10:38 PM 9/21/2017  Holy cow, I haven’t blogged in four or five days.  3D is taking up all my time.  Even though I watched four more episodes of Angel this week I didn’t bother to notice too much in the way of Buffynicity.  Last night I noticed several phrases and images that I had just been thinking about, but I’ve already forgotten what they were.  I’m going to try to catch up with transits now.  If I have time afterward maybe I’ll go through the script of the episode I just watched and try to weed them out.

It’s hard to believe I haven’t posted anything since the 16th.  Maybe I lost an entry somewhere.  But going back to the 17th now:

I was meditating when the moon trined Saturn in the morning.  When the Moon sextiled Jupiter in the afternoon I was on my way to Highland Park to see William Corgan again.  That was fascinating.  I guess that sextile felt pretty expansive to me.  After years of thinking about that guy I finally got the chance to talk to him in person.  It made me feel like a part of society.

Moon inconjunct Chiron and conjunct Venus, followed by the trine with Uranus made for an intense circle, when I was very grounded and simply channeled for my dreaming partners.  They said I was pretty good with it.  The various levels of my trances are coming together.

Monday the moon conjuncted Mars and Mercury, and opposed Neptune.  I spent all evening working with Daz3D.  I got some amazing stuff done.  My pictures are moving the magical energies of my life around.  It’s a struggle to stay with my blog and keep tracing everything when all the interesting stuff is happening visually.  Especially significant is that I’ve been listening to a lot of Smashing Pumpkins and going on a journey back through time, seeing the 90s very differently.  Also, the people I met this weekend who were accepting of me as an intuitive changed some things about my approach to my career.

And making 3D images of my angels is making them much more clear.

Tuesday I worked downtown, and there was the expected Pluto transit in the morning.  I was feeling pretty good waking up to that, but what’s happening with Pluto transits recently is that the information about who and what I’m supposed to be in this world is so expansive I can’t really express it.  It’s more of a focusing of collective energies on where I am.  This has something to do with 3D, as that process is forcing me to choose which “dream” to manifest, day by day.

The delivery I expected downtown was cancelled, and the body shop called and said my car would take another day.  I felt very tired as the Moon squared Saturn in the afternoon and yet I also felt relatively peaceful.  Projects (like getting the car fixed) that have been hanging over me for weeks are getting taken care of.

Venus entered Virgo in the evening, and I relate this to 3D modeling in pretty obvious ways.  I was making good headway and also I spent a lot of time poring over the various sales on Daz3D and Renderosity, choosing exactly what I wanted for my next big project, “Energy Science”, which I’m working on now.  This is a big step forward in the depiction of my angels, very appropriate for the Moon opposition with Chiron and Mercury opposing Jupiter. 

There were no transits during the day on Wednesday.  I picked up my car after work and felt very complete having gotten that out of the way.  I got lost in 3D again all night long, although there was an upswing in the Buffynicities, with several minor ones echoing my thoughts of the day, I’ve forgotten most of them.

I was back downtown today – and there was another Pluto transit.  I took care of business although the delivery I was expecting was postponed again.  The square with Pluto made me feel more purposeful in this world than I’ve ever felt in my life.  At the risk of getting ahead of myself, I feel like I’m finally on the verge of figuring out what I’m supposed to be doing in this rotten world.  My angels are the clearest ever.  The square is related to cutting free collective energies of the past – especially those around rock music and art in the 90s, which is a huge chunk of my youth. 

I skipped running tonight and then I went to Brian’s salon.  The Moon sextiled Saturn a little while ago, and I think that’s related to the astrological intuitions I was having over there.  They’re getting really clear – so clear that the specificity of them requires a format other than blogging.

Moon opposing Uranus and entering Scorpio tomorrow should be pretty exciting.  Mercury trining Pluto – wow.  I bet there will be some kind of huge leap in my understanding of what I’m supposed to be doing with 3d.  I bet I’ll also have some impetus to get my website up and get some business cards made. 

The Sun is entering boring old Libra.  I guess this means I’ll be looking at the “work” of being an intuitive.

I’ll try to review that script of the last “Angel” episode tomorrow night.

8:14 PM 9/2/2017  Under the influence of Poser and Daz3D my life has become a big blur.  I think about immersing myself in this imaginary world of 3D animation all the time.  Also, the Buffynicities have faded for a bit, as every other monster on Angel seems relevant to my life as an animator – all the demons, all the creepy personalities – I’m downloading them from renderosity and playing with them like toys now.  So individual Buffynicities have faded even though Angel does seem to be a kind of culmination of my six-month project of watching Joss Whedon shows.  With four seasons to go I think I’ll probably be finishing just before my free year of ATT Fullscreen expires, and then I’ll go back to Netflix.

Meanwhile, transits:

Thursday I was downtown.  I was a little drowsy due to lack of sleep, having stayed up all night working on Poser again, but everything was going smoothly as Mercury entered Leo.  I could sense the resonance as there were some big projects and bureaucratic SNAFU’s I had to straighten out – but I did it and everything is going well.  I felt pretty powerful.  3D is drawing my attention into focus on control like never before.  It’s giving me a motivation to make money, so I can buy a better computer to render more and more!  I didn’t even want my new car this bad.  So I’m involved in the world.  Mercury in Leo – in deciding what I want to depict, I’m deciding how I want to relate to the world at last, emerging from my daydream.

There was a bit of a screwup, I thought I was going to drop off my car for repairs but it turns out the body shop was booked two weeks out so I just made a reservation instead. 

However that just meant I could get home on time and run and then get into Daz3D.  Moon squaring Chiron and trining Uranus had something to do with discovering that there’s a Lara Croft figure for Victoria 7 in Daz – I bought it on Friday and now I’m going to do a bunch of renders of my epic daydreams of her.  The magical aspects of rendering are becoming clearer and I can feel the astral effects with great immediacy, although ironically this pulls my attention away from communicating what’s going on.  Even writing this tonight I feel like a different person.

The momentum is building and I know I’m really doing magical things with 3D, and I’m going to do even more.

The Moon conjuncted Pluto in the afternoon – I was organizing a major project for next week, dealing with people on the phone a lot, feeling myself “moving up in the world” as a manager, but I was also buying several 3D figures I’ve been jonesing for all week, descending into the underworld of the unconscious. 

Usually there are Pluto transits when I work downtown.  I was noting there didn’t seem to be one this week but then a full conjunct the next day seems to count.  I know that 3D animation is pulling me into contact with the collective sphere, the spheres related to Pluto in a very dramatic way.

I got plenty of sleep Friday night and I was waking up when the Moon sextiled Chiron, feeling pretty good about getting back into my routine after the long and exhausting detour of the convention.  I was looking forward to a magical weekend of immersing myself in Daz3D.  Also, I had a reading scheduled for this afternoon, and I was looking forward to seeing how that went.

Originally I intended to get right to work but I wound up messing around and doing housework, building models and generally feeling a new energy of focus and direction as the Moon squared Uranus and went VOC.  I did do some work with Daz, however, and all the complex details are rattling my brain somewhat, even as they expand my horizons.

The Moon inconjuncted Mars and Mercury while I was deep into Daz, bringing the sensation of potency and influence, and excitement about possiblities. 

Then I did my reading and made some money to pay for more 3d figures.  I’m still building up my initial collection as I learn the software and figure out exactly what I want to do.

I went to the library and used some of my reading money to pay off fines when the Moon entered Aquarius, which seems pretty appropriate. 

I worked on Daz some more, then went to run, and now I’m back to work on Daz all night long.  It’s fun and exciting.  I expect this to be a major hobby of mine for the rest of my life. 

So another Capricorn Moon has gone by, and I did indeed have a material hassle – I tried to get my car fixed and had to reschedule.  But at least each one has gotten better and I feel I’m using astrology to ameliorate this issue.  I’m learning to work with Capricorn. 

So tomorrow the Moon opposes Venus and inconjuncts the Sun.  I’m expecting to be locked in my bedroom, poring over Daz3D so not much will happen, but that Venus aspect does promise to bring an intense vision, probably of the magical effects of what I’m working on.

I’m so eager to get back to Daz that I’m not going to bother to make predictions for Monday.  Off I go!