One of the more influential comics I read in the 80s.
Monthly Archives: July 2018
“When you’re young… it’s hard to make the difference between what is real and what is not real, when you’re innocent and there are a lot of vultures around you… It kind of creeps up on you and catches you in a world that no one will ever know, except someone that has been there.” – Gia Carangi on her drug use
The Buffy Diaries 7-18-2018
8:26 PM 7/17/2018 I had a Buffynicity yesterday that was very specific, but also sad:
Buffynicity #1: I was looking on the AMC Theatres website for the first time in a few days and I saw there’s a new movie “McQueen” coming out about Alexander McQueen, and then within a few hours there was a news story all over the web about the death of Annabelle Nielson. Even her Wikipedia entry was updated with it. She was a good friend of McQueen:
“He was my brother, my boyfriend, my soulmate. Most of the time people called me Mrs McQueen. Quite often we were sharing a bed,” Neilson, who was the last person to see the designer alive, told the Daily Mail in 2015.
Also the movie about Freddie Mercury of Queen is coming out this week, but that’s relatively minor.
The main thing is that I don’t think I’d ever heard of McQueen until yesterday, and then only because of this movie coming out on Friday, and then this news story hit within a couple of hours.
But there is some resonance in the two movies coming out close together, and now I’ll have to see them both.
10:29 PM 7/17/2018 I’m having an interesting evening when a lot of things are coming together. The emotional focus I’ve been looking for in 3D is finally happening; inner planes of experience seem to be adjusting. I’m having my usual experience of feeling overwhelmed by mental chaos, but I actually feel like I’m on the verge of finding the eye of the storm.
12:54 AM 7/18/2018 I’m too tired to go into detail but before I go to bed I want to note that the Lunar opposition with Chiron and the tribe with Mars are both validated by the profound experience I have had tonight of completion and fulfillment, and angelic contact.
The Buffy Diaries 7-15-2018
10:54 PM 7/15/2018 I’m bringing it down, light and/or dark. Important things are happening. I’m fucked up because I have to start my workweek and I’m five days behind on transits. The engine light in my car is on, which pisses me off because I just had it in the shop a few weeks ago. Also I’m scheduled to work downtown on Tuesday which is the night the M19 league starts in Schaumburg so whereas I would usually use such a day for a nice relaxing evening at home I’m debating having to drive across town just for that. And I got a parking ticket back in May which is due this week but the website says I’m not eligible for an installment plan and I don’t want to have to pay the whole thing at once. Furthermore the men’s water spa at King Spa is closed for remodeling so I didn’t get my usual hot-cold cycle there today. It was a bit of a downer. I wound up sleeping in the infra-red room for more than an hour.
My eyes hurt. I wonder if I need new glasses. My narrative hurts. I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing with it. I need to take out the recycling and I haven’t put my clothes away from the last laundry I did.
On the other hand I have bunch of overtime next Sunday, and I just made it through a relatively stressful weekend with a lot of work in it.
11:22 PM 7/15/2018 I’m having a pretty real spiritual vision now. I’ve talked to a lot of people over the last two days who have changed my life. I’m trying to bring down all the blissful white light I’ve experienced into a useable form. I should look forward to tomorrow evening. I’ll have a few hours and I won’t have to get up too early in the morning. This is a different narrative for me, less concerned with the past. This is what’s happening now.
I’m working on a script, “How to Handle Yourself at a Gangbang”.
The Buffy Diaries 7-9-2018
10:45 PM 7/9/2018 I had a really great Buffynicity tonight:
Buffynicity #1: This afternoon I started thinking about Harlan Ellison. I reread “I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream”, and I pinned a few pictures of him and his books to my Pinterest boards. I was looking him up on the web and I read this famous quote of his:
“If you put your hand in my pocket, you’ll drag back six inches of bloody stump.“
Then tonight in episode 10 of Sense8, Capheus got rescued from a riot by an old frenemy, who told him he was a Slumdog, and that a Slumdog will bite your hand off "at the wrist”. I wish the script was online so I could confirm it.
Buffynicity #2: Today this story about Johnny Depp was on the web:
and then he was at the party scene in episode 10, where they also played “Ooh La La” by Goldfrapp which I remember talking about one time when I as at a party at Ravenswood Kinowerks.
So that’s a minor supplemental Buffynicity.
I’m tired now and I want to go to bed, but I’m also very excited about playing MTG tomorrow at Grognard and I wanted to work on some of my awesome 3D, but I’m not going to get a chance. At least I did a really good workout tonight.
I have so much cool stuff to do that I don’t have time anymore, but I would like to get back to blogging every day at least.
Taurus Moon squared Leo Venus this morning at 11:09, and I certainly felt it. I was totally uncomfortable with everything in life even though I could feel the rush of desire, happiness at having so much stuff going on but totally frustrated at not having any sense of direction with it. I was totally at odds with my feelings. And then the Moon entered Gemini at 11:58 and now I know everything is going to be bullshit for the next two days. Like tonight, for instance, when I have some amazing 3D work to do, and no time.
Gemini Moon was sextiling Aries Chiron at 4:01 PM when I got off work and went over to Grognard to retrieve the deck I left there on Friday. It was a very healing sense of restoration as I had been a little worried when I found I left it behind – it has Lyra Dawnbringer in it, a very expensive and powerful card I didn’t want to lose. People were glad to see me there so the transit was validated in the security of a new social routine.
Gemini Moon inconjuncted Taurus Saturn at 8:14 PM. I was definitely out of time, with so much fun stuff to do but total frustration at an evening when nothing got finished.
Venus entered Virgo at 9:32 PM, while I was having my spectacular Harlan Ellison Buffynicity. The Virgo influence is always very magical in my life and I know these few weeks coming up are going to be a big deal.
Jupiter is going direct tomorrow. I’m pissed off because I absolutely loved the Jupiter retrograde last year, when I was totally into Buffy, and I wanted this one to be the same, but now it’s already over and I was really scattered and unfocused through the whole thing.
On the other hand, the Neptune retrograde announced itself very clearly when I missed seeing Rio Bravo at the Music Box, and the Mars retrograde has brought an amazing opportunity to do some ritual magic with Kara. Now Chiron is retrograde since yesterday and I feel like I’m going on a deep swing through the spirit world, really nailing some stuff down.
I wish I had time to go over all the amazing stuff I experienced yesterday, but I have to sleep. I really need to work on keeping up with my blog and not worrying about covering every past day.
The Buffy Diaries 7-1-2018
9:29 AM 7/1/2018 I’m having really good magic, on my way to King Spa in a bit but I had to clean my bedroom and now I’m catching up on my blog in a slightly different way, not so much concerned with capturing anything as I am with acting out the role of myself in the world.
Friday the 29th was really mellow, with the Moon VOC all day. Things went pretty smoothly at work. I was at Grognard games and they said they needed GM’s on Monday night, so I may get involved in a game. I was working out when the Moon entered Aquarius at 8:37, feeling good at having reestablished my routine and gotten my weight under control again. Also with the new A-List at AMC I’m shifting gears, getting more involved with video imagery, so I’m looking forward to watching everything on Netflix.
Also, I made it through a Capricorn Moon without car trouble, which is nice.
Saturday the 30th, Leo Mercury squared Taurus Uranus at 8:01 AM. I found myself rushing around to get ready for the days workshop with John, but feeling very powerful, like I had everything under control and I think the transit was validated with the influx of spiritual information that came. So the square was exciting. I definitely felt the Leonine influence of getting my very own transmission.
Leo Mercury training Aires Chiron at 3:10 PM was fully validated as I did a lot of amazing readings and got quite a bit out of the whole thing.
Aquarius Moon inconjunct Cancer Sun at 6:08, and Aquarius Mars inconjunct Cancer sun at 6:29 was validated as I felt pretty inconjuncted, taking a nap instead of working out before the ritual I was going to that night.
Aquarius Moon conjuncting Aquarius Mars, however lent the day a feeling of raw magical power which was very distinctive, as my vision of other worlds expanded from mere visual impressions to a more 3-dimensional layer of semi-palpable light.
Now, this morning I’m having some major shifts from the extremely successful ritual of last evening, Leo Venus inconjunct Capricorn Pluto at 6:59 was validated as I was lying awake, feeling that the magic I was experiencing was so powerful that I was being lifted out of the collective experience of my life in this world into an entirely new perspective.
And now I’m off for a day at King Spa, trying to assimilate the new energies while working against the anxiety that I feel is coming from the Aquairus Moon opposition with Leo Venus at 5:56, and then after that VOC until it enters Pisces.
Tomorrow should be weird with VOC all morning and then the big splash into lazy, directionless Pisces. The fourth of July feels like it’s going to be a big deal. Chiron joins Mars and Neptune in retrograde.
I have a lot to sort out but I feel confident I’ll get some direction. I can feel the power of Mars in it.