9:54 AM 3/24/2018 I’m experimenting with my narrative again. I plan to go to King Spa today, but I also just got my computer back and I want to immerse myself in 3D. Also I have two weeks to aspects to catch up on. My narrative broke on March 4th, as I wrote a few things “intending” to see what happened during the day. It was spectacular, with Mercury conjuncting Venus making me feel like I was finally getting answers. The Moon squaring Pluto was a thrill-ride, and the Mercurial answers seemed to be about where I belonged in society. I got a glimpse of something – maybe Pluto energy is a kind of “underworld” of imaginal material in my own psyche that’s visual on a subliminal level.
Mercury and Venus conjunct Chiron contributed to the clarity, the sense of feeling “at home” at King Spa and an enthusiasm for going back again and again. I went again last weekend and here I go one more time as soon as I finish this. I felt exhilarated, as though I could do anything, while at the same time dreading the meeting I had scheduled for Tuesday which was going to be both liberating and frightening, brining an end to a drama that’s taken years to play out.
The Moon sextiled Mars and gave me an amazing sense of momentum in my life, as I made plans to go back to King Spa regularly and frequently. I feel I’m “getting” the meaning of that experience, learning to be able to use it in a focused way, and that it is an extended process which will bring me to a clear occult goal. It’s possible that I can really use these experiences to “ground” myself fully.
The Lunar opposition with Uranus was like a Full Moon, bringing sense of completeness in the influx of supernatural power.
Monday the 5th I don’t remember much about. I know I was dreading Tuesday’s meeting and the work that was piling up for the weeks ahead. There was a threat of an audit at work (which was just fulfilled two days ago). There were no aspects during the day however. The Moon entered Scorpio in the morning and sextiled Saturn in the evening, both bringing a sense of the impending power of Tuesday. Mercury entered Aries during the night and I think that was related to the pivotal power of Tuesday’s meeting, brining an end to the old and the beginning of a new sense of my role in the world. I think the Lunar sextile with Saturn was also an encouraging thing, bringing a feeling of “getting it over with” at last.
Tuesday morning I was downtown and as the Moon trined Neptune I was struggling with dread of the afternoon’s affair, but also feeling exhilarated from the momentum of Saturn, moving forward and feeling competent, keeping my energy focused and positive. It was truly cathartic, a pivotal day I will remember for years to come. The Moon trined the Sun as I left for the meeting, as ready as I could ever be, finally in the thick of the action. As it turned out the meeting was routine, taking an hour too long to get started as is often the case with such things, and it was over in a flash, totally painless. All that dread had been for nothing and I was totally liberated. Venus joined Mercury in Aries later, bringing a sense of lightness and forward momentum – I was off to a brave new future and free of the past, and amazing drama of years now completed.
Once again there was a Pluto transit on a day I worked downtown – a Lunar sextiled that evening which was associated with a greater sense of belonging to and in the world. I had had problems which I worked out like anyone else and I was finally at home in the world.
I don’t remember much of the day Wednesday, except probably the Moon inconjunct Uranus was fun, as I continued to feed off the energy I’d gotten Sunday at King Spa and the life changing meeting of Tuesday, feeling like anything was possible and I was ready to go forward in the world as never before, feeling complete and more in control than ever as the Moon trined Chiron, bringing a sense of satisfaction at the success of all I’ve done to clarify my life. Then when I got home the Moon entered Sagittarius and POW! – my computer didn’t work. I couldn’t get online. This messed up my energy even though the Moon was trining Venus and Mercury.
It’s odd for something negative to happen while such great aspects were taking place, and yet there could be no coincidence that after waiting for days for the catharsis of Tuesday, feeling like I had a new lease on life, I should be hit with this computer disaster.
I still don’t know what to think of these awesome aspects during this moment of catastrophe, but the Moon entering Sagittarius makes sense as this phase has always scattered my life and brought my forward momentum down. Furthermore, on Thursday the 8th the Moon squared Neptune, bringing an intensity of psychic change as I adapted to the suspension of my 3d habit.
It was definitely validating for the Neptune aspect as I began a time of “feeling” the loss or gap left by the interruption of my habit, and furthermore Jupiter went into retrograde that day as well, after I dropped off my computer at the shop. So it was as though I had this time without 3D, to look back on last year’s retrograde when I was first getting into Buffy. Jupiter retrogrades are now marked for me as major life events.
Friday the 9th Moon conjuncted Mars and trined Uranus. I went to a movie with a girl for the first time in a while. The movie was really good, too. The unexpectedness came through the sudden realization of how far away she lived and all the time I had to spend driving, but it was still good. I can imagine though that the conjunct was validated by a sense of power in that this computer crisis happened in such synchrony with Tuesday’s cathartic meeting and the Jupiter retrograde that ironically the very disaster shows that something I’m doing is working. That’s an unexpected, Uranian benefit from all this. Furthermore the “date” was fun and a validation of Martian power for me.
Saturday the 10th the Moon squared Venus during the IANDS meeting. It was mostly fun.
As I’m writing now I’m exchanging telepathically with someone, getting a different perspective on how I feel now versus how I felt a half hour a go when I started this process. I want to get to King Spa, but I also want to catch this narrative. Something or someone is here and I want to handle this right. I feel rushed. I just stopped to look at my planner and I find that the Moon is squaring the Sun in just a few minutes – that’s also a good validation, to sense the transit that way. Also I note that the Moon entered Cancer this morning, bringing the cold comfort of the familiarity of my routine today, but also a sense of inertia.
Anyway, back to the 10th when the Moon conjuncted Saturn in the evening. I believe I was at home trying to watch “Bound”, a very Saturnine film. I was even concerned with time as I was using my Playstation and had a little trouble understanding the various forms and speeds of playback, fast forward, fast reverse, etc. I was making the best of the limitation of not having my computer by going in a different direction.
Sunday the Moon sextiled Neptune during the day and I felt pretty good, cleaning my bedroom and bringing a new order to my affairs. In the evening the Moon conjuncted Pluto just after the dreaming circle. I definitely got good stuff that night, feeling more and more like I understand the various spiritual forces. There were a lot of old friends there and I definitely felt like I belonged. Writing this now I realize it was a continuation of the Plutonian influence from Tuesday. It was very rewarding to be so recognized for my psychci gifts and this validated the Neptune transit as well.
I think that’s enough of catching up for now. I’m going to go to King Spa. I just had this sudden feeling of “full stop” and loss of momentum. I looked up and found that it is exactly 10:35, the exact moment of the Moon squaring the Sun. So it’s like I actually felt that transit. And then the Moon opposing Mars one moment later. I think this is why I’ve had such a delay this morning, and a sense of conflict between my desire to go to King Spa and my desire to stay home and do 3D. The sun will square Mars in 40 minutes while I’m on the way out there.
The Moon is opposing Saturn tonight, which is probably one reason I feel I don’t have enough time to do everything I want, and I feel rushed to make a decision. It’s good to know that so I can simply make myself slog on with this even though it could feel better.
It’s interesting that I felt this desire to catch up with my narrative as a way to resolve these astrological oppositions. The Moon in Cancer also makes me feel like just doing things and not thinking about them. It will be a very inward turning night but astrologically it feels very right to just go out there and sit. So here I go.