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The Buffy Diaries 9-3-2017

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8:19 PM 9/3/2017  I’m keeping up with my narrative, although I’m still so immersed in 3D that it feels like wading through sludge.  It’s really very powerful magic I’m doing.  Meanwhile, the Moon opposed Venus and inconjuncted the Sun today.  I felt very good about all I was doing, but at the same time distant from the world – as I said, “immersed” in 3D, but still unsure of how it relates to the rest of my world, although excited at the same time because I see it as a magical tool I can use to resolve various emotional issues related to the use of the imagination.  It was a day of very impressive telepathic events.  Angel continued to be one long Buffynicitous river of resonance, but there was one specific one today –

Buffynicity #1 – In this episode (started yesterday) a television actress tries to get Angel to make her into a vampire.  This is Buffynicity because it was Friday I bought the figure of Lara Croft based on Angelina Jolie’s portrayal, so that I can put her in my renders and do some kind of magic about all these daydreams I’ve had of her over the years.  Angel is always about L.A. but this is the first time they’ve dealt with a famous actor, so it’s a definite hit.

Tomorrow I’ll be at King Spa, coming down somewhat from all this astral craziness.  Moon sextiles Saturn and trines Jupiter in the morning.  I think I’ll be having some nice information about the direction my life is heading.  Sextile Uranus and oppose Mercury in the evening, my guess is I’ll be back working on Daz3D.

Late at night the Moon opposes Mars and enters Pisces.  The Sun opposes Neptune.  It’s going to be a day of revelations, I’m sure.  The last reading I did on Saturday was a major step toward professionalism for me and this upcoming weekend there’s a circle, an intuitive at the Wilmette theater, Chicago IANDS, and then I’m doing readings again at Chi Ka Go.  I also have a major, long-awaited project at work.  So it’s a lot of heavy activity on top of this 3D breakthrough.  I seem to be getting fully involved in the world as an intuitive this fall.  I hope I’ll make some damn money, after all this time.

The Buffy Diaries 9-2-2017

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8:14 PM 9/2/2017  Under the influence of Poser and Daz3D my life has become a big blur.  I think about immersing myself in this imaginary world of 3D animation all the time.  Also, the Buffynicities have faded for a bit, as every other monster on Angel seems relevant to my life as an animator – all the demons, all the creepy personalities – I’m downloading them from renderosity and playing with them like toys now.  So individual Buffynicities have faded even though Angel does seem to be a kind of culmination of my six-month project of watching Joss Whedon shows.  With four seasons to go I think I’ll probably be finishing just before my free year of ATT Fullscreen expires, and then I’ll go back to Netflix.

Meanwhile, transits:

Thursday I was downtown.  I was a little drowsy due to lack of sleep, having stayed up all night working on Poser again, but everything was going smoothly as Mercury entered Leo.  I could sense the resonance as there were some big projects and bureaucratic SNAFU’s I had to straighten out – but I did it and everything is going well.  I felt pretty powerful.  3D is drawing my attention into focus on control like never before.  It’s giving me a motivation to make money, so I can buy a better computer to render more and more!  I didn’t even want my new car this bad.  So I’m involved in the world.  Mercury in Leo – in deciding what I want to depict, I’m deciding how I want to relate to the world at last, emerging from my daydream.

There was a bit of a screwup, I thought I was going to drop off my car for repairs but it turns out the body shop was booked two weeks out so I just made a reservation instead. 

However that just meant I could get home on time and run and then get into Daz3D.  Moon squaring Chiron and trining Uranus had something to do with discovering that there’s a Lara Croft figure for Victoria 7 in Daz – I bought it on Friday and now I’m going to do a bunch of renders of my epic daydreams of her.  The magical aspects of rendering are becoming clearer and I can feel the astral effects with great immediacy, although ironically this pulls my attention away from communicating what’s going on.  Even writing this tonight I feel like a different person.

The momentum is building and I know I’m really doing magical things with 3D, and I’m going to do even more.

The Moon conjuncted Pluto in the afternoon – I was organizing a major project for next week, dealing with people on the phone a lot, feeling myself “moving up in the world” as a manager, but I was also buying several 3D figures I’ve been jonesing for all week, descending into the underworld of the unconscious. 

Usually there are Pluto transits when I work downtown.  I was noting there didn’t seem to be one this week but then a full conjunct the next day seems to count.  I know that 3D animation is pulling me into contact with the collective sphere, the spheres related to Pluto in a very dramatic way.

I got plenty of sleep Friday night and I was waking up when the Moon sextiled Chiron, feeling pretty good about getting back into my routine after the long and exhausting detour of the convention.  I was looking forward to a magical weekend of immersing myself in Daz3D.  Also, I had a reading scheduled for this afternoon, and I was looking forward to seeing how that went.

Originally I intended to get right to work but I wound up messing around and doing housework, building models and generally feeling a new energy of focus and direction as the Moon squared Uranus and went VOC.  I did do some work with Daz, however, and all the complex details are rattling my brain somewhat, even as they expand my horizons.

The Moon inconjuncted Mars and Mercury while I was deep into Daz, bringing the sensation of potency and influence, and excitement about possiblities. 

Then I did my reading and made some money to pay for more 3d figures.  I’m still building up my initial collection as I learn the software and figure out exactly what I want to do.

I went to the library and used some of my reading money to pay off fines when the Moon entered Aquarius, which seems pretty appropriate. 

I worked on Daz some more, then went to run, and now I’m back to work on Daz all night long.  It’s fun and exciting.  I expect this to be a major hobby of mine for the rest of my life. 

So another Capricorn Moon has gone by, and I did indeed have a material hassle – I tried to get my car fixed and had to reschedule.  But at least each one has gotten better and I feel I’m using astrology to ameliorate this issue.  I’m learning to work with Capricorn. 

So tomorrow the Moon opposes Venus and inconjuncts the Sun.  I’m expecting to be locked in my bedroom, poring over Daz3D so not much will happen, but that Venus aspect does promise to bring an intense vision, probably of the magical effects of what I’m working on.

I’m so eager to get back to Daz that I’m not going to bother to make predictions for Monday.  Off I go!

The Buffy Diaries 8-30-2017

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11:09 PM 8/30/2017  I’m forcing myself to keep up with the Buffy Diaries even though my mind is consumed with 3d animation.  I didn’t get around to writing at all last night.  Fortunately there were very few aspects and only one Buffynicity.  As I said before there is an endless stream of similarities between my daily awareness and Angel since I started making my own movies and thinking about all the creeps I’ve known who were involved with entertainment – too many to count.  I only had one major one yesterday –

Buffynicity #1: Yesterday’s episode was about a couple who had a son and a daughter, and the son was possessed.  I didn’t notice too many coincidences but as I left the health club I almost got run over on the sidewalk by a young boy and his sister.  Their parents followed immediately after and the father apologized to me, just like the father in the show.  It was really amazing to have a Buffynicity almost literally run over me within minutes of finishing the episode.

However I didn’t notice much tonight, other than the usual references to fakeness and peoples souls getting eaten by astrality.  Maybe I’ll catch something tomorrow.

Meanwhile here are the transits:

The Moon squared Neptune in the afternoon and it was very exciting for me.  I’d spent all day thinking about Poser and using every minute of free time to surf Renderosity for objects to build with.  I know that the scenes I’m making are really magic and they’re going to get more intense.  It’s quite thrilling and I wound up buying an object that has some enochian writing in it.  When I came home I started working on some real chaos magic.  I’m not going to go into detail but it is very powerful.  So I spent all night on that and ignored my blog and my laundry and stuff, which I’m catching up on tonight.

This morning as the Moon sextiled Jupiter I was feeling very attuned to the world, very happy with what I’m accomplishing through animation, and on the verge of resolving several points of psychic confusion which have bothered me for years.  I’m putting together a whole “law” or system of government for my 3D world, choosing environments to build in, pulling together a mythology and a magical system – all very Jupiterian.  As an added bonus today I found the legendary “Victoria” on sale at the Daz3D site and bought it quite cheap.  I took this as a sign that I should start working with Daz3D and so when I got home tonight I started taking the tutorials and I’m very happy about it, looking forward to endless possibilities with real magical results.

I worked until the Moon trined Venus – very appropriate – and then went to run.  Then I was catching up with myself, taking care of business like sorting laundry and taking out the recycling as the Moon squared Chiron, which was a kind of settling back into my life after this new direction changed some things. 

A Lunar trine with Uranus is coming up later tonight, and I bet I’ll have some crazy observations when I get back to 3D after I finish my predictions.

The Moon is going to be void of course in the morning, until it enters Capricorn, which is amazing because I’m finally getting work done on my car tomorrow from hail damage it suffered during the last Capricorn Moon.  Capricorn Moons are all about money for me and especially my car.  It’s like clockwork.  Fortunately they’re getting easier to put up with since I noticed the pattern.

Mercury is entering Leo and I think that will be associated with some kind of new peak with 3D for me.  I’m looking forward to it.  Moon inconjunct Venus after work, after I’ve dropped off my car and picked up my rental, will probably be liberating.  I’ll be done with the hassle of filing the claim and making the arrangements.  It’s always a little exciting to drive a different car, anyway.

Moon trining the Sun and Mars inconjunct Chiron – I bet something I’m modelling will be deep.  Mars means Kara and I bet I’ll get some kind of new message about what this all means.

The Buffy Diaries 8-23-2017

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1:46 AM 8/23/2017

Catching up with the Buffynicities:

Buffynicity #1:  In one of the episodes I saw during the last few days Cordelia was looking at a pile of dust on the ground, and I had been looking at a little pile of plaster that had fallen from the ceiling of this old house I live in just a little while earlier.

Cordy :  “She killed him!  (Picks up a handful of dust)  Oops! My bad.  (Brushes off her hands)  It’s just dust I forgot to sweep under the rug.”

Buffynicity #2:  Angel went to visit the “Oracle” and he gave them a gift of his wristwatch and went back in time.  Then today I went to see “Atomic Blonde” and the “MacGuffin” or prop that everyone was chasing was a wristwatch, and the film is set in the late eighties.  The 80s soundtrack was like a time warp.

Buffynicity #3: Just a couple of days ago I was looking up Alice in Chains songs, and I was checking out “Man in a Box”.  Then in the episode “The Bachelor Party”, they put Doyle in a box.

Buffynicity #4:  I went to see Dunkirk on Saturday, which was about getting a bunch of refugees on a boat to escape the country.  Then in last night’s episode Angel was helping a bunch of demons get on a boat to get out of the country.  That’s three days after I saw the movie, but still it’s kind of related.

I didn’t watch Buffy tonight.  I went to see Atomic Blonde on the way home from work and then I fell asleep.  I woke up around ten and I’ve been doing housework and stuff since.

Now to catch up with aspects, starting with Sunday afternoon.  Moon inconjunct Pluto in the afternoon was kind of fun.  I was mostly thinking about Poser and how making visual characters is helping me control my imagination.  I was feeling further away from society, as well.  They’re both related, of course.  The clearer my inner vision gets the less a part of this silly civilization I am.  I was relishing the concrete presence of my angels, the clarity of focus I have and looking forward to Wizard World, the energetic peak of my year.  I’m very ready for it.  Dunkirk shifted a lot of my past-life imaginations, and helped me get some distance from them.  I have to question as I write this just who I’m writing for now. 

At home I ran and then worked on Poser tutorials in the evening.  Moon sextiling Jupiter and conjuncting Mars had to do with the sense of freedom I’m building, being able to realize a lot of my visions of other worlds in a concrete form also brings a confrontation with action – what do I want to do with these realizations?  I feel very powerful and excited.  I’m looking forward to being a part of the 3D community online and exploring all these details and subtleties.  Also I have these stories I’ve had in my head for years that are coming clear now as I get to see what such charcters will look like to the world.

On Monday, Moon inconjunct Chiron in the late morning was a nice feeling.  I have a vacation ahead, I was mostly caught up with work (the last big hurdle is tomorrow), I got lots of help and in general things are getting taken care of.  I was also playing songs from the Buffy soundtrack, and Four Star Mary.  I associate those with Chiron quite often.  I was listening to Billy Idol, his album “Kings And Queens of the Underground” and rocking out to it, which brought back all kinds of memories of the eighties, also very Chiron.

Moon trining Uranus just before the eclipse, everything was very mystical.  The eclipse was pretty spectactular.  I was able to see the shadow on the sun very clearly and I was thinking back to another eclipse in 1987, and also thinking of probably having seen eclipses in other lifetimes.  It certainly was a supernatural experience that changed me. 

Then the Moon entered Virgo.  I came home and stayed up late doing more Poser tutorials.  Learning poser is a lot of work but it only gets more and more rewarding.  That’s the reason I didn’t blog last night – I just worked the time away on tutorials, and didn’t want to stop to go to bed.

Yesterday (Tuesday), Mars trined Saturn as I was getting to work.  I felt very in control.  It was a very solid, upbeat day for me.  Moon opposing Neptune in the afternoon felt fantastic, life was a breeze and I was getting all the insights I wanted.  My spirits were with me and I feel like I’m riding the crest of a wave of enthusiasm.  Most of the work was getting taken care of and I feel confident that I’m resolving a lot of the telepathic issues that have bothered me for years.

I stopped at Block 37 to see Atomic Blond and I was knocked out by the visuals, the soundtrack, and Charlize Theron.  The Sun entered Virgo while I was watching and I think it’s a sign.  Virgo is very magical for me and this movie was magical as well.  I can’t count all the synchronicities in it.  There is so much in it for me that I’ll have to see it again.

I got home and fell right to sleep.  Now I’m done catching up except for predictions:

Moon sextiling Venus and opposing Chiron tomorrow will bring an emotional rush, I’m sure.  Something very cool about memories.  Probably I’ll be getting some ideas for my stories as well.  My big assessment at work will be over and I’ll be happy we made it through clean.

Moon inconjunct Uranus – I’ll be buying comics on a Wednesday, not Friday and also printing my tickets for Wizard World.  It will be an unusual trip for me, like the beginning of a weekend even though I work tomorrow.

I’m looking forward to Saturn going direct and Venus entering Leo this weekend.

I am still feeling the effects of the Mercury retrograde.  I’ve really lost momentum with my blogging, but I look on this as a time to learn Poser.

The Buffy Diaries 8-20-2017 part one

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2:20 PM 8/20/2017

Holy cow, four days without an entry.  I’m afraid I barely remember the Buffynicities, although I’m pretty sure there were a couple … but wham, right then I came up with one.

Buffynicity #1:  This is a mystery Buffynicity which I forgot, I’m just writing this placeholder because I’ve seen in the past that doing like this helps me remember.  I just know it was in the same episode with the “audacity” Buffynicity I recorded earlier.

Buffynicity #2:  This one is actually pretty big, my parents came to visit on Friday.  And then Saturday morning I watched the episode where Kate goes to see her father when he retires. 

So that’s actually a pretty solid one. 

Now for aspects:

I’m pretty annoyed with myself because I’ve forgotten all of Thursday.  I know there was something with the Moon squaring Chiron and sextiling Uranus.  I’m in a semi-channeling state right now, debating the value of memory of this kind.  I just remember it made sense at the time.  Moon entering Cancer felt pretty good and it was cool to go to Brian’s salon that night.  I was looking up the Kardashians all afternoon which seems very Cancerian to me.  I’ve never really paid attention to them before.  I’m having deja vu writing about this and now I wonder if I didn’t make an entry for Thursday night and then if I didn’t accidentally just delete it.  I seem to remember writing something about this, about the recent news that Kris Jenner had some kind of fling with O.J. Simpson.  I started looking them up just that day.

But the Cancer Moon was expressed in Brian looking up my natal chart and talking about how Mercury crossed its natal position in my horoscope on the 3rd, and it will cross it in retrograde on the 21st, the day of the eclipse, and then it will do it again on September 17th.  This seems to have something to do with an increase in focus in my channeling.

Oh, shit, I remember now that I had this whole detailed entry written because I made predictions for Friday which were largely borne out.  It had to to with Venus and Saturn inconjunct in the Morning and then the Moon inconjunct Saturn and conjunct Venus in the evening.  As I expected I was getting the focus in the physical plane I need to channel.  The various energies are aligning in a very solid way.  I think deleting the entry I made is another sign that I’m shifting to a different kind of activity with my blog, writing for a different kind of audience.

And with that comes a kind of resentment of the stupidity of the world which coincided with the Moon opposing Pluto.  ***  I feel very psychic and very caught up in my own world, very “done” with the stupidity of America.  I keep trying to put my finger on the exact word, like I’m being insulated, finding my own place in all of it and shutting everyone else out.

I met my parents after work and they got me nice presents and all in all the Moon squaring Jupiter in the evening was a good feeling, like I’m getting what I need and making progress psychically.  The past is over.  I have my own little world to go to now.

Saturday the Moon trining Chiron and squaring Uranus was related to my experience of the Art Institute, and especially the Gauguin exhibit.  I have been there several times since I was a teenager and looking at the same paintings gave me an expanded psychic awareness of the passage of time.  I’m sure I was perceiving from outside of time.  I plan to go back.  Then there was VOC and I felt very tired.  But by the time the Moon entered Leo I was energized again.  I’m enthusiastic about going back again and again because I’ve just realized how close it is to the Red Line and I can get there with ease.

There weren’t any transits in the afternoon but I feel seing “Dunkirk” with my parents was still going off of the energy of Chiron.  It was very powerful and I felt I reclaimed a bit of my past.  I know combined with the visit to the Art Institute there’s a shift toward remembering exactly what I did in past lives, instead of this archetypal vagueness I’m usually in.  I’m getting big answers now about who I am and what I’m supposed to be doing here.

I went to meditated and get breakfast and I was coming home when the Moon inconjuncted Neptune and the Sun inconjuncted Chiron.  I had had some major insights and there were some things about the evolution of this process over time that were becoming clear to me.  I’m still struggling with them but I do think that for now the three Chiron transits over the last few days are clearly related to the telepathic experiences I’m having about the Art Institute and Dunkirk and my parents.  Something is getting resolved.  ***  Mars sextiling Jupiter was another good feeling.  I’ve got lots of money to have a good time during my upcoming vacation for Wizard World and the intense activity I’m having this weekend is a good sign for the next.  I seem to be aligning with my own team in the higher worlds at last.

I’m clearing away a lot of obstacles.  I’m going to write in a kind of simplified style for a while.  I’m going to explain less and less.

And now I’m going to post this and I’ll put up par two later tonight, as we head for Moon inconjunct Pluto and later sextile Jupiter and conjunct Mars.

The Buffy Diaries 8-16-2017

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9:49 PM 8/16/2017

Not too many Buffynicities tonight, I’m about to review the script because compared to yesterday they were minor, just thoughts I’d been having that showed up in the episode.  However I do have two that I forgot to post earlier in the week.

Buffynicity #1:  At least I think of it as synchronous – Monday, when I started watching Angel, was also the day the physical component of the latest Nine Inch Nails EP called “Add Violence” arrived.   It felt like a new beginning of something important.  Now that I’m writing I’m picking up some other resonance, the cover of that album is a control panel for some technical equipment, the physical component is like a manual, and here I am downloading all this production software.  Also Angel is like a darker take on Buffy, one with “added violence”. 

Buffynicity #2:  Yesterday at work I was listening to even more Billy Idol, having started over the weekend, and then last night Spike showed up in the episode, which I wasn’t expecting at all.  I remembered the magic ring – I had a pretty good Buffynicity about that when I was watching Buffy TVS months ago.  And I’m expecting him to go back to Sunnydale a few times, but Spike was a nice suprise, especially after all that Billy Idol.

Buffynicity #3:  A minor one.  I was at a friend’s house tonight and I was thinking of the first time I was at her house, years ago, she was playing some classical music.  I thought it was one composer, Handel, I think, and it was another, possibly Haydn or something, and we had a discussiion about it.  Then in tonight’s episode Spike was talking to his torturer:

Spike pacing impatiently:  “Why do you keep asking him that?  And why do you keep playing that bleeding Brahms?”
Marcus:  “Actually it’s Mozart.  Symphony 41.  I find it very effective.”

Buffynicity #4: 

Cordy:  “Exactly!    You know?  This is a business and we should be running it like one.  We should be charging.  I know Angel has been working day and night helping people fight their personal demons, but I need a raise!”
Doyle:  “A raise?  What, you’ve been working for him for like 20 minutes?”

I didn’t want to say this at the time, but I actually found out on Monday that I got a raise.

Buffynicity #5:  The whole last episode is about a surgeon who can detach his body parts and I’ve spent the last couple of days working with the Poser interface, which has separate cameras for various body parts, and looking at the frame models which are “detached” body parts all strung together, and of course I’m thinking about animating body parts and that is what’s in the episode.

Buffynicity #6:  In tonight’s episode –

Cut to Melissa walking up to an ATM.  She tries to get money out, but her pin is invalid.  Tires again.  A tall guy in a nice suit with short gray hair and bald on top steps up next to her.
Ronald:  “it won’t work. (she recoils) I’ve changed your pin number. (smiles at her)  I mean, Melissa, your birthday?  That’s the first thing a thief would try.”
Melissa:  “What are you doing here?”
Ronald punches a number into the ATM:  “I changed it to 3-5-99.  –  The day we met.”

Although it’s not spectacular because I go to an ATM every couple of weeks, I did in fact stop at one on the way home.  This one I’m not sure is significant but whatever.

So all that’s very cool.  Not a single over-the-top Buffynicity like yesterday, but some pretty good ones.

Now for transits:

I was awake for Mars inconjunct Pluto this morning and I felt very energetic, very enthusiastic about what was happening to me as I move to a new, more focused frame of mind.  My animation software is opening some new psychic doors into the astral plane.  Specifically I’ve been getting down to brass tacks about what kind of fights my characters are going to get into.

The Moon squaring Neptune was totally validated because it was right around that time that I was fooling around on the web and discovered both Daz 3D studio (which I just downloaded), and a way to convert a male voice to a female one using Audacity (which I also just downloaded again, having had it years ago but uninstalled it).  Also I found that Poser will automatically sync animation with a voice file so I now know I can voice all my own animations and tell the world to fuck off.  I’m going to say whatever obnoxious thing I want.  That was really a spectacular revelation and a liberation for me as well.  After years of imagining characters I’m going to realize them in a way that will change my life.

My predictions from yesterday’s entry were good for the day because just as I predicted lunchtime was dominated by Moon incojunct Pluto and sextiling Mars.  This came right after the revelation on the news (on the big TV screen that always runs) that Trump’s business councils have fallen apart.  I have this new sense of potential and my guides are more vivid than ever.  They’re ready for me to do the work of “animating” them to get a clear picture of their world, and at the same time the politics of this plane is falling apart.  They’re showing me that everything is moving around and I am going to use this software to grab hold of some real ideas.  So after a day of working pretty hard I was going deep into that as I relaxed at lunchtime.

On the way home, as the Moon was trining Jupiter, I was depositing some money in the bank, which was nice.  Feeling secure in my finances and looking forward to metaphorically ruling the world with animation software.

The Moon opposed Saturn while I was running.  It felt very exciting.  I am getting into the swing of Angel, noting how all the time-lapse shots in the show relate to time.  On the whole I think this transit is like a full moon, giving me lots of energy, dark but exhilarating, and making me feel closer to my guides.

Tomorrow Luna will square Chiron and sextile Uranus in the morning and I expect good results.  Possibly what I do with Poser tonight will influence it.  Something unexpected but emotionally solid – for that’s what Chiron means to me, something with a meaningful impact.  Then void of course for the rest of the morning so I’m not stressing.  Just waiting for the Moon to enter Cancer, which is more fun than the crap cycle I’m leaving but not yet the full swing of my peak season, kind of like the hours just before dawn or something.  A nice day to bring things to life.

Now I’m off to work with Poser some more.

The Buffy Diaries 08-15-2017

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9:50 PM 8/15/2017

Buffynicity #1 was extremely dramatic.  I was taking the train downtown to work and they made us all get off and take a shuttle bus because someone had committed suicide on the tracks.  Here’s an article about it.

https://www.dnainfo.com/chicago/20170815/lincoln-park/red-brown-purple-line-trains-stopped-after-body-found-on-tracks?utm_source=Breaking+News&utm_campaign=3dfaa76cc6-EMAIL_CAMPAIGN_2017_08_15&utm_medium=email&utm_term=0_4dc25bbf9a-3dfaa76cc6-176488593

The shuttle bus went south on Sheffiled road and I looked up just in time to see us crossing Wolfram road.  I mean I was in my seat, playing Burger Shop on my tablet when suddenly I looked up to see a green street sign saying “Wolfram/Sheffield” right outside my window.  This comes the day after seeing the premier of Angel with the introduction of the mysterious law firm “Wolfram & Hart”.

So that’s a real ass-kicking Buffynicity.   One of those that’s just not fucking possible in a rational world.

Buffynicity #2:  I had been intending to start watching Poser tutorials on Youtube last night, but I didn’t have the time.  I’m about to start now.  But in tonight’s episode there was this line:

Kate:  “Well, I’m the expert.  I’m sure you can see.  –  Well, the answer is no, I don’t need rescuing.  –  I gave up on the knight in shining armor concept a while ago.  –  Anyway I don’t expect to find him here at the international house of posers.”

The funniest thing is my main project is to model characters for my heptalogy – which does have knights in shining armor.

Buffynicity #3:  As we were all herded like cattle off of the trains and onto the buses, I wound up sitting next to a very loud, black woman with a disability who was making very loud proclamations about Jesus and praying for the soul of the man who had killed himself on the tracks.  She was talking about how she’d been in a coma for two years and her boyfriend had wanted to pull the plug on her but she had actually been able to hear everybody and see them while she was lying in bed unconscious.  Apparently she felt that it was her faith that had allowed her to survive and come back.  I believed her, generally, and I thought of her in the second episode I started tonight when they had this conversation:

Angel:  “You’re at a crossroads, I know.  It’s either go for the easy fix and wait for the consequences, or take the hard road and go with faith.”
Rachel:  “Oh, god.  You’re not from that freaky church on Sunset, are you?” Steps away from him.
Angel:  “In yourself.  That kind of faith.  –  What I’m saying is: if you leave Lenny for good, it’ll hurt.  But eventually you’ll be stronger for it.  And maybe you’ll find your way to the kind of love you deserve.”

I’m enjoying Angel – I was worried I might get bored with the Whedonverse but it’s not going to happen.  And the Buffynicities have certainly continued steadily through Firefly and into Angel.  And now before I go dive into Poser I’m going to do transits:

I woke up early this morning and I lay in bed feeling extremely cozy and self-satisifed.  I think this had a bit to do with the Moon sextiling Chiron. I enjoy Chiron transits, generally, even though they have some sadness I seem to thrive on them.

That man was probably getting killed around the time Venus opposed Pluto.  They said it was at 6:35 they found him.  One might logically guess that he was making the final decision to die at the same time as the transit.  It’s very validating for the astrological timing, although a little morbid.  Anyway I certainly felt the effects throughout the morning as my train was slowed to a crawl and I had to make my way through the crowd to the shuttle bus.  But at least I had that Buffynicity and that woman who had been in a coma as signs.

They restarted service at 9:30, just after the Moon entered Gemini and I was back on the Red Line at North and Clyborne.  The day went by pretty smoothly after that.  Except I wanted to stop at Block 37 to take advantage of the $5 movies but their power was out so I skipped it, which turned out to be good because I really needed a nap.

I’ll be waking up around the time Mars inconjuncts Pluto in the morning.  I wonder if anything will happen.  Moon squaring Neptune later in the morning will bring some good psychic insights, I’m sure.  Moon inconjuncting Pluto and sextiling Mars in the afternoon – two Pluto transits in one day, coming after this massive transit today, I’m guessing there will be some more about death.  These afternoon transits are right around lunchtime for me, when I often take a nap, so maybe I’ll have some kind of insight.

I’m stopping at a friend’s house on the way home, I should pick up a little money too as I recall.  Moon trining Jupiter, I’m guessing a sense of completion.  I’m going to look to this time to make some progress with my insurance claim, as well.  I’ll probably be running when the Moon opposes Saturn.  I’m expecting it to be fun, like a full Moon.  Maybe I’ll have some kind of exceptional Buffynicity watching Angel.

I know I’ve had much more solid angelic contact tonight.  Tomorrow looks like an intense day with Mars, Pluto, and Neptune very active.  I’m looking forward to it – maybe as I start to work with Poser tonight I’ll release some kind of dramatic magical energy.  Here I go …

The Buffy Diaries 8-14-2017

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11:11 PM 8/14/2017

Buffynicity #1: 

Today I spent a lot of time playing two games that I enjoyed years ago, Burger Shop and Rocknor’s Donut Factory.  It was just an impulse to kill enormous amounts of time on bullshit, and now that I think about it a kind of mental shift toward working with Poser and Blender. 

Then tonight I started watching Angel, and the first episode ends with Angel and Doyle talking:

Doyle: “You know there’s a lot of people in this city that need helping.”

Angel: “Hmm. So I noticed.”

Doyle: “You game?”

Cut to nighttime LA superimposed over their faces. Cut to Angel looking out over the city.

Angel: “I’m game.”

Buffynicity #2:  A minor one, on the drive home I was thinking about one of the characters from my heptalogy, about how when she gets pissed off she surprises people like the way a cocker spaniel can freak you out when it suddenly bares its fangs.  Then in the episode:

As Tina walks towards Angel’s table he leans forward looking at a white dog next to a table: “Sure is a cute little – (Tina walks by without even noticing him) – doggie?” Angel straightens back up.

It’s not a huge Buffynicity but dogs are not on television shows that often.

Buffynicity #3:  I’ve been thinking about doing animation with Poser and Blender and tonight’s episode had a lot of stuff about the entertainment business, about how crappy people in the entertainment business are and I’ve certainly been thinking a lot about that when I consider what to put on the web.

So there was one really solid one, the “game” line, because I really had a huge urge to play these today for the first time in months or possibly years.  These are both time management games and I think this has something to do with managing the project of creating animation.

As for transits, the day went by very fast and I was very pleased with how easy it all was.  Luna squared Mars and sextiled Venus in the morning, I was listening to Motorhead and drinking coffee, the huge projects from last week out of the way, other work going by much easier than I’d expected.  I was thinking a lot about animation and what I’m going to do with it, who I want to present myself as.  I continue to feel my spirits very close, as though I am finally escaping this rotten world.  I had a little difficulty concentrating for this reason.  My mind was racing quite a bit and when the Moon trined Pluto I was feeling very much like a citizen of another world.  ***  I’m getting very tired now, as I wasted so much time this evening playing games, and also I went grocery shopping and got a haircut on the way home.

As the Moon inconjuncted Jupiter in the late afternoon I got some amazing news which means much more money for me – some news I was actually expecting a few weeks ago but which shows that the cosmos is providing for me, especially my new car payment.  And I also learned that I will have to work downtown tomorrow, a big surprise which also coincides with a major Pluto aspect yet again.

I was shopping and getting a haircut during the runup to the Moon inconjunct with Saturn, once again feeling pressed for time, rushing to get a parking spot at home and also regretfully unable to drop off the IANDS books until Wednesday or find time to work on Blender and Poser tutorials or watch Bound, which I started yesterday.  What little time I had I wasted on Burger Shop and Donut Factory (I must reiterate, that Buffynicity about being “game” was eerily accurate).

I was actually playing Donut Factory when the Moon squared the Sun, delaying the start of my workout.  I haven’t played that game in perhaps ten years and it was as mesmerizing as I remember.

Tomorrow I’ll be awake, getting ready for work when the Venus opposes Pluto.  I hope I get something good.  I have no idea what it’s supposed to feel like but I bet it will bring a powerful vision.  I actually had another dream this morning.  I usually don’t dream now but this is the second in a week.  I wish I could remember it.  I have to start blogging them again.

The Moon enters Gemini tomorrow, the last leg of my lousy Lunar cycle.  I’m feeling the Mercury retrograde, slogging through all my communications projects, reading, doing animation, etc. 

I’m going to go see a movie tomorrow, probably Atomic Blonde, which seems like a very Gemini film.  Or maybe Dunkirk, I don’t know.  It depends.  Now I’m going to bed to try to remember my dream.