7:42 PM 4/3/2017 I don’t know what it means but my angel interrupted me just now and I’m shifting or I have shifted to a deeper level of spirit presence. I don’t know what’s going to happen. I remember now that I had this same sensation at the circle last night. That was right before I went so deep that John had to pull me back and I felt some kind of strange collision in my mind.
Angels come from a very distant place.
Now I’m hearing snatches of the Judas Priest song “Prophecy” in my head. I’m thinking of people I don’t like in this world, or people I have political hassles with, and how they would think about me if they read this.
Now I’m thinking about people who have helped me channel, and all the work they’ve done, and how they still have to deal with this petty, disturbing, pointless world we live in, although I suppose their souls must be getting what they want.
But there’s a strange glow around my inner experience, a kind of “shining”, just as the novel by Stephen King called it. And I see that guy I knew back in the late 80s. Did he die, or something? And I see all the evil people I know and they’re all croweded in another dimension and nothing there makes sense and the only tools I have to deal with their intrusive presence are these asinine slogans I get from Hay House and self-help nitwits and idiot ministers … forgiveness? What is that? “Be here now”? "Learn to let go"? What crap.
Some shift is taking place, some drama is coming to an end. There was never anything beautiful about this country. The moon is sextiling Mars in a few minutes. It would make sense that an angel would interrupt me now.
How do I even talk about angels in a world this dirty and unpleasant? I guess I’m finding that out by writing this. What I’ve written tonight has taken me deeper into their world. I’m not going to try to make it make sense right now. I have the impulse to just go back and finish blogging about aspects and Buffy TVS. Why do I have such resistance to talking about them in specific detail? I thought some of this was supposed to be a secret, but I see them so clearly. I feel them differently and they are swooping around the room, changing things. I see the face of someone I didn’t get along with in high school, someone I think I got in a big fight with, but maybe that’s only a false memory. Did it matter? I hear a voice say “It’s only what you want here”, but it was never what I wanted.
But I’m having the same sensation of interior collision now, of “cold fusion”, two parts of my mind crashing together. I hear choirs of angels, all the souls crushed together in some kind of horor.
8:01 PM 4/3/2017 Two minutes before the aspect I stopped and put the Judas Priest song “Prophecy” on. My feelings are moving around somewhat and now I think or feel that this is a matter of interior presences moving around, just to get a handle on what I’m supposed to be like when I channel. But where is the landmark within? Where does my inner self go when the forces move around out here in the world? It’s some kind of temple-like structure.
I stopped and checked transits upcoming for the week. I got to Friday night Moon opposing Uranus during the first circle of the Angelynx intensive. I had a flash on all the unexplained telepathic experiences I’ve had around Agelynx and I wonder “will it ever make sense”?
Then the album I’m playing went into “Prophecy” and I was thinking about how thrilling this song was this weekend, and how fun it was, and now I’m in a darker mood and I still enjoy it but it’s not as funny. But there are still presences here and I am still trying to get the emotional vibrations over from one piece of my awareness into the other piece. And what’s the purpose of that? What is the “good” that is served by this communication? What is communication, and what is that flash of energy and information that flashes by my visual field on the right side while I’m writing this? What is this metallic-gold visual, this kind of reflection or glare?
All right, that’s enough Venus-Pisces channeling for now. I’m going to run and then work on part 3.