7:33 PM 4/25/2018  I can’t decide what to do in 3D so I’m catching up on my narrative instead, hoping somehow I’ll draw the power through into a coherent sphere.  Fortunately, the work I’m doing is really resulting in progress, but the inner tensions can be painful sometimes.  I’m surprised to find it’s been a week since my last post.  I can’t remember much about last week.  I was preparing for a big day of overtime on Sunday.  

The Moon entered Gemini and sextiled Chiron on Wednesday, as I was getting into work and I remember I felt very flighty and not really present in my life.  I spent all morning waiting for the Moon to conjunct Uranus at 9 AM.  I was ready for anything to happen.  What did happen wasn’t an event in the outside world, but a sudden insight into my 3D work that has changed my approach radically.  Instead of working on fantasy scenes of magical rituals, I got the idea to work on bedrooms with couples, adapting my own perceptions of emotional interactions in relationships.  I’ve spent the last week on this and I am getting good results.  I feel much more in control of the energies I’m bringing down and I believe it’s helping me see the spirit world better.

So I was expecting an unexpected event but I got an intuitive insight into my inner world.  

The Moon sextiling Mercury was related to the enthusiasm I was feeling for this new approach, and an increased sense of security.  I posted several more pictures online after this, increasing the flow of mercurial energy.  I worked on a very Saturnine picture which validated the Lunar inconjunct with Saturn that evening.

Alas, it’s so much work to check back and see exactly when I did all this stuff I’m remembering.

Thursday I was working downtown again.  The Moon squared Neptune in the morning and I was feeling happy to be downtown on my own, but also outside my own dream, watching it go by as I waited for the big weekend of work.  Lunar squares with Neptune have a definite feeling for me.  I enjoy the energy but I can’t grasp on to it.  It’s like a stream flowing past me that I can’t quite immerse myself in.

The Moon inconjunct Mars was related to the unexpected arrival of a bunch of the workers from out of state who were going to be there for the weekend’s event.  It wasn’t unpleasant, just crowded.  I focused on adapting to the impersonal energy of work.  I accept that the life of an American is the life of a meaningless corporate drone, that our way of life is empty impersonal garbage.  I focused on knowing that I’m as good as anyone here, that I can do all the grownup things that used to intimidate me when I was just a bohemian.

The Moon inconjunct Jupiter and Pluto was validated when I remembered that evening that I had a citation for having a headlight out two weeks before which I still had not paid, so I spent a lot of frustrating time on hold with various government offices and also tried to call up the payment website, which was non-functional.

In addition to the above validation, once again there was a Pluto transit on a day I worked downtown.

In the evening the Sun entered Taurus, which covers my second house, and I posted my first picture of a bedroom with a very “fixed earth”  couple.  I think it’s very sexy and I know I should adapt my 3D work more consciously to the day’s astrological influences in the future.

The Moon was sextiling Uranus as I was unexpectedly late for work on Friday morning, but I was happy to have the extra sleep and I felt good that morning, looking forward to getting my heavy weekend over with.  The Moon entered Pisces and I stopped giving a damn about anything.  Moon in Pisces is very familiar now.  Pisces in general is very familiar now, actually, and I just went with the dissolution all day.  The Moon squared Chiron and sextiled Taurus as I felt very smug about my new picture and the new sense of security I have in my life as I direct magical energies more consciously.  My inner landscape is changing dramatically and I know my perceptions of people at a distance are getting more accurate all the time.  More and more I feel I’m on the verge of getting something done in this world.

At the same time I had to spend a bunch of time on hold durning the day, doing a ridiculous round-robin of getting transferred from one line to another and back again in search of someone who could help me.  This was several hours before the Moon squared Mercury in the evening, but I still think that, along with the similar tedium from the night before, it validated the transit – while at the same time the final paying of the bill validated the new Taurus energy of solidity.

That evening as the Moon opposed Saturn I worked on some amaizing 3D, including a new picture, “La Mer” which is the best depiction of Binah I’ve done yet and I think marks a new high-water mark in my 3D work.  It’s definitely the most magical thing I’ve done and it’s taking me to new psychic heights.

Saturday was totally devoted to 3D.  I did amazing things, posting “La Mer” and feeling fantastic along with the Lunar trine with Neptune.  The Moon opposing Mars was like a full moon for me, giving me lots of energy and making me feel totally masterful in my 3D work.  The Moon trine Jupiter lent a similar sense of power and exaltation.  I was really rocking my own world with 3D all day and feeling fantastic, looking forward to making a bunch of money the next day.

The Moon opposing Pluto made me feel like I’d unlocked the key to the Underworld.  It was really a spectacular day that made me feel “present” to the magical forces in my life like never before.

On Sunday the 22d I was at work early when the Moon sextiled Venus.  I think the transit was giving me pleasant feelings of being “ahead of the game”, seeing the entire 12 hour day as a kind of extended act of cocreation, moving my emotions beyond the tedious emptiness of corporate servitude.  I had very little to do, I was just a support reasource, so I sat daydreaming and directing my feelings toward getting away from the corporate world forever.

I really don’t recall much specific about the Moon squaring Uranus, except I was unexpectedly sleepy.  I was enjoying the enormous amount of junk food the company had bought for us all, and I was struggling not to fall asleep in front of everyone.  I hadn’t realized I was so tired – it was definitely a suprise. Another surprise was that one of my co-workers brought up the Admiral Theater in conversation, but that was minor.   The day in general went by pretty fast.  Pluto went retrograde and I felt my relationship to the collective shift.  I am totally depersonalized in this corporate hell of a dead nation, but at the same time it brings me peace of mind to know it because I don’t give a fuck anymore.  So that was the Pluto retrograde, contemplating all the working men and women around me and taking a broader psychic perspective on the life of the masses in 21st century America, the hollow mechanical cocreativity which I abhor.

I could feel the energy of a different life coming to me, taking me away somewhere else.

The Moon entered Leo and I think that was why I felt my Plutonian insights, and my separateness from their collective awareness, so strongly.

The Moon sextiled Chiron and I felt relieved that I was making it through my day so easily.  I felt the overwhelming work of the previous two months was over and I was a success.  

The Moon squared the Sun in the afternoon and I hit a bump in the road when most of my coworkers were let go early because the project was done ahead of time, but I had to hang around the whole twelve hours doing almost nothing because of deliveries.  I had thought briefly I might be on time for the evening’s dream circle, but then I had to suffer through the passage of time as it became clear I wasn’t going to make it after all.  I focused on forgiveness and put it behind  me, but it did validate the Moon/Sun square.

I made it home to the circle and the Moon trine with Mercury was certainly validated as I had some great insights and did some very solid channeling, with much better clarity in my vision of the occult structure of the circle than ever before.  This is really a new level for me.

I’m going to post this now and go on to part two.