8:41 PM 5/16/2018 I’m struggling to keep to some kind of center here, it’s a struggle because I’m very close to succeeding. I’m thinking about working on 3D but some force keeps my mind wandering. I think of doing something and then I feel some kind of overwhelming force that distracts me or paralyzes me. "It’s a good thing I’m going to King Spa this weekend,“ he thinks.
Tuesday 5-15-2018 6:48 Taurus Moon conjuncted Taurus Sun. I was in the middle (the second day of three) of an assessment at work, with the big bosses going over my department in detail. I was surprised at how well I was doing and I definitely felt a regeneration, moving forward with a different attitude toward my work, more cooperative, more accepting, and also feeling good that things had gone much more easily than expected again.
Oddly I did forget my breakfast.
10:16 AM Uranus entered Taurus and I could feel a change. Aries Uranus was dominated by the Trump presidency for me, and the overwhelming feeling of weird stupid people doing weird, stupid vulgar things all over the world and none of it leading toward any familiar or comforting future, only bizarre failures and tedious simulations. Taurus Uranus feels like we’re going to get into some action. Instead of breaking things up in chaos, some people are going to start driving toward dark, mysterious, unheard of goals – including myself. The past is gone.
Taurus Moon trined Capricorn Mars at 3:30 PM followed closely by the Moon entering Gemini at 3:43. I was wrapping up the bulk of the work on my assessment, feeling good to be getting out of there, feeling powerful at having made it through so much of it without serious incident. I also had to have a personal conversation with my big bosses and adapt to the more intense personal commitment required to succeed. But then Moon entering Gemini disappated it as I got off of work and I just wanted to take a nap before playing MTG at GG with my friend J. I did just that, dozing off in my car around in the side lot, waiting for him to make it through the rush hour traffic, feeling flighty and scattered in the usual Gemini way.
However Gemini Moon sextiled Aries Chiron at 5:58 and the transit was certainly validated as I got beaten several times and sat for a bit, feeling sad and disaffected, but then I rebuilt my deck and got back in the game, only to get beaten again – but then one of my acquaintances showed me that I actually had an amazing white Angel deck in the making, including a $40 Lyra Dawnbringer I hadn’t even recognized for her value. I came back and won and also won with my black deck against another acquaintance so the night was certainly a high and I talked to the showrunners about playing in Friday Night Magic and other tournaments.
Mars entering Aquarius at 11:55 was certainly validated by my immersion in MTG and the concept of games in general, as I am redesigning altars tonight and moving toward a more mental level, finding my "center” – fixed air relative to all the astral work I do, and also my increased sense of belonging at work as my assessment turned out well and I finally feel like I can handle my job, even as I get a better sense of what my next one is supposed to be.
11:01 PM 5/16/2018 Now I’m off to bed after working on some amazing Photoshop stuff all night.