11:02 PM 12/19/2017  I don’t want this past week to be the first week I haven’t blogged about, but basically I’ve forgotten everything I did.  I left off yesterday with the Moon entering Sagittarius and squaring Chiron on Friday.  My favorite model store is closing so that brought back some old memories. I had a ton of cool stuff to buy on Renderosity – outfits for Victoria 4 that I’ve been thinking of for months.  I did work out and watch Buffy and I had a great cleaning.  The Chiron square made me feel homebound and insular, combining with the laziness of the Sagittarius moon.

Thursday I had been downtown, catching up on old projects.  I saw one of my big bosses down there as well, but everything else was routine, befitting the Moon conjunct with Jupiter.  I felt very in charge, especially with the year-end pressures of the assessments I’ve passed through winding down.  This Jupiter conjunct was definitely very clear.  Synchronistically, there was another Pluto aspect – a sextile with the Moon and then void of course for the rest of the evening.  In general this is related to my corporate job making me feel smaller.  The better I fit in there the more I know I’m just another one of the nothings there.  I’ve learned how to be a corpo.

What did I do on Wednesday, when the Moon entered Scorpio and conjuncted Mars?  I know I was thinking all about major 3D purchases, and the powerful magic I’m doing with my images.  I think the secretiveness of Scorpio also played a role in me skipping my blogging.  Now that I think about it, I think I was a couple of hours late for work as well, although I can’t exactly remember why.  I’ll have to work on that.  I do remember the momentum of Mars taking me places however.

Which leaves Tuesday as the big mystery.  There were so many aspects, and now they’re all gone although I did blog that Monday night about my big expectations and I do recall that the daytime wasn’t such a big deal, but I got a big hit in the evening.

Moon squaring Pluto, sextiling the Sun and Mercury, Sun conjunct Mercury, Moon inconjunct Chiron and opposing Neptune.  I know something big happened to me that night.  I even think I remember writing something about it.  The day actually went by pretty smooth but something so totally unexpected hit me that evening that I felt it justified the entire day.  It’s eerie because I remember writing about it.  I’m recording this now as a kind of seed thought. 

I’m hearing “Angry Chair” by Alice in Chains in my head now.  In general my life is getting happier.  I have more inner control.  Something just hit me in the head as I wrote that.  I know I have to come up with something about these transits that’s deeper than what I’ve been doing, and yet I know what I’ve done has been extremely useful.  Even though not much seems to get expressed, it has a very profound effect on me when I watch myself write it. 

I was feeling great this morning when I got to work with the Moon sextiling Neptune.  Then suddenly my boss at the international level jumped on a bunch of us to complete some training immediately so there was a little rush.  I’m surpirsed there were no transits associated with it.  But everthing worked out okay and I felt pretty stately all the rest of the day, coinciding with the Moon sextiling Jupiter, so similar to the Moon conjunct Jupiter I felt last week.  I’m starting to get more sensitive to that planet and I can tell when it’s making me feel good, like I can handle life.

I got home and worked on 3D, finishing the chapter on Cameras in the Poser manual, and working on some new settings I bought.  I’m finally getting a library big enough not to jump for every new .obj that goes on sale, however.  I worked until the Moon conjuncted Pluto at 8:54.  It’s amazing how resonant that was, as I found myself making 3D images that really impressed me.  Things are really coming together for me on an inner level as I increase the mastery of my imagination.

Saturn has entered Capricorn now!  I think this adjustment is one reason I didn’t blog for so long.  I’m just getting a very hard edge to everything I think and do, nailing down money and 3D, completing high-level tasks at work and preparing for what I know is going to be a very transformative vacation. 

Tomorrow the Moon squares Uranus and sextiles Chiron, Venus squares Chiron and trines Uranus.  I’m expecting a powerful healing and looking forward to seeing whether I make it through this Capricorn moon without car trouble.

All in all I feel pretty peaceful as Christmas vacation approaches.  Saturn in Sagittarius brought quite a bit of philosophical transformation, including a renewed interest in astrology.  I’m expecting Saturn in Capricorn to bring me some money.

I have more to write about that but I’m tired now.  I’m still wondering about what happened last Tuesday, because I know it validated all those transits, but I can’t do more than give myself a suggestion to remember.  At least I’m back on track with it.  I know part of this is about getting back to doing a little every day, and controlling my addiction to 3D illustration.