How I spent my Christmas Vacation, Day 3

December 26, 2016 by Regnum Somniorum

I woke up in the morning, very excited for all the time I have to do all the things I want to do, but I soon found myself in my dazed, unfocused but feeling good state where I feel like I can do anything in the world but it’s all so magical I don’t know where to start. I waste so much time there.

So I started writing about what was going on, just to get things moving, and I realized the best thing to do would be to try to integrate Kara into the stream of activity here, and this is the last time I’m going to explain in a post who she is (angel of Mars) and from now on people can just figure it out for themselves, if they bother to read anything I write at all.

So I did a magical working that went on for hours. It was the best I’ve ever done. I got the most clear information I’ve ever gotten. I wrote a bunch of it down, but I’m not posting it publicly. I’ll have to go back through and work on it.

So after hours of doing that I went to Xmas dinner, and then I took a nap, and then I woke up to find that George Michael had died and this is really making me unhappy, but at the same time I’m learning a lot from his spirit.

This is a really good start to my vacation, the working was very successful and Kara is much more in focus for me.

Even as I wrote that she came down a little harder. But with this new intensity comes a change in orientation. It’s as though I’m in the channeling state now and I have to figure out how it relates to daily life. This is actually one of the big revelations of the working – that when I think I’m daydreaming my mind is actually doing two things at once. I have to get them so I’m doing one thing at a time.

So much happened today, it was such a whirlwind of psychic activity, that it is extremely frustrating to not be able to describe it.

But I’m seeing as I write that Kara has actually changed the game plan, that old pattern of describing is over. When I blog now I’m blogging “with” her.

The issue is that I have to keep recycling my own emotional patterns in order to get material for her to use symbolically. I can feel her presence but there’s nothing in the zone between us, I have to loop back and kick up a wave of emotion for her to ride.

December 26, 2016 by Regnum Somniorum

cindy-crawfords:

“It was sort of the end of music as we knew it, where big business really took over that industry. I think it was like George [Michael] saying ‘you know what? I don’t want to be on screen, I’m not playing this game anymore. And you know who I want to have represent me? Five supermodels.’ ”

(Christy Turlington)

R.I.P. Rock Stars

December 26, 2016 by Regnum Somniorum

George Michael is dead, I hear. What an amazing talent he was. I haven’t had much time to feel the loss but I’m already thinking about Prince and David Bowie, and thinking of the three of them together shows me just how much they and other pop musicians have been a part of the backdrop of my life. I didn’t realize that, whatever I was feeling or thinking about pop culture during any given phase of my life, they were always there, they always seemed like the mountains on the horizon or something.. How can they be dead?

The issue of music, what it is in this century and what it’s supposed to be, is very deep and complex for me. There are occult issues involved. I want to shy away from this subject because it’s too complicated, but Kara is urging me to go forward, at the very least to put some ideas out there so I can go back and develop them later.

Music was supposed to be an art form and it was supposed to represent an evolution of consciousness, but in our culture music is almost a form of prostitution, or even some kind of venereal disease. American music can be depressing and oppressive because of the economic brutality of the business that distributes it. There is no genuine art of music in this world.

But what were and are the musicians who get made into magical fetishes? What is their role in the occult evolution of humanity? Who are they supposed to be? What do the ascended masters think they’re supposed to be? With the mere act of listening to music as politicized and sexualized as it has become …

When I was a teenager, the story of music was a huge part of the story of my life – so huge that it overwhelmed me, I think. I’m going to go back now and see if I can put the pieces together.

Aspects 12.25.2016

December 26, 2016 by Regnum Somniorum

Looking forward to Mercury sextiling Neptune tomorrow. I wonder what that will feel like. This weekend has already been a blast in terms of communicating about Neptunian craziness. I’ve been working on my various blogs. All the aspects of Venus going along with Mars in Pisces and Moon in Scorpio – just as much fun as I was expecting it to be. This morning I spent at least five hours in one of the most intense magical workings I’ve ever done, getting a ton written on various blogs, most of it secret though. I’ll have to go back through and work with all the perceptions I captured. But with that and other social media – Twitter, Pinterest, etc. – I’m really getting involved in the world in a way I never have been before.

Moon in Sagittarius should be fun but I bet I don’t get anything done. UNLESS this working this morning has had an effect. I was feeling my usual vague laziness and wondering how I could get over it to make some things happen, so I did this massive working with Kara, my angel of Mars, and it really took me boldly where I’ve never gone before. It totally kicked my ass, which is what I wanted. But now although I feel focused I’m also a little stunned. It’s like I’m all in one piece but I’m too exhausted to move.

Actually I did the working and then I went to Xmas dinner with my housemates, and then I fell asleep. Waking up, I’m still picking up the pieces. And holy crap George Michael died. That is scary – Bowie, Prince, and George Michael all in one year. The world is obviously dying.

But that’s another blog entry. As for astrological aspects, as I said I’m expecting to be coming up with something interesting to write tomorrow. I’m going to find out the exact time and see what happens.

December 25, 2016 by Regnum Somniorum

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How I spent my Christmas Vacation, Day 2

December 25, 2016 by Regnum Somniorum

I’m experimenting now with blogging about the things going on between me and the spirit world. Some of it is outside the range of sense-experience to express, shapes moving around, energies passing through my aura, etc. I can’t identify these things for other people. However the advent of Kara, my angel from the sphere of Mars, has been profound and I am definitely moving toward a public approach to these subjects.

Usually my vacations from work are times of deep transformation. For several months now they have all gone off like firecrackers for me. The higher worlds definitely use these times to make big revelations of the program. This one will be the biggest ever, I’m sure – my expectations are getting fulfilled pretty regularly now.

So now begins a sorting process, and the making of decisions about which parts of my life I should discuss, and what I should say about them. What do I say about sex, for instance? I’m a part of a few online communities that revolve around sex and sex magic, but should that be part of my image? How much detail should I go into about my disappointment over the failure of the United States – because I believe now that there’s nothing left of the country that I fought for in World War Two except a few slogans.

The balance moves back and forth between Kara and Sandy. Mars and Saturn, shifting the equation around. Doors to other worlds are opening. For instance, when I go to the nearby comic shop on weekends I feel an opening to the astral plane, a sense of otherworldly excitement as I connect to the magical origins of all the images on the shelves around me. Today that sensation followed me home as I went to my health club to run. I stayed in it during my usual running trance – that’s two altered states I’m in frequently that seem to be merging.

So I’m referring to it, but I have no way to describe it specifically.

The darkness that has haunted me for years is almost dissipated. I seem to be coming in for a landing – but here’s one of those choices I mentioned. I know why it’s happening, but what should I say about it? I’m writing about it on the web for the existential risk of it, but I’m not actually writing “for” anyone to understand this particular issue. We’ll have to see how that works out. So in this paragraph I hit that boundary of shadow that will have to surround my life for a while.

Yesterday I saw the usual crowd. I got some cool toys and some back issues – Daredevil #233, the end of the Frank Miller arc I was so engrossed with in high school. I’m collecting action figures of villains, composing the archetypal army of darkness for my sci-fantasy novel. I was pretty tired but I felt good about money issues and the future. My weight was lower than it’s been since 2008, the summer after I moved to Chicago. I’m looking forward to fitting back into clothes I haven’t yet worn in Illinois.

And speaking of olden times my angels are wanting me to deal with the issue of all the Nazi black magic I’ve dealt with in my life … they’re definitely setting new boundaries in that area, cutting me free of the old psychic entanglements, clearing up a lot of the polluted astral energy that I encountered back in Grand Rapids.

An interesting historical footnote, since I was a teenager and first learned about Louis XIV’s oppression of the Huguenots, I’ve always wondered about them. That name fascinates me. Over time I came to believe that I had been a French soldier who participated in Louis’ horrible injustices against them. Recently I was reading about them and discovered that they were Calvinists. This would explain why I’ve always thought Calvinism was one of the most idiotic forms of Christianity imaginable, and could also be one reason I wound up living for so long in Grand Rapids, Michigan, which has a lot of people from the Christian Reformed Church, which is this pathetically lame holdover of Calvinism that barely deserves to be called a religion.

So hating Calvinists is a karmic pattern for me, very closely related to hating Nazis. I got a huge dose of both in Grand Rapids.

Although I’ll be putting in a few hours next Thursday, I’m basically off until January 3rd. I’ll be continuing this series of blog entries, trying to express the changes as they happen.

December 25, 2016 by Regnum Somniorum