10:57 AM 5/19/2018  I’m on my way to King Spa again, feeling pretty crazy.  I left my astrological calendar at work.  The question is, how important is the astrological information?  Do I need it before I go to King Spa, or should I leave it until after?  And this is bringing me to the boundary of my inner experience, where I seem to be processing some kind of dream information, and I wonder how important it is to record it.  What could it be useful for?  I’ve had so many of these dreams.

This morning, meditation was very powerful.  

11:11 AM 5/19/2018  I’m worried about what will happen if I leave my book unfound.  So worry is related to worry about …

I was thinking about Paul Foster Case this morning, is this issue related to “respect” for “learning”?

If they want or need that respect they should just resign now because they are total empty scum, the same fascist crap as the Nazis.

11:17 AM 5/19/2018  It’s a confrontation with desire, all the potentials of the day are before me.  I should have the presence of my angel “now”.

11:29 AM 5/19/2018  So this is the jumping-off point for my day, maintaining contact with Kara at this boundary.

“The beginning of the reflective incursion.”

11:07 PM 5/21/2018  So I’m going back to 5/17 now to catch up on my blog even though it’s late.  I did a lot of amazing things today, including download and install my 3d purchases from the last week and get my car’s oil changed.

5/17 1:18 PM Gemini Venus conjuncts Gemini Moon, which goes VOC.  I had had a project at work which didn’t work out as well as it might have.  Part of the original work order was lost and then there was another screw up with the computer so some of it didn’t get done.  It was very Gemini, all the flightiness and pointlessness and wasted time, which left me with a hollow feeling that lasted through the rest of the afternoon, a sense of not wanting to be involved with anything.  Transit validated.  

The Moon entered Cancer at 4:47 PM.  I was almost home, and once I got home I found myself able to go work out and take care of some business.  I felt rejuvinated and the transit was validated as I went back to Brian’s astrology salon and took comfort in the familiarity of the ritual and the amazing insights I achieved.  Also he invited me to play MTG on Sunday (another old ritual) so I felt very welcomed and cozy.

Cancer Moon sextiled Taurus Uranus at 4:59 and I think that was validated by the unexpected energy I had to work out, etc. after the disappated day of failed projects and mild resentment.  Also my psychic experiences at the salon were unexpectedly powerful and I did feel the Uranus influence in the sense that the transimissions I was receiving were coming from a very high level.

Cancer Moon inconjunct Aquarius Mars at 5:54 PM, my foot was hurting pretty bad and I think it was raining somewhat, so even though I had the energy to go to the salon I had some inconveniences and obstacles to overcome, including the cold and taking some cumbersome beverages along with me.  The Mars energy surfaced as a kind of unpleasant feeling of soldiering on through obstacles.

Cancer Moon squared Aries Chiron at 7:09 as I arrived and the salon began, and the transit was definitely validated by the depth and intensity of telepathic clarity I experienced and the healing sense of belonging and acceptance I felt, with an increased familiarity with the higher-plane energies involved.  I got a very good intuitive sense of the “meaning” of astrological discussions from a global perspective, and integrated to a new level of group involvement.

Friday May 18 I was on my way to work as Cancer Moon opposed Capricorn Saturn.  This was a pretty good feeling as I was looking forward to an easy day, having finished the rigorous assessment I’d been working on all week, and having a major project cancelled.  Taurus Mercury trined Capricorn Saturn at 11:49, the day was half over with some good sales on Renderosity and a lot of money in the bank for me.  I don’t remember much specific but it was a very smooth day.

Cancer Moon training Pisces Neptune at 7:23 PM as I was on my way home was quite excellent as I looked back over all the hundreds of times I’ve driven East on Touhy on Friday night and saw that I had developed a very psychic ritual of excellent depth.  I was getting the palpable dimensional crossings I’ve always wanted and very happy as I looked forward to King Spa the next day.  Cancer Moon training Scorpio Jupiter at 8:47 as I was at home made me feel like a total success as I assimilated my week.  I’m beginning to feel ahead of the game of life.  Working on Photoshop especially is making me feel like I’m beginning to rule my own telepathic dream world as I’ve always wanted to.

I fell asleep soon after.

I’ll catch up more tomorrow or the next day.