9:33 PM 2/4/2018 Swinging the narrative once again. I did have a lot of fun this week. I didn’t watch as much TV, although I did make it through a few more episodes of Sense8. I’m not focused on Buffynicities right now as much as I am on straight visual imagery I’m getting from the spirit planes. The imagery is “hard” enough that I don’t feel reluctant to say it’s coming from higher planes of existence. I had a really good weekend and I’m playing around with the experience of enjoying my life story, here. I’ve been listening to “She’s Tight” by Cheap Trick for days, reliving the early eighties and the promise of youth. My choice at the moment is whether to go back to last Tuesday, where I left off, or dive into this weekend and all I experienced, thinking about Cheap Trick and Erica Rainson, and also some amazing stuff I’m doing in 3-D.
Somewhere during the week I also resolved a huge financial issue that’s been looming over me for more than a year. There were a lot of hassles at work but on the other hand I did some good readings.
On Tuesday I definitely felt the Moon opposing Mercury, tuning out the world, pissed off and feeling like there’s nothing about this place that I want to share with anyone. But then the Sun entered Leo. All week I’m having this strange balance of light and dark, with my work environment feeling colder and more authoritarian than ever – there are screwups with computer systems everywhere and I’m being reminded just how nothing I am to my employers when there are errors to fix – but at the same time I can feel a change is coming. Psi phenomena are everywhere and I’m actually getting out of a lot of stuff more easily than I thought. As I predicted on Monday night, the Moon trining Mars restored my sense of momentum. I made headway on that financial issue, taking care of business that had been getting put off since November. I got back to my calendar, having been drifting for several days. The Moon inconjuncted Saturn in the evening, but I don’t remember too much except it was validated in a sense of hurry that I had. i think I had gone shopping in the evening and gotten home really late so things were rushed. As I recall I couldn’t run the full length of time I wanted, once again demonstrating the regularity of Saturn transits.
Wednesday was a full moon and I felt it as Mercury entered Aquarius. I felt my whole approach to writing on the web change as I continued to build strange scenes in Poser, making a large headquarters for an evil occult conspiracy. In some ways it seems my “personal” business is done. I’m grateful that the nebulous astral images of popular entertainment that haunt me are dying down.
There was a big hassle at work over computer systems being fucked up, as I said. It sucks to have to deal with my bosses over this stuff. I try to keep positive vibrations about it but there’s a big change taking place. I’m starting to visualize my future away from this company more and more. Moon inconjunct Neptune was fun. The spirit world is getting much closer but sadly that just makes this pathetic world seem colder and more useless. As I said, I’m feeling done with this crummy way of life, like there was never anything that important about it and I’m getting ready to go somewhere else.
Moon opposing Venus and inconjunct Pluto in the evening, I was working on some scary magical 3D stuff, thinking about Rose McGowan a lot. Rose is a scary Virgo and the latest scandals with her are changing the way I see the world. A lot of my emotional investment in entertainment is dying, so these two transits represent the unpleasant feelings I’m having about the collective imagery of the world I live in.
Thursday was okay, I was working downtown. Moon entered Virgo. I got a lot of stuff caught up after a huge project down there a couple of weeks ago. Things were getting back in hand. I continued to think a lot about Virgo Rose McGowan, and how utterly sad and trivial the movie business seems now. That was also related to the Moon inconjunct Mercury after I got off work. Moon squaring Mars and trining Saturn in the evening, once again I got so obsessed with 3D that my workout was slightly shorter than usual. But the square with Mars was powerful, at least.
Friday the Moon opposed Neptune and I felt it very clearly, feeling utterly fed up with the psychic environment of the earth, polluted by sick entertainers like Scott Baio and Harvey Weinstein. I thought a lot about Rose McGowan, who used to be married to Marilyn Manson, and her accusations of Ben Affleck, et al. Everything in our culture just looks stupid and unfair to me nouw and I couldn’t give a damn less about it.
But the positive side was that the vagueness is over and I am getting a specific sense of where I am in all of it, even if it’s unpleasant and I think this world has failed. The Moon inconjunct the sun was a minor reinforcement of this. I stayed two hours late at work feeling like crap, the website where I fill out my timesheet didn’t work, but after I got out I felt pretty good for the rest of the night as the Moon trined Pluto. I felt like I was getting things done, like my world has narrowed down which is a little sad, but at least I don’t have to think about bullshit so much.
Saturday I had a reading scheduled. Moon opposing Chiron had me working on healing my own issues, trying to be responsible as I prepared to channel. Mercury sextiling Mars contributed to the momentum and the sense of power that I felt. The reading went very well and I set the magical intention to spend the rest of the weekend assimilating it as the Moon moved into Libra.
I wound up drinking a little and sleeping weird hours, waking up early in the morning for a while as a few strange transits passed by as I lay awake assmiliating all that had happened.
Then today I went to King Spa. I was there while the Moon inconjuncted Neptune and I got some of my most focused telepathy ever. I managed to assimilate the psychic forces of the weekend very well. I feel very enthusiastic about my future. In the evening I went to an occult class where I experienced quite a bit and as it was getting out the Moon trined the Sun and I was very happy to get some time to make the changes implied in all that I received this weekend.
I should have major visions as the Moon trines Venus tomorrow morning. The Moon opposing Uranus in the afternoon might bring something strange. I hope it’s good and not something to do with the shitt, fucked up project from last week. I know whatever it is will be a step forward though, because all that crap from last week was a step forward even if it was tedious and unrewarding. It made me move farther away from normality than ever before.
The Moon inconjuncting Chiron should make the Uranus opposition into something fun though.
Now I’m all caught up but I should add that I miss watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer every day and life just hasn’t been the same since I stopped. I’m thinking of somehow going back to that and forgetting Netflix completely.
