9:29 AM 7/1/2018  I’m having really good magic, on my way to King Spa in a bit but I had to clean my bedroom and now I’m catching up on my blog in a slightly different way, not so much concerned with capturing anything as I am with acting out the role of myself in the world.  

Friday the 29th was really mellow, with the Moon VOC all day.  Things went pretty smoothly at work.  I was at Grognard games and they said they needed GM’s on Monday night, so I may get involved in a game.  I was working out when the Moon entered Aquarius at 8:37, feeling good at having reestablished my routine and gotten my weight under control again.  Also with the new A-List at AMC I’m shifting gears, getting more involved with video imagery, so I’m looking forward to watching everything on Netflix.  

Also, I made it through a Capricorn Moon without car trouble, which is nice.  

Saturday the 30th, Leo Mercury squared Taurus Uranus at 8:01 AM.  I found myself rushing around to get ready for the days workshop with John, but feeling very powerful, like I had everything under control and I think the transit was validated with the influx of spiritual information that came.  So the square was exciting.  I definitely felt the Leonine influence of getting my very own transmission.  

Leo Mercury training Aires Chiron at 3:10 PM was fully validated as I did a lot of amazing readings and got quite a bit out of the whole thing.

Aquarius Moon inconjunct Cancer Sun at 6:08, and Aquarius Mars inconjunct Cancer sun at 6:29 was validated as I felt pretty inconjuncted, taking a nap instead of working out before the ritual I was going to that night.

Aquarius Moon conjuncting Aquarius Mars, however lent the day a feeling of raw magical power which was very distinctive, as my vision of other worlds expanded from mere visual impressions to a more 3-dimensional layer of semi-palpable light.

Now, this morning I’m having some major shifts from the extremely successful ritual of last evening, Leo Venus inconjunct Capricorn Pluto at 6:59 was validated as I was lying awake, feeling that the magic I was experiencing was so powerful that I was being lifted out of the collective experience of my life in this world into an entirely new perspective.  

And now I’m off for a day at King Spa, trying to assimilate the new energies while working against the anxiety that I feel is coming from the Aquairus Moon opposition with Leo Venus at 5:56, and then after that VOC until it enters Pisces.  

Tomorrow should be weird with VOC all morning and then the big splash into lazy, directionless Pisces.  The fourth of July feels like it’s going to be a big deal.  Chiron joins Mars and Neptune in retrograde.  

I have a lot to sort out but I feel confident I’ll get some direction.  I can feel the power of Mars in it.

8:20 PM 4/25/2018  I’m in an interesting channeling state right now.  I’ve just been given the phrase “force fields” to describe some of the inner influences I feel, as they do feel like “spaces” or “fields”, but they have force to them as well.  Sue Storm has force fields and I was just looking at my action figure of Ursa, who I relate to “Susie the Bear”.  So I’m Reed, Kara is Sue, Sandy is The Thing.  That leaves Gen as Johnny, “John Vieve”.  That works out pretty well.

Although I want to catch up on the last three days of transis, they’re “bringing it down” now, reminding me that the Moon just opposed Neptune, which was one reason I felt like complete crap and unable to do any 3d work when I got home.  I just sat around and thought about wanting to do things, but then I finally got my blog going a half hour after the transit.

Before that Mercury had squared Saturn at 4:28 and I was feeling like total crap because I got a surprise e-mail at work, some jerk schedule a task for our department but didn’t tell us which threw off my whole work program and made me possibly late on a big project this week – a very definite validation of Mercury square Saturn, the communication of the e-mail, and the e-mail itself being about “data backups”, given that at 5 pm I had an appointment at Best Buy in Skokie (I just feel like being more specific about my life now) to pick up a hard drive backup which I had recovered.  Limitations, time, communication, feeling rushed on 3D in the evening as the Moon opposed Neptune – all this is substantial validation and the force fields around it are giving me insight into how to work with 3D astrologically.

Before that the Moon had been inconjunct Mercury as I woke up that morning, concerned I was going to be late for the bi-weekly internation conference call I thought was scheduled.  But then when I got there  I found that it was cancelled so that was a definite validation of the Moon trining Saturn at 7:30; I was feeling very free and ahead of the game, the opposite of how I felt by that afternoon when the Moon squared Mercury.

Interesting that I blogged this day backwards, and was taking the order of days backwards in this entry, and talking about the transformation in energies related to time between the trine in the morning and the square at night.  It’s very deep, astrologically.

Tomorrow, the day I am unexpectedly going downtown again, the Moon inconjuncts Uranus, and there are two major Pluto transits – trine the Moon and conjunct Mars.  Amazing validation.

So what about Monday and Tuesday?  I’m so excited now by these force fields that I am reluctant to make myself remember what happened, but recalling the Pluto retrograde on Sunday is like a yardstick.  It was such a total Plutonian grind that the twelve hour stretch of minute observations of inner states stands out in high relief.

I can feel that the force fields are shifting my approach to memory.

On Monday the 23rd I was thinking all about Dracula, and how he was a genuine historical figure who became a myth, and I bought Blue Tree Studio’s “Lair of the Vampyre Bride” which has the famous portrait of Dracula.  I was thinking about how Dracula means “Son of the Dragon”.  Maybe I was Dracula in a former life.  It was like a magical grounding of my daydreams back into the flow of history, the acknowledgement of the legacy of souls on the earth.  This powerful shift validated the Moon inconjunct Neptune.

But when I got home, even though I wanted to work on 3D, I just fell asleep.  It was a very nice feeling and I got lots of rest.  

Yesterday Venus entered Gemini and I am sure that’s one reason I feel so flighty and totally not a part of my own life, just watching everything go by.  I am not looking forward to a month of this.  But the thought takes me that I should do some 3D about it to stabilize.

The Moon trining Uranus was certainly validated in the afternoon as I got a surprising e-mail, just minutes before the transit, about a job request I couldn’t do myself.  The only person who could was in another town and I had a minor panic.  Surprisingly, that other person got the e-mail and came all the way back into town to do the job but it was several minutes of unpleasantness thinking about the trouble I was in before it got straightened out.  This happened again today.  

This week I am working in my home office alone and to have these two surprise jobs, doable only by those people who are out of town dumped on me just before I’m off for the day shows that all of this is arranged by a higher power.  The first one was within minutes of a Uranus transit, and the second one has me unexpectedly going downtown on the day of a major Uranus transit.

However, the Moon entered Virgo, its most magical sign for me, just as my coworker came back into town and made everything alright, so I was feeling pretty good as I came home and struggled to ground the psychic energies into some good 3D.  On the way home I stopped and checked in my hard drives with Best Buy.  There was something so unexpectedly weird about doing that on that day that the Uranus transit is validated on a deeper level, but I can’t talk about it in public.  I can sense the last several days however (since the Pluto retrograde?) that the force fields of astrological information are twisting into a more textured, layered whole just as my 3D illustrations are evolving in a similar way.

The Moon was squaring Venus as I left work for the day, feeling rushed and disappointed that my regular MTG game was postponed.  I’m trying to remember more specifically how that felt.  I think I was actually a little relieved that I was going to get more time to work on 3D, and also looking forward to getting my hard drives reclaimed, as I used the time freed up to stop by Best Buy.  The Moon inconjuncted Chiron about that time.  There was a nice surprise as it turned out one of my drives was reclaimable there in the store.  I had to wander around Best Buy for a while, thinking of the days when I lived in Grand Rapids and there was a Best Buy at the “dirt mall”, right near the crazy legal services place I used to work.  I was viewing the expanse of time since I lived there, feeling the wave-form collapse.  It was a healing reunion with old memories to go along with the reunion with the data on my drives.

8:55 PM 4/25/2018  I really got into typing all of that.  I forgot myself there for a few minutes.  My channeling is increasing in depth.

Venus sextiled Chiron a little later that night when I was at home and exactly 3 minutes afterwards I got a call from Best Buy that the transfer of data from one of my drives was complete and I could pick it up today.  Nice timing!  Chiron is definitely about nostalgia for me.

So here I am in the midst of some major force fields.  Somewhere in the last few days I also discovered that the pain in my heel, which caused me to quit running a few weeks ago, is plantar fasciitis.  It was Wednesday night I discovered this, I now remember, the day the Moon conjuncted Uranus.  So that’s another nice validation.

It’s been a week that I’ve been icing me heel and I believe it’s working, so I look forward to getting back to running.

As for what lies ahead, the Moon is conjuncting Pluto and opposing Chiron tomorrow, which should be big.  It’s conjuncting Mercury on Friday when I see Paul Selig again, and I’ll be at King Spa on the day of the Full Moon in Scorpio.  

This should be good!

9:54 PM 4/15/2018  So here we go again.  It’s been two weeks without a blog entry, and bigger things happened than last time.  I just got done having dinner with a woman I haven’t seen since 1991.  It’s so strange to think of the people I knew back then as being still alive.  

On Monday the 2nd I did make notes that I was pretty paralyzed in the morning, and I didn’t really get going until after the Moon sextiled Mars and Saturn in the morning.  I did feel the transit.  I made notes that I got busy and “lost awareness” until after the Moon inconjuncted Mercury in the afternoon.  But I don’t remember anything else after that.  This is the most disruptive break in my blog.  Before now I’ve been able to reconstruct lost days but now I feel so different that I can’t go back.  

I’m trying to remember what day I worked downtown, because I had Friday off for C2E2.  I suppose I could check my bank account to see what day I ate at the cafeteria down there.

10:04 PM 4/15/2018  So it was Thursday I was down there.

Tuesday I played MTG at Grognard Games with Jay.  The Moon sextiled Pluto and conjuncted Jupiter that day, giving me a kingly mastery of the collective energies.  I got a lot of good other-planar insights while I was playing that evening and Jay urged me to express them so it was a new kind of openness about my experiences.  The Moon inconjuncted Uranus right after the place closed.  It was validated by the unexpectedly powerful sense of doing “actual magic” in the midst of the card game.  

Wednesday the 4th I was gearing up for C2E2, clearing the decks.  But I don’t remember much about the Moon inconjuncting Venus and trining Mercury.

Thursday I was downtown.  My long weekend had begun.  Moon squaring Neptune in the morning was an auspicious beginning although I must admit I was feeling that C2E2 was becoming a bit familiar.  The emphasis has shifted from the novelty of seeing entertainers to a more interior experience.  The square was also validated in the sense of overcrowding on my schedule, with a ritual to attend Friday night and circle on Sunday.

I got to work as the Moon trined the Sun and the day went very smoothly as I tied up loose ends from the chaos of the week before and felt back in control from the overwhelming workload of March.

Friday the Moon trined Uranus in the morning.  Shortly afterward I got on the train and there was a woman with a C2E2 ticket hanging around her neck.  She was wearing a mysterious black mask that made her look evil.  When we got on the train she sat directly across from me and a crazy homeless man standing next to us started belting out “Bad Company” at the top of his lungs.  I got up and moved immmediately.  He went on to sing “Do you feel like I do” by Peter Frampton and rant about receiving justice against his enemies.  All of it an unexpected chaos validating the transit and preparing me for a magical weekend.

The Moon sextiled Chiron later that morning and I felt really great to be back at old, familiar C2E2, handling all the details although there was another unexpected bump in the road in that the White Castle I always go to.  It had been remodeled and was much larger, but the service was no faster so the wait was longer.  Still, time goes by and things go better.  I was smooth as glass all weekend, having a great time in the familiar surroundings.  My convention magic has worked perfectly, and is only going to get deeper.

The Moon entered Capricorn and this lent its flavor to the whole weekend.  Although I was very glad to be there there was also a very “businesslike” tone to the whole thing.  It was not very emotional.  It was what I expected.  The “magic” has worn off of entertainment for me and I was able to get the telepathic information I wanted “straight”, without sentimentality.  I was very glad to measure the progress I’ve made since last year.

Saturday the 7th I had a very spectacular validation of several Saturn transits.  I woke up early and was well in time to make it back to McCormick place but I lost my car keys.  Three people from my past contacted me via Facebook and I sat looking at three chat windows with extraordinary significance, moving through psychic chaos.  The three windows represented the alignment of my three angels.  I looked for my keys for an hour, knowing that this was an “arranged” ordeal from a higher power and I had a lesson to learn.  I searched and tried to use my intuition.  Then finally I went downstairs and did a deeper meditation, and only then did I turn around to find my keys in a bowl on one of the tables in the dining room. I had left my keys (and my keys alone) downstairs the night before and someone had put them in the bowl.  This was after the Moon trined Venus and conjuncted Saturn, and Venus trined Saturn.  It was a kind of practical alignment of expectations about the day, and a psychic communication from a higher plane.

The Moon conjuncted Venus that afternoon as I saw some great acts on the main stage.  I felt very tired and dozed off on a bench in the gallery on the second floor, not worrying at all about missing anything, knowing I was merging my dream life with the spectacle of the entertainment world.   I was feeling positively cozy.

This also built on the momentum of the Venus/Saturn transits that morning.

As the Moon sextiled Neptune that evening I was on my way to an extremely powerful ritual which validated the true magic I’ve been able to do with my entertainment activities.

Sunday the Moon was sextiling Jupiter in the morning and I felt great, having made it through the exhausting weekend. I got everything I wanted during the day.  I experienced fantastic feelings and identifications.  I had to tear myself away from the R.L. Stine panel in the evening to get to John’s circle, but unexpectely as the Moon was squaring Uranus that evening, once I got home I fell asleep and missed it.

I woke up on the morning of the 9th feeling deeply magical, having had one of the best times of my life, and I went to King Spa.  The only transit during the day was the Moon sextiling Mercury, but it was certainly validated in the sense of total success I was having, especially with deciphering certain magical pressures I’ve felt associated with the sign of Virgo since I discovered King Spa over a year ago.  Furthermore I was very excited that there was a special going on and I’d be able to return on Wednesday, virtually extending my weekend.

Tuesday there were no transits during the day.  I played MTG again in the evening with Jay, this time at Gamer’s World in Woodfield Mall.  I got a lot of channeling done, and perceived his subtle bodies much more clearly.  I felt very at home and it was a nice “collapsing of wave forms”, merging true channeling with the sentimental-astral creations of all the years I spent doing laps there with my iPod.  The Moon squaring Jupiter was validated by the sense of rulership I felt at completing a full evening of MTG success, feeling like actual magic was merging with the game.

Wednesday morning the Moon inconjuncted Jupiter in the morning and I felt as though I’d finally come back to life.  I had a new story running in my head about a character named Carl, a writer for a big sci-fantasy show.  The Moon sextiling Uranus in the late morning was validated when I unexpectedly had to get on a big conference call about a supposedly bad error which then turned out to be something that had been dealt with during the audit a couple of weeks before.  So it was a false alarm, but the big, unexpected scare validated the transit, and I did learn something from it about the energy of my work environment.

The Moon entered Pisces in the afternoon and it was very validated by the amazing experience I had at King Spa that night.  I know I’m going to go very often for the rest of the year and it is going to produce spectacular results.

Thursday morning the Moon sextiled Saturn and I was indeed late for work as I had slept through my alarm and woke up an hour late, so the transit was validated.

And now I’m very caught up so I suddenly feel like going to bed and finish the last few days tomorrow.

10:14 PM 1/3/2018 

Buffynicity #1:  I decided to watch the finale of season 5 to wind up my year of Buffy and it was interesting to note that at the end they used Olaf’s hammer to fight glory – because just randomly last week, right before this, I decided to watch the episode from season 4 where Olaf first appeared, and that was on the night I saw a new attendant at the club who had a viking hat.  This is pretty deep, because over the weekend I bought a figure called “The Black Citadel” on Renderosity which has a stained glass window with a hammer in it.  I’ve been thinking of it all weekend, and I was planning to use it as a major theme in my upcoming pictures.

And now that I write this I realize that it’s related to the song “Hammer to Fall” by Queen.

Buffynicity #2:  One reason I decided to skip the rest of season 4 and move on to five was because I missed Dawn and unless I stream Buffy some other way I won’t see her again (sniff, sniff).  But then today I spontaneously decided to look up C2E2 and saw that Joseph Linsner, creator of that other “Dawn” is going to be there this year, an interesting coincidence as I had been relating those characters earlier last year, the first time I saw these episodes.

Boy, I’m sad.  I’m going to miss Buffy a lot.  I know I’ll have to get the DVD’s.  I heard that Netflix dropped her a while ago, but maybe she’ll come back there.  And I know there’s a lot for me to see on Netflix, a lot of Movies and documentaries that will broaden my horizons considerably, not to mention Star Trek TOS and Doctor Who.

The Buffy Diaries has been a total success.  By writing this I developed a “presence” to the world.  When I started I was picking apart astrological transits, wondering how to talk about my exprience, but over time I came to be comfortable just rambling about the things I could ramble about and not worrying about the implications.  It’s kind of interesting, too, that I don’t have an astrological planner for these last couple of days – I’ll check them tomorrow night, but for now I’m just being “with” it. 

Buffynicity #3:  Today I got another e-mail advertising a game called THE LOST SPHEAR, which made me think of “The Golden Sphear”, a novel I started writing back when I was in college.  And then in the episode they used the Dagon Sphere to fight Glory, which is golden, and also reminded me of the “Star Dragon”, which was one of the first astral presences I sensed when I began exploring shamanism. 

I had forgotten that the show changed networks between seasons 5 and 6, and that this episode was written as a possible series ender.  Realizing this tonight brought back all kinds of memories of the last year of haunting the web, reading articles about the show, and following the meta-narrative of Joss Whedon and the actors (most of whom I’m following on Twitter now) – and also of how I’ve already watched all seven seasons of this show, and what an emotional arc that was for me, reliving the lost years of my time in Grand Rapids.  I’m feeling it all again now, and it’s a nice sadness.  I know I could watch it all again and again, and I’m sure I will. 

Oh, my gosh, I have to let go now, don’t I?  Fare the well …

I had other things to write about today.  After working downtown yesterday I was back at my regular site today, and I was surprised at how easy it all was.  I still have some financial issues pending but now that the holiday sales are over I don’t feel so drained and I spent much of the day thinking about the Iggy Pop album “Blah Blah Blah” and all the pictures I’m going to make with the huge amount of new stuff I’ve bought in the last couple of weeks.  Then, a couple of hours before I got off work I got hit with a huge disaster.  It turns out that a project I did this summer wasn’t quite right and there are a ton of things that need to be redone.  I wound up staying a half hour late at work, worrying a lot of the time, which was draining.  And then it was bitter cold out and I was late for shopping and on the way home my phone battery went dead and I got lost.  Somehow I was so fucked up mentally that I took a wrong turn and actually got lost returning from the store where I’ve shopped every week for 5 years. 

I kept a lot of mental control all through the disasters, though.  I recharged my phone and my GPS led me home, and I even got a great parking space right near my front door so unloading groceries wasn’t so bad. 

I did have a lot of hardcore financial stuff to do on the web so I couldn’t work on 3d, but then I went to run and had this big finale of Buffy.  I think I’ll be able to squeeze in one more episode tomorrow but after that I’m on to Netflix – and of course the Buffy and Angel comics.

My new astrological planner comes tomorrow and I’m looking forward to seeing what aspects took place during these last couple of days.  It felt like a positive development to be blogging for its own sake, without transits – an adjustment for the new year when I feel like it’s all going to come together for me with the spirit world.

I must say, here at the end of Buffy, that this is the most natural, personable blog entry I’ve done since I moved to Chicago ten years ago.  I guess spirits are stopping me here to point this out, that after all this time feeling like an exile from the world, I finally belong here. 

Thanks, Buffy!  Thanks angels.  See you tomorrow.

11:01 PM 11/16/2017 Once again I was so into 3D and some other things that I barely have time to blog, but I absolutely have to because of this totally spectacular one that just happened. 

Buffynicity #1: But first is one from a couple of days ago, in the morning on Tuesday I got a text from my friend whose last name is “Hemenway” about getting together for our shamanic literary society, where we’re going to discuss Edgar Allen Poe’s “The Masque of the Red Death”. 

Then in that night’s episode:

Ms. Newman:  Thank you, James. How are you enjoying that book I loaned
you? The Hemingway.

Buffy observes and listens to the conversation.

James:  I like it. Very much. It’s honest.

And only as I write this now do I realize that this episode is about the “Sadie Hawkins Dance”, which is very like a Masque, the subject of the story we’re reading.

So that was deep but I forgot to write it.  That night I did blog and I actually mentioned in my entry that I couldn’t remember what I wanted to record – it was this.

So I was intending to record it eventually, but tonight I had too much else going on so I was going to skip it until I heard this line:

Buffynicity #2, from tonight’s episode:

Angelus:  Hello, lover. I wasn’t sure you’d come.

Buffy:  After your immolation-o-gram? Come on, I had to show. Shouldn’t you be out destroying the world right now, pulling the sword out of Al Franken or whatever his name is?

She’s talking about the statue that Angel has stolen, but this is Fuckin’ spectacular because just today news about Al Franken broke all over the web, that he groped some girl at a USO function.  This is a link to the story that I got at 10:07 AM:

https://nypost.com/2017/11/16/playmate-says-al-franken-groped-her/?utm_source=maropost&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=news_alert&utm_content=20171116&mpweb=755-5073261-719157542

That’s too fuckin’ spectacular, dudes, how freakin’ often does Buffy mention Al Franken?

Anyway, there were a couple of other synchronicities as well. 

Buffynicity #3:  There were cops all over the episode after Buffy and tonight as I was walking to my friends’ house a cop car turned on its lights and started off on some kind of chase exactly one block south of me on Sheridan as I was crossing the street.

But more importantly, Buffynicity #4:  Tonight I noticed that Buffy was imitating Kendra’s African accent and then on the same walk to my friend’s house an African woman with a very similar accent stopped me and asked me for directions to Clark street.

What am I supposed to do with that level of eerie synchronization?  Kendra’s only in three episodes.  I watched that joke where Buffy imitates her accent only 45 minutes or so before this African woman stopped me on the street.

Finally, a regular

Synchronicity #1:  Riding home on the El I fell asleep and missed my stop.  I rode on up to Howard and then crossed over and someone I’d been thinking of the day before was on the train.  If I hadn’t fallen asleep I wouldn’t have seen her.

So it was a heavily synchronized day.  And now I’m going to make myself do transits:

For Wednesday, the Moon inconjunct Chiron was pretty happy, I was getting ahead at work.  And then there was a 3D figure that one of my guides really wants me to get that went on sale suddenly.  Then I unexpectedly decided to drink a little that night as the Moon opposed Uranus.  It worked out okay but it validates the transit that I just decided to suddenly go off on a strange tangent and waste the evening drinking and not getting any work done as the Moon sextiled Saturn.

Venus trined Neptune this morning and I was feeling very in control, “breaking through” to a greater level of confidence in my work and my intuition than I’ve ever known.  The Sun trined Chiron as well.  I’m getting the level of clarity I’ve always wanted. 

The Moon conjuncted Jupiter tonight as worked on the figure I bought yesterday, feeling how powerfully accurate my intuition was about this, understanding the reason my guide wanted me to get it and revealing the order underlying this process.  The synchronicity with meeting that person on the train also reinforced this – the Al Franken synchronicity came later but all in all I feel I’ve crossed a line and now I am all the way “through the looking glass” into the world of intuition and magic, although there are still some issues to resolve.

Sun inconjunct Uranus in the morning will bring some good news as Mercury is sextiling Mars.  Moon sextiles Pluto later in the day so basically I’m expecting good things.

There will be a new Moon in Scorpio on the Saturday, the morning before I’m going to Days of the Dead!  This should be exciting.