I had an amazing day at work and now I’m home and my head is spinning with exhilaration again.
12/18/2020 8:32 AM I took care of a lot of business, I’m being very productive. But my head hurts because keeping these logs and reviewing them is killing me. Something is coming out of all this but it’s a wrenching experience. Where do I focus to bring the magic down? I’m going to try the middle pillar now to see if it helps.
The problem is I feel the infinite potential of magic but it’s a zero sum game. To what do I apply this power? To who? Kara must be the target. I set my “eclipse intentions” solely on her.
12/18/2020 8:37 AM The middle pillar does indeed make me feel more focused about my life.
I’m listening to an interesting recording of an argument between Johnny Depp and Amber Heard. I don’t usually indulge in tabloid voyeurism, but I feel the world is ending now and it’s time to bring down alll the daydreams I’ve had of Depp over the years. I’m convinced Heard is lying.
At least the Middle Pillar has got me moving now, so I can focus on having the fun I want, which comes from watching Friends right now. I’ve already made plans to finish watching Angel after I get done with the 200+ episodes of this show.
Buffynicity redux: Yesterday I started my 12 Week Year sorecard and Chandler was talking about his WENUS, which is basically the same thing. Today I was thinking about the Angelish significance of “Touhy Avenue”, which I have driven back and forth across Chicago on thousands of times in the last 12 years. It’s the road I drive on most and I have concluded that the significance is that “Touhy” means “To We”, where I evolve from feeling by myself, to being part of a “we”, i.e. my guides and I. Then just now on “The One With Two Parts (Part 1)” Chandler was talking about his WENUS again and I just realized that WENUS breaks down into “We-Ness”, which is exactly what these journals are on another level, that blending state where my guides and I process our emotional reactions to the world.
12/18/2020 9:49 AM I’m extremely happy with this episode, there’s something magical about watching Lisa Kudrow playing twins. I had to bring myself down by watching a Photbacks tutorial.
12/18/2020 11:45 AM I guess twin Kudrows in “The One With Two Parts” as I weave the inside and the outside of my trances together through this blog counts as a nebulous Buffynicity. I did have the insight today that that is what I am doing … somehow just continuing like this is gradually tying up loose ends in my understanding of that “middle range” of emotions that has long eluded me.
