10:14 PM 1/3/2018
Buffynicity #1: I decided to watch the finale of season 5 to wind up my year of Buffy and it was interesting to note that at the end they used Olaf’s hammer to fight glory – because just randomly last week, right before this, I decided to watch the episode from season 4 where Olaf first appeared, and that was on the night I saw a new attendant at the club who had a viking hat. This is pretty deep, because over the weekend I bought a figure called “The Black Citadel” on Renderosity which has a stained glass window with a hammer in it. I’ve been thinking of it all weekend, and I was planning to use it as a major theme in my upcoming pictures.
And now that I write this I realize that it’s related to the song “Hammer to Fall” by Queen.
Buffynicity #2: One reason I decided to skip the rest of season 4 and move on to five was because I missed Dawn and unless I stream Buffy some other way I won’t see her again (sniff, sniff). But then today I spontaneously decided to look up C2E2 and saw that Joseph Linsner, creator of that other “Dawn” is going to be there this year, an interesting coincidence as I had been relating those characters earlier last year, the first time I saw these episodes.
Boy, I’m sad. I’m going to miss Buffy a lot. I know I’ll have to get the DVD’s. I heard that Netflix dropped her a while ago, but maybe she’ll come back there. And I know there’s a lot for me to see on Netflix, a lot of Movies and documentaries that will broaden my horizons considerably, not to mention Star Trek TOS and Doctor Who.
The Buffy Diaries has been a total success. By writing this I developed a “presence” to the world. When I started I was picking apart astrological transits, wondering how to talk about my exprience, but over time I came to be comfortable just rambling about the things I could ramble about and not worrying about the implications. It’s kind of interesting, too, that I don’t have an astrological planner for these last couple of days – I’ll check them tomorrow night, but for now I’m just being “with” it.
Buffynicity #3: Today I got another e-mail advertising a game called THE LOST SPHEAR, which made me think of “The Golden Sphear”, a novel I started writing back when I was in college. And then in the episode they used the Dagon Sphere to fight Glory, which is golden, and also reminded me of the “Star Dragon”, which was one of the first astral presences I sensed when I began exploring shamanism.
I had forgotten that the show changed networks between seasons 5 and 6, and that this episode was written as a possible series ender. Realizing this tonight brought back all kinds of memories of the last year of haunting the web, reading articles about the show, and following the meta-narrative of Joss Whedon and the actors (most of whom I’m following on Twitter now) – and also of how I’ve already watched all seven seasons of this show, and what an emotional arc that was for me, reliving the lost years of my time in Grand Rapids. I’m feeling it all again now, and it’s a nice sadness. I know I could watch it all again and again, and I’m sure I will.
Oh, my gosh, I have to let go now, don’t I? Fare the well …
I had other things to write about today. After working downtown yesterday I was back at my regular site today, and I was surprised at how easy it all was. I still have some financial issues pending but now that the holiday sales are over I don’t feel so drained and I spent much of the day thinking about the Iggy Pop album “Blah Blah Blah” and all the pictures I’m going to make with the huge amount of new stuff I’ve bought in the last couple of weeks. Then, a couple of hours before I got off work I got hit with a huge disaster. It turns out that a project I did this summer wasn’t quite right and there are a ton of things that need to be redone. I wound up staying a half hour late at work, worrying a lot of the time, which was draining. And then it was bitter cold out and I was late for shopping and on the way home my phone battery went dead and I got lost. Somehow I was so fucked up mentally that I took a wrong turn and actually got lost returning from the store where I’ve shopped every week for 5 years.
I kept a lot of mental control all through the disasters, though. I recharged my phone and my GPS led me home, and I even got a great parking space right near my front door so unloading groceries wasn’t so bad.
I did have a lot of hardcore financial stuff to do on the web so I couldn’t work on 3d, but then I went to run and had this big finale of Buffy. I think I’ll be able to squeeze in one more episode tomorrow but after that I’m on to Netflix – and of course the Buffy and Angel comics.
My new astrological planner comes tomorrow and I’m looking forward to seeing what aspects took place during these last couple of days. It felt like a positive development to be blogging for its own sake, without transits – an adjustment for the new year when I feel like it’s all going to come together for me with the spirit world.
I must say, here at the end of Buffy, that this is the most natural, personable blog entry I’ve done since I moved to Chicago ten years ago. I guess spirits are stopping me here to point this out, that after all this time feeling like an exile from the world, I finally belong here.
Thanks, Buffy! Thanks angels. See you tomorrow.