I’m
having a blast.  My persona is changing
into something productive now.  There’s a
dark center of focus in my psychic landscape that’s only been getting more
powerful for the last three days.  

12/23/2020
10:56 AM Buffynicity:  Last night I had a
dream about a guy I knew in high school who was actually evil.  I haven’t seen him in 30 years.  Then during “The One Where The Monkey
Gets Away”, an old high school classmate of Monica and Rachel’s shows up,
acting mean.  

What
is very interesting is that I forgot that dream.  I took some notes this morning when I woke
up, but I didn’t go into it in detail, and I only remembered that I had it just
now as I am finishing up my blog for the evening.  It’s amazing how much is going on in my
subconscious these days.  

In
that dream I had one of those old “Star Scrolls”, horoscopes that
came rolled up in a little tube.  I won a
prize in some kind of contest, there was a winning mark on the scroll.  But then I lost it.  I was looking all over for it and I found
another one on a high shelf that actually had the mark of a better prize, but I
was still looking for the old scroll.  

I
saw Charles Manson and Howard Stern talking.
Manson was out of costume.  

Then
I was on a bus and my evil high school friend left to find this girl who used
to prick-tease me.

So
now, before I go to bed, I have to wonder at how I “just caught that”
… there was timing even in that, I’m sure.  

“Dark
information futility”

12/21/2020 7:30 AM I got this information last
night before I went to work, a wave of darkness depicting the horror and futility
of everything, but it was so psychically clear that I knew it contained a
genuine insight.

12/21/2020
8:13 AM Whatever persona I was performing when I started this section of The
Buffy Diaries, it’s gone now.  Now I’m
looking for something to crystallize the energy I feel.      

12/21/2020 9:49 AM I did laundry today because I’m not getting a day off until
after Christmas.  It’s going to wind up
being at least 13 days in a row, I think.
At least I’m getting overtime. I’m very tired.  I couldn’t decide what to do first,
eventually I wound up listening to the Depp/Heard audio.  It’s an interesting bit of voyeurism,
changing a lot of my psychic landscape, as I have spent so much time
daydreaming about Hunter S. Thompson and
other friends of his.  I can tell
this is the year for “collapsing the waveform”, for excavating all my
entertainment fantasies and getting to the hard information that will burst my
fantasy bubbles.  

ALL
CRUSHING Johnny Depp/ Amber Heard Audio Evidence EXPOSED! (1)

I
got caught up in “Bang-Shang-A-Lang” for a while, but I did
ultimately complete this audio.