synchronicity after all.  I’m happy with it.  *TV*  Since I’m very pleased with my fully-paid memberships in these societal structures, museums, and I feel I’m gaining the perspective on the collective necessary to advance my career as a reader or messiah or whatever I am.  I’m very happy, I just wish I could communicate my happiness.  But I feel enveloped in a comoforting darkness.

Tomorrow the Moon is VOC all day until it enters Aquarius at 8:37 PM.  I expect to be taking care of business but it occurs to me now I shouldn’t be focusing so much on daily transits as planning to take advantage of big movements – like arranging my life so I can enjoy the Lunar transit to Cancer on the 11th.  

I think that month-long break a few weeks ago, from which I haven’t completely recovered, was the tipping point to moving to a true public presence.  I’m having the urge to do some research on social media and get myself out in the world.

Chiron is going retrograde and the Moon is entering Aries on the 4th of July.  That should be interesting.  

The Buffy Diaries 6-26-2018

11:41 PM 6/20/2018  That was very interesting, and it actually worked.  After I worked out I sat around thinking of what I should do with illustration and I didn’t have an idea until 10:28 PM, and when I checked it was four minutes before Libra Moon sextiled Leo Uranus.  And I fooled around with it for half an hour and I got the basic figures right just a couple of minutes before Cancer Mercury trined Pisces Neptune at 10:58 PM.  I got quite a bit done and the picture I made gave me a lot of insight.  I still have some things to do with it but it’s very powerful and my attempt to do some 3D magic worked.

11:53 PM 6/20/2018 Buffynicity #1:  This afternoon I was looking on the web at a list of the dumbest things celebrities have ever said.  Someone was talking about how they’d been “noticing gravity” since they were very young.  Then on Sense8 tonight there was a discussion of the force of gravity and how it works without people seeing it.

11:31 PM 6/26/2018  So I let a week go by without tracking transits but now I’m shifting gears and not worrying so much about minute-to-minute astrology, but instead just telling a story.  I hope this will be more regular if I take away the pressure of completism.

Buffynicity #1: On Friday I went to see the Avengers and Tony Stark called for “Suit 17A” for Peter Parker, and then later in the movie they mentioned the number 17 again.  Then the next day I went to the Art Institute and asked a guide where the Jackson Pollack was, and she said something like, “Just go around the corner and you’ll see the 17A and the other pictures.”  So that was a massive synchronicity.

Buffynicity #2:  On Sunday I was at the Field Museum and I bought a small black Ankh, but then I left it there.  I thought it was some kind of lesson in the the negative powers of Saturn but then yesterday the museum called and said they had it in the lost and found. I was worried I’d never get a chance to get down there and get it but coincidentally something came up at work and I wound up working downtown that day, half an hour from the museum.  And “coincidentally” this is $5 ticket day at AMC Theatres, so I thought I might as well stop at Block 37 and see the Avengers again, and by synchronicity they are starting a new level of membership today, “the A-List”, which sounds like a cool deal – $20 per month to see up to 3 movies a week.  This seems like an interesting new direction of astral involvement for me.

So that was a multi-layered synchronicity across several days.

Buffynicity #3:  On Sunday the last thing I was looking at at the Field Museum was a huge bear totem, and when I got home for John’s circle I drew the “High Bear Nation” card and then when I went to take a nap I wound up sleeping through the first session, but then I came downstairs and did great readings for people.  

I’m going to work on posting regularly instead of covering every transit so here’s this for now.