8:50 PM 3/31/2017  No Buffy tonight, I’m about to meditate and then watch the rest of “The Tempest”. 

3:55 AM 4/1/2017 I fell asleep after I meditated.  I left that little snippet above just to … well, the powers that be aren’t going to let me write anything, anyway, so I may as well go back to sleep knowing that I am free in my cocreations. (Note: This was totally sarcastic).

10:17 AM 4/1/2017  That was an interesting morning.  I woke up around two and couldn’t sleep.  I wandered around feeling crazy.  Now I’m working on the channeling state.  The spirit presence is pretty strong.

I was getting ready to go meditate when the Moon in Gemini sextiled the Sun in Aries.  I was a little spacey but I did make it to mediation on time.  I’ve been brooding over a lot of heavy metal, looking up Ronnie James Dio on the web, the history of Black Sabbath, and all that.  I’m finally starting to “get” Iron Maiden.  There are some interesting effects in the music of Iron Maiden having to do with time.  

1:46 PM 4/1/2017 Even though I’m feeling very definite about my experiences of angels and higher worlds, it’s difficult for me to get across the barrier of inertia to write them down.  I think Moon in Gemini and Mercury in Taurus are conspiring to make me feel heavy and dull without the energy to do anything.  Gemini is really the laziest Moon for me but I want to counteract it.  I’m going to leave all the “snippets” and false starts above just to prove to myself that I can accomplish something.

After all these years of thinking I should give heavy metal a shot I’m finding I genuinely love the Judas Priest album “Nostradamus”.  I’m also very fond of the song “Touch of Evil” from “Painkiller”.  There’s something very soothing about this type of metal now, like a journey back in time to a probable universe I missed out on.  What would it had been like if I’d listened to metal all those years ago?  “Neon Knights” by Black Sabbath is also a new favorite. 

There are other sounds I’ve always wanted to explore that I’m getting on Google Play, like Chris De Burgh, Bo Diddley, and Patti Smith.  I keep flashing back on the late 80s and how messed up my mind was by music back then.  Angels are bringing me some kind of healing. 

2:19 PM 4/1/2017 I’m on the boundary line between two worlds.  I’m so tired of wandering in daydreams; I’m pushing forward, bringing some substance or energy forth.  At the same time I’m cutting across old psychic entanglements.

Friday morning, moon still VOC I was rocking out to Judas Priest and Iron Maiden, really excited about using music services to stream lots of old metal bands and discover the secrets of the Mars/Saturn conjunction.

I saw a Facebook ad for someone who wants an announcer for an interenet show about magick and I thought of applying.  Almost immediately I remembered that the moon was VOC so I put my plans on hold.  I was wondering whether my impulse to do Enochian last night was also a VOC delusion.  As it turns out, now that Luna has shifted to Gemini I am still thinking of Enochian but the radio show doesn’t seem as interesting.  However, there is some new kind of “public identity” that is coming out of all this.  My perceptions of music and popular culture are changing with my new attitude toward heavy metal.  Suddenly I seem to be “getting it” and also understanding some other things – not all of them pleasant – about the changes in society that have disturbed me for so long, the rise of totalitarianism and what I perceive as the loss of conscience.   

I realized that I missed a Buffynicity on Thursday:  the demon was using a scorpion to suck Buffy’s soul, and Mafdet kills scorpions. 

Then I had another spectacular one.  The demon’s had glowing green eyes, and when I saw them I was especially interested, looking for a Buffynicity.  The next morning I found one, I was looking up the lyrics to Iron Maiden’s “Powerslave”, a song I was introduced to by my evil first fiancee who so resembled the character Faith.  In the first verse:

Into the abyss I’ll fall-the eye of Horus
 Into the eyes of the night-watching me go
 Green is the cat’s eye that glows-in this temple
 Enter the risen Osiris-risen again.

So that’s two references to Egypt – even down to the fact that Mafdet is a cat goddess.

So my interest in metal is growing along with the movement of Mercury into Taurus. 

Luna sextiled Venus and I was feeling pretty good about the upcoming weekend, pretty caught up with work and feeling propelled by all this wonderful new music.  Then I got into a really stupid web argument with an atheist troll on the facebook page of an event a friend of mine is doing about past lives.  I tried to be polite but he was very insulting.  I went back and forth with him a couple of times and then blocked the whole thing.  But as I did my usual Friday night thing I was thinking about how I don’t want to be involved with the public at all – possibly this was a lesson that I drew to myself after considering applying to host the web radio show in the morning.  Thinking about doing public events just reminds me of the disgusting, cold machiavellianism of all media business, especially the entertainment business, which of course I’m thinking about now, reassessing metal and its influence.

I kind of feel the ghost of William S. Burroughs tapping me on the shoulder and reminding me that he coined the phrase “heavy metal” in his novel, Naked Lunch.  Very appropriate.

That was a slightly unpleasant experience, but it really emphasized some psychic boundaries for me and made me feel more focused than ever.  My angels are coming through better than ever and I think I’m finally getting answers to questions I’ve had for years, but I’m going to write about them later tonight.  Now I feel I’ve caught up with my weekend.

Only one more thing to point out, which is that I was wide awake from 2 am, kind of frustrated that I couldn’t sleep.  I was feeling good at the Moon/Sun sextile and my meditation ended around the time of the Moon/Neptune square, when I was beginning to feel a lot more content that I could reconcile what I perceive to be the differences between Sahaj Marg and western occultism.

That was a very good time and I’m wondering now how far ahead the Moon/Neptune square was affecting me.  Could it have had something to do with me waking up at 2 am?  I’m going to look that up on the web a bit.  It was certainly a Neptunian time to be awake that early in the morning, listening to trippy metal albums.

More to come tonight in part 2.