7:24 PM 1/16/2018

I don’t think I’ve worked out or watched a video in several days.  I had a lot of other things going on.  For instance, i went down to Edgewater on Sunday and ate at one of the worst restaurants in the world, and I got sick so yesterday I staggered through my day at work and then took Nyquil when I got home.  Then I slept in a couple of extra hours this morning.  Now I feel pretty good.  I’ve got some great stuff downloading from Daz3D as I speak.  After that I’ve also got some cool stuff from Renderosity to install.  My last picture really rocked my world and I’m very enthusiastic about making real magic.  I found this great Greek amphitheatre on Daz that I’m going to buy on Friday which may be one of my main settings from now on. 

I’ve forgotten most of what happened.  Without Buffy to remind me what’s going on I’m drifitng a little.  2018 feels as though it’s going to be an exciting year, however. 

On Thursday I was working downtown, getting some things done.  I barely remember what the Moon sextiling the Sun and Venus meant, except it all went fairly smoothly.  Moon inconjunct Uranus in the afternoon probably had some pretty good sales on Renderosity and Daz3D as I’ve been picking up some amazing stuff there.  And I do remember a big, unexpected computer hangup in the afternoon, trying to get some files processed that wouldn’t work right, so I believe that validates that minor transit.  I do remember my mood as the Moon trined Chiron, and now that I think about it I didn’t get out of there until much later than I expected, forgetting things and wandering around the building – I went to McDonald’s and then realized I’d left something undone and so yes, all that forgetting and aimless wandering does amount to an unexpected Uranus-related event.  The trine with Chiron right afterwards had to do with sadness, feeling rushed and a little unloved, wondering where I belong in this rotten world, but at the same time the train ride home was familiar and I was giving myself a break, not pushing myself to go run before the show at the Wilmette Theater.

The show itself was very powerful.  I had good trance states and some nice conversations as the Moon entered Sagittarius.

Friday there were no transits all day, I just worked.  I felt pretty solid taking care of business.  In the evening Mercury conjuncted Saturn and the Moon squared Neptune.  i think I felt the square with Neptune all day in a sense of isolation from my own dream.  I just worked and didn’t feel as though I belonged anywhere at all. 

I wish I’d felt more when Mercury inconjuncted Saturn.  I went to pick up the books for the IANDS meeting, which was a little limiting, since I usually do it on Thursday but I had to reschedule.  It was snowing, too, I think.  I should be able to find more meaning in this transit, shouldn’t I?  I usually do with Mercury transits, but perhaps that obscurity is the meaning of Mercury conjuncting dark Saturn.  I had a great meditation session; I had returned some Library books earlier in the evening.  I was doing some good 3D stuff.

Saturday I had a big surprise to validate the Venus square with Uranus.  The speaker was Eric Pearl, whose book I read years before.  I had no idea it was going to be him and it was extraordinarily powerful to do meditations with him, having used his healing modality for years and years.  It was extremely powerful and I felt exceptionally focused, which led to a very mystical evening as Venus sextiled Chiron and took me back through the years.

Sunday the Moon entered Capricorn.  I didn’t have any car trouble, but I went down to Edgewater and ate at this crummy restaurant I’ve eaten at for years just because it’s between the Bryn Mawr stop and Graham Crackers, but this time was the straw that broke the camel’s back – the service and the food were so shitty and overpriced that I vowed never to return.  And then on top of that I got sick.  So that fit with the Sun squaring Uranus – this unexpected disaster at one of my old haunts, which actually gave me the impulse to cut my comic subscriptions and stop going down to Edgewater on Sundays altogether, and use that time for something else.

So I was feeling sick and the Moon conjuncted Saturn in the evening.  I didn’t get anything done and I just went to bed early. 

I woke up early monday morning, around the time the Sun was sextiling Chiron, feeling “convalescent”, a kind of cozy drowsiness with work still several hours off, and lay awake through the Moon conjunction with Mercury, feeling the presence of the spirit world and doing my laundry in the middle of the night. 

I’m turning a corner with my astrological perceptions, feeling te presence of the planetary energies in a more specific way, more distinguished from my awareness of my physical body. 

Work was pretty typical.  I found some great stuff on Daz.  Moon sextiling Neptune in the afternoon made me feel like I’ve entered a new era in my life, when I can finally just transmit impressions from the spirit world and stop wandering in chaotic daydreams of what it all might mean.

I dropped off the IANDS books in the snow and made it home.  Jupiter sextiled Pluto late at night but I was sleeping, having taken some Nyquil.  I’m convinced it was the lousy food at that restaurant in Edgewater that messed me up.  I’m so annoyed with that place that I’m thinking I should go online and leave a bad review for them somewhere.

This morning came and I was still a little tired and under the weather so I slept in a couple more hours.  But then I felt pretty good and I was actually fairly excited when I got to work.  There was an amazing sale on Daz3D and I finally got the Terradome I’ve been wanting so I can get the right sky and seascape for my Black Citadel.

I rode the quest of the Moon sextiling Mars, thinking all about my character Zane and how he loves barfights, how essential barfights are to his personality.  I didn’t realize until just now, checking the transits, that this particular observation was so related to celestial timing.  It’s encouraging as I get deeper into storytelling through 3D.  I have to remember to work on astrologically-timed and -themed subjects.

The Moon squared Uranus just before I got off work.  I’m trying to remember what it was that hit me but I was feeling very strange.  I almost stayed late to keep working.  My subconscious is telling me that if I keep searching I’ll remember something that happened.  I know I got a call from some kind of credit card scam around 12:48.  And also I now remember that I was checking my bank account and realized that my student loan payment hasn’t come out for this month.  That wasn’t a crisis, as it’s in the budget, but it was still a surprise, so once again the transit is validated.

I was shopping while the Moon sextiled Chiron – it was nice to get back to routine after being sick, and having a rushed weekend.  I was feeling very confident, as though many of my telepathic problems have been solved, and that I finally have the distance I’ve always wanted from the rotten personal relationships of my past.  Also I was feeling extremely enthusiastic about the 3D stuff I picked up today.  My work in that area is really taking me places.

8:11 PM 1/16/2018 So I just caught up with my narrative after four or five days of sickness and chaos, and I look up to realize that the New Moon is only 6 minutes away.  That certainly validates that transit.

Last summer I noticed that I usually had car trouble during Capricorn Moons.  It’s true that with all the snow my windshield has been very messy but the car is not such a hassle.  However I did get sick from that damn restaurant so my wariness of this phase is still justified.

I just won game on Chess.com that I’ve been playing for weeks.

Venus enters Aquarius tomorrow.  I think Venus in Capricorn has been very related to my work with 3D, taking the lush Venusian imagery of my imagination and translating it into hard parameters.  Venus in Aquarius will probably bring a phase of more publishing, making more stuff for the web, probably setting up an account on DeviantArt.com.

I’m especially looking forward to Mars inconjunct Uranus tomorrow afternoon.  i wonder if there’s a way I can prepare, so nothing bad happens?

It’s nice to be caught up again.  This is the longest I’ve gone without running in months … but getting sick and getting better has brought me some new vitality and a sense of what I’m supposed to be doing.  I’m off to work on 3D now.