My expectations for the new moon in Sagittarius have been fulfilled.  Actually they started last night when I finally cracked open my “Uncanny X-Men Omnibus” and began to fulfill a lifelong dream of reading the entire Claremont continuity of that magazine.  I was filled with a new sense of vitality.  Ironically, this vitality has to do with the “coalescing” I was writing about yesterday, all the little darknesses of my life coming together as one.  I think this has a lot to do with the Sun-Sag/Neptune-Pisces square.  I didn’t know what that would be but now it seems that the darkness feels dark because it cuts me off from my daydream – associated with Neptune-Pisces.  So with all this Sagittarius energy – Sun, Mercury, Moon, it kind of threw me over into identifying with that realm and the fire of that sign worked “against” the watery daydream.  I felt this darkness creeping through my old habitual fantasies and dissociation. I felt totally cut off from the past and everything familiar.  It’s like the darkness I’ve been avoiding has become my life, but in a good way as I have this youthful X-Man vitality from the New Moon, confidence that I am moving into a new, more focused realm of activity, ready to get things done.  Mars-Aquarius trine Jupiter-Libra gives some force to that as well.  Jupiter rules Sag, after all, and feels very expansive anyway.  So I’m very happy with the way things are going.

Furthermore, yesterday I had a few surprises happen that seemed to coincide with the Venus-Sag/Uranus-Aries square, and today they kept going.  Some vendors arrived a day early, unannounced, but I went with the flow and we got some things out of the way.  Also it looks like the surprise tasks that got heaped on my department yesterday will be a little simpler than it first seemed – at the very least we’re getting them over with.  So there were some more surprises in the morning but by afternoon everything was running smoothly again.

I am very happy about this, because it seems like my expectations were fulfilled.  I really feel I have a new approach to certain issues in my life that coincided with this new moon in the same sign as two other planets.  And I have a more practical understanding of the Sun squaring Neptune, how my sense of self divided off from the daydream I usually wander in, so when the square is over perhaps I’ll be able to keep that distinction. This is interesting because my Angel of Mars is in Sagittarius in the ninth house, but Neptune is also in the ninth house, in Scorpio.  So this seems to indicate that I should more actively consult Catherine with regard to this dreamlike state I’m always in.  She does seem to come through very clearly in that region, but it seems her Sagittarian arrows are to be applied to some fixed, Scorpion target?

With the same aspects continuing tomorrow, I hope to look at this Sun/Neptune square a little more closely.  I wonder if there will be more Venus/Uranus surprises?

My expectations for something weird with the Venus/Uranus square were fulfilled.  Most obviously, some people showed up at work to do an inventory all week and my co-workers and I have to “escort” them as they do their thing, which is a total disruption of my week.  However I’m not going to worry about it too much.  It was nice that I got off so easy with that one. 

I’m finding that my 4 day weekend and especially my 24 hours at the spa caused bigger changes than I thought.  I’m really moving in a new direction.  I think this is working with the Mars/Aquarius position.  I’m getting much more detached from the country at large, accepting that America’s just not that intelligent a country and moving toward creating my own alternate reality – doing my own personal Venus/Capricorn “work” and forgetting the rest since they’re all just “points of light” in the vast, bland Aquarian “everythingness”. 

Sun/Mercury/Moon in Sagittarius now has me feeling pretty good about myself but also very half-assed about everything – enhancing my apathy toward the American polity.  It’s striking how distinct my Sagittarian apathy is, how obvious a pattern that is in my whole life.  Hopefully as time goes on I’ll make the deeper associations between these various sign-related states.

My dentist appointment had a little surprise – I was getting some fillings and at the last one I actually had some pain, which is unusual for me, so the dentist shot me up a second time.  The filling went okay after that but when I walked out I still had a little cylinder of soft plastic stuck in my cheek, stuff they use to hold your mouth open.  My face was so numb I couldn’t tell – it felt a little puffy, but when I looked in the bathroom mirror I saw this weird shape in my mouth and worried for a second because even looking straight at it in the mirror I couldn’t feel it.  So I guess that counts as appropriate for a Venus/Cap/Uranus/Aries square.

A very powerful development is that my daydreamy Piscean inner world seems to finally be “grounding out”.  Yesterday I was having some daydreams of possible scenes from the next Captain America movie – I thought maybe the Lana Del Rey song “American” would be good for the soundtrack, if he marries that blonde chick he was kissing in “Civil War”.  I have so many daydreams like that that I couldn’t begin to count them, but I decided to start writing them all down.  I have another “secret” blog I write things like that on, and now I’m getting into the creative end, finally all these images in my mind are coalescing enough that I can work on expressing them with some regularity.  I think this aspect blog is helping with that as well, and also seeing how many people are following me on Twitter and Pinterest.

And right along side this I’ve been able to put a lot of the various little dark moods I get into together into one great big darkness, it feels like it’s all coming together in one vision of the problem of my life, the sense of resentment and isolation and paralysis that’s bothered me – I wouldn’t have seen those three things as part of the same problem before, actually, but now I can feel that they are.  This has a lot to do with my angel, Catherine, getting ready to reveal something about what I’m supposed to be channeling.  It’s going to be very different.  For instance I was just looking at a post from the 25th and reading myself writing about her in such specific detail was strange.  Before now I wouldn’t have wanted anyone to read me talking about receiving messages from an angel so specifically.  I wouldn’t have wanted to take the risk of someone disapproving.  But now I don’t care and I’m moving forward.

So I’m extremely happy about the new moon tomorrow morning and I will be sure to write about how it affected me tomorrow night.

Sun is squaring Neptune tomorrow.  Will I have some crisis of the imagination?  Will the new moon and the square work together to give me a new approach?  Mars trining Jupiter should give me some momentum.  Fixed and cardinal air?  Something about belonging, something about justice.  We’ll see.

This is getting fun, after observing for a few weeks I’m moving now into making predictions!