I feel really good.  I’m glad I made the videos I made yesterday when I got home from King Spa.  They changed my life; they rearranged my imagination.  I’m very blissed out right now.  

2/10/2021 12:30 PM

Buffynicity?:  On “The One After the Superbowl” part 1, Phoebe, Ross, and Joey all go over the deep end into their own fantasies.  I’ve been sitting here all evening blissed out because my three main guides have moved to a new level of clarity after yesterday’s video broke on through something for me.  But I was wondering how much of a Buffynicity that was.  Also Joey was leading a fan on, pretending to be his character from Days of Our Lives, and I wondered if perhaps I’d done the same thing by making that video.

But I just hit a true Buffynicity:

Buffynicity #1:  About forty minutes ago I was at Best Buy, picking up some old hard drives, and I thought of a guy I knew in Grand Rapids.  He was a lying creep cokehead actor and once he sat next to me in a bar and tried to make it look like I’d attacked him by falling backward out of his chair.  Then just a few minutes into T7S, Fez attacked Kelso and Kelso fell out of his chair in a pratfall just like that.

2/10/2021 12:54 PM I wish I could capture the total comfort and security I feel right now.  Things are going to get better, I’m sure.  I’ve never felt so complete in my life, I think.  I’ve even forgotten what I intended to write a minute ago.  I think it was something about … oh well, I’m going to bed.

I’m burning with passion tonight, Genvieve came very clearly.  We’re cohabitating.  The Moon is in Capricorn and I feel like I have no future (as usual during this transit) … I’ll be channeling in eight hours.  Will I get anything out of it, or will it just rearrange non-falsifiability?  I do feel I’m getting answers to this question now, however.  

2/9/2021 3:25 AM I made three good videos on Facebook Live and now I’m dithering about whether to download and process them for YouTube or work on a picture.  How do I focus on Genvieve with this activity going on?  I’m extremely excited and happy about all I’m accomplishing.

Buffynicity #1:  The Superbowl was Sunday and the next episode I’m starting on Friends is “The One After the Superbowl”.

I’m very pleased that Hyde likes Spy Vs. Spy.

2/9/2021 6:40 AM I updated my new YouTube channel.  After all that work I feel drained, but calm and peaceful.  I accomplished something tonight.  I changed my world.  I made progress although everything seems much darker now, as the sun is coming up.  Partly, it’s because of the Capricorn Moon.  By tonight it’ll be back to Aries and I’ll be moving on. (2/11/2021 10:55 AM Oops, obviously it was Aquarius)  But some of it is because I dispelled a lot of fantasy material tonight.  I channeled for YouTube about the phantasias I share with Genvieve.  I stripped away some of the wish-fulfillment and something more serious awaits – something unknown.

In one sense, I know there is someone there.  But in another sense I’m disappointed because the fantasy that sustained me has dwindled.  In another sense there was no one ever there.  

The Moon was sextiling Neptune when I had my moment of bliss this morning.  Saturn just sextiled Chiron which is probably why I feel so peaceful and yet dark, like the sadness after a long-term illness fades away.  I’m just going to dwell on my misery until tonight, when the Moon moves into Aquarius.  This has worked for me at least twice before this year, to just let go of all hope and go with the sadness.  I’m confident something will happen.

My tv shows seem empty now, like some childish fascination with them just wore off, although I know I’ll keep watching.  The “Ski Trip” was pretty brutal, which I like … but it also made me sad.

So I started this picture of Genvieve and now I have all morning to finish it because my channeling teacher postponed our session.

2/9/2021 10:03 AM All done with the picture, only took 3:20 minutes or less to think it up and complete it.  I hope it helps me to hang onto the magic I felt earlier tonight.  I know the videos I made helped clear out a lot of fantasies and wishful thinking from my imagination.  Genny says we did a good job.  

2/9/2021 10:05 AM  

Buffynicity #2: Just yesterday or the day before I learned that a friend of mine has set out on a drive to California with his fiancee.  In “The One After the Superbowl” Ross flies to California.