My four-day Thanksgiving weekend has certainly lived up to expectations.  Sun and Mercury in Sagittarius still filling me with vitality but leaving me unfocused.  It’s nice to have the moon back in Scorpio – this is a very focused sign for me, does great things for my sense of self.  Scorpio women affect me that way, too.  Do I need to go on about Mars in Aquarius and Venus in Capricorn?  Maybe not except to point out that I am doing a lot of emotional/Venus “work”, overcoming obstacles that have hindered me for a long time.  

I am really wondering what’s going to happen with Sun, Mercury, and the Moon in Sagittarius later this week.  Will I just become a total vegetable?  And yet this weekend my Mars Angel has been blazing in a more focused way than ever before.  I’m wondering if she’s going to do something really dramatic.  

Maybe there’s some kind of pattern to Mars and Venus transits, some length of time they seem to be getting introduced, and then some time when their force is fully developed.  I know I absolutely hated Mars/Capricorn and Venus/Sagittarius.  I did get a substantial amount of what I wanted when they both moved.  Now I’m a bit bored with Mars in Aquarius, though not resentful, and I’m wondering what Mars in Pisces is going to be like. 

Venus in Sagittarius was just ridiculous and Venus in Capricorn is very educational, feeling the interaction of two types of energy that on the surface seem incompatible.  I’m actually kind of liking it.

Venus squares Uranus tomorrow.  I hope nothing horrible happens at work.  I do have a dentist appointment, maybe I’ll find out I have some horrible problem with my teeth or something.  The surprise doesn’t have to be bad though, does it? We’ll see.

I’m having an awesome 4-day weekend, which is turning out much better than I expected, with the sprit presence stronger than it’s ever been – so strong, in fact, that I might begin to put names on things.  For instance, I’ve been hanging out with the spirit of Amy Winehouse since Wednesday, and she’s been advising me to get straight to the point.  I still can’t get over what an amazing musician she was and is.  Yesterday during Thanksgiving dinner with the gang I was flashing back to 19th Century London, when I owned a theater in London, and a small resort in Kent.  Life comes and goes.  Jane had her son, Phoenix with her and I was contemplating life-paths from a larger view.  I had children when I lived in London, where are they now?  Do they miss me?  And I was thinking about the darkness that haunts peoples’ lives, the horrible problems people have with their families that shallow media stars like Marianne Williamson will never begin to address with their “spiritual products”.  I felt carried beyond all of it though, I’ve accepted the dark ugliness of my family in this lifetime and I don’t care about any of it. 

My angel of Mars, whose name is Catherine, is very forceful and now that she has come to the fore in my life I’m going to make a lot more noise.  Yesterday she had me looking up “The Catherine Wheel”, which was a name that first caught my attention back in the 80s, when David Byrne did a score for a piece by Twyla Tharp of that name.  That piece was about families and how twisted they get going around and around in circles, so signs of love become signs of hate and vice versa.  The Catherine Wheel was a device of medieval torture.  This is consistent with the themes of “understanding” I have developed over years of working with Sandra, my angel of Saturn – everything moves in tiny little circles.  For years, I used an eight-spoked wheel as a symbol.  I thought of it as the silver wheel of Arianrhod and a relationship between western occultism’s “Wheel of Fortune” and the “Noble Eightfold Path” of Buddhism.  Now this wheel has blades. Now things that have been gestating on the inner planes are coming to the surface.

I had a cold for a couple of days so I didn’t post much.  It was very transformative.  I’m getting a handle on a lot of things having to do with trances and art, film, entertainment in general.  I’m reorganizing my toy collection, to, to represent all the characters and scenes in the epic fantasy I’m writing. 

Moon in Libra makes me feel like no one.  I find Libra to be a very shallow sign.  Libras have screwed me over my entire life with their fecklessness and empty conformity.  It’s no accident that Libra is the most common sign in the United States – at least that’s what I’ve heard, and I believe it.  Libra moon has my feeling world in a zero-sum game, like I could be anything and it would lead nowhere, lead back to me.  But that’s okay because it’s just part of a cycle and I can move on to Scorpio next – where the moon was when I started, I think?  So this is very excellent progress for me, the beginning of watching the progress of all the planets through all the signs. 

There are other aspects I could write about but I don’t feel like getting that deep – another Libra influence.  But I do note that Pluto and Venus are square Jupiter, which is also in Libra – maybe that’s giving me a sense of something going on in those depths I don’t want to hear about.  Just having faith that everything will make its grand Jupiterian progress and I won’t have to dwell on dark, disturbing emotions.

I don’t know.  It was a good day of big magical revelations and I have a lot of hope for tomorrow, which I plan to spend at King Spa. 

Obviously, I’m not doing a great job of keeping up with this every day.  I’ve been extremely busy, but I also blame Mercury shifting into Sagittarius.  Blogging seems to be a Scorpio activity.  Moon in Leo also had me feeling very self-satisfied and lazy. 

Mars in Aquarius and Venus in Capricorn have been going on for a while, and will continue into December.  Venus in Capricorn has me feeling very dull and withdrawn, I think, even apathetic about the world as I focus on just getting the things that I want and forgetting about the big pile of garbage that civilization seems to be.  Mars in Aquarius only emphasizes that we’re all trapped in the same big leaky boat together, and there is no genuine emotional connection to bridge the omnipresent mental blandness of cocreation and thinking positive thoughts.  And also Capricorn lends a tinge of pessimism to the whole thing – I can get what I want but getting what you want is just another scam in the mass-produced Aquarian emptiness. You can have your wildest dreams but when you get them you know they won’t be that impressive.  As the Dylan song goes, “What looks large from a distance, close up ain’t never that big.”

Sagittarius in general feels good to me but never leads to anything interesting.  It’s deceptively philosophical, never getting down to business.

Moon in Virgo is messing me up.  The city turned off the power yesterday due to a tree falling in the back yard so I came home to a dark house, and then once they turned it back on a fuse blew so it was a hassle.  Then today we had a huge disposal event at work, hundreds of devices had to be shipped out, but the company didn’t bring a big enough truck so after spending all morning bringing them down to the dock I had to spend almost five hours of overtime taking them back up.  I didn’t mind getting the money (Virgo influence) but I am so totally fed up with people that I’m even violating my job’s confidentiality policy a little by talking about what happened at work.  I really don’t give a damn.  This is definitely Virgo showing me about the material plane while annoying me with time-consuming triviality. 

So while I spent hours moving pallets around I managed to listen to all of Debbie Harry’s album “Necessary Evil” and also Patti Smith’s greatest hits collection “Outside Society”.  That at least was a benefit.  I did manage to maintain positive energy, often thinking of my angel of Mars, whose name is Catherine.  She got me out of a lot of the repulsive darkness that thinking about my creepy disgusting childhood usually puts me in.  She is indeed breaking through and my hassles at work are partly only a way to show me how she’s going to take me away from all this.  Now that I can do intuitive readings without oracles, I am rethinking all the plans I’ve made in my life to “be an intuitive”.  I’m more confident than ever that I can and should simply wait for my clarity to improve.  I don’t need to go out there and be all touchy-feely, "cocreating" my career in the now with all the bullshit metaphysical networking that goes on.  I’ll wait till I have the real answers for myself before trying to sell anything to anyone else.

There’s more but I want to go to bed now.  The important thing is that Moon in Virgo overcame Sagittarian laziness and diffusion, although at the cost of a kind of grumpiness at the futility of all civilization.  I can feel the element of Earth grinding away in my psyche. 

Had a good astrology salon with Brian, although evil people were bothering us quite a bit.  We all agreed that things like that had been happening to all of us all day, like people leaving nasty messages for us on Facebook, etc.  Perhaps it’s the Gemini Moon, which has everyone being flighty and full of crap, moving into Cancer, which can be even worse.  I enjoy Cancer Moon because it aligns with my natal Venus in that sign, but Cancer is also the sign of festering evil and deep dishonesty.  For instance, there was a woman at the salon who was new, had never been there before, and just spontaneously started attacking me for talking to the spirit world, demanding that I justify myself to her.  She left suddenly when I wouldn’t put up with her persecutions, but I could feel the psychic drain of her after she left – a true vampire! 

The "assessment" at work which I wrote about yesterday went okay, although it took until the last minute to straighten everything out, it actually was a process familiar from the last time and fairly routine.  I did forget to return some DVD’s to the library on the way home, so I had to go back out and do it.  And I made my health benefits elections for the upcoming year – those seem to be very Aquarian activities, and also very Cancerian, about feeling safe and going through routine activities.

I found an online ephemeris, so now I can see that Mars and Venus are going to stay in Aquarius and Capricorn, respectively, for a while.  Mercury as well.  So I’m settling in for another grind.  I recall the Venus-Sag/Mars-Cap aspect made me crazy as it dragged on toward the election.  I’m looking to see what happens as Venus-Cap/Mars-Aq goes on.  I feel fairly expansive with the Aquarian, and I think Venus in Capricorn is giving me a sense of what I want, but also making me feel a bit narrow in scope.  Perhaps that’s good as I prepare for winter.

I was also talking to someone who had a lot of planets in the 9th house, and I had a moment of recognition about the similarities between myself and her, as I have two planets there.  I could see how our minds worked similarly because of that and I have a new interest in the houses.

But I’m very tired now and so good night.  I’m a bit frustrated because I have so many ideas for serious blog entries to write and develop into articles, but I can’t find the time to start them.  I think this might have to do with Mercury in Sagittarius.  Perhaps Mercury in Capricorn after December 8 will be easier.  But I hope at least to start something about Trump this weekend.