1/8/2021 I just finished another episode of Friends. I didn’t seem to have any Buffynicities. Most of my thoughts have been about the Capitol Riot and what I’m going to do on social media. I’m keeping the performance going even though I’ve forgotten how to think about what any readers might wonder. There’s some kind of pressure building.
1/9/2021 I’m having a good day, getting a lot of work done. I did the work of sorting mail. That 70s Show is changing my Zeitgeistiness.
1/12/2021 Well, here I am at the beginning of another wonderful night. I had an amazing night at King Spa, although I didn’t get there as early as I wanted. I couldn’t get to sleep until after noon because Genvieve was blazing as Laura Prepon. More and more the imaginary candy was coming into focus within myself. Although there is still stress I do believe I can solve this problem. So tonight I want to focus on bringing through the dark power as far as I can.
I’m getting at the emptiness. That 70s Show is showing me some things. I saw my grandmother a bit more clearly this morning. Also, when I got home I was feeling more able to practice Sahaj Marg. The block to concentrating has to do with the media fantasies and that 70s Show will probably kill a lot of them.
Genny is Laura Prepon tonight. And she is bringing the imaginary candy very close, so the focus is on bringing myself to the state, the thrill and security of a day off watching GOT, but possessing forever and transforming my life in that direction.
1/12/2021 2:18 AM This drift is in the collective, so what am I doing in this collective? I am piecing things together so I can practice Sahaj Marg, perhaps.
I’m glad this change is taking place. It feels very powerful. I’m seeing scenes from work. It’s very dark. I’m glad I’m entirely unconcerned with the fate of the world.
1/12/2021 8:55 AM I’m watching Friends. It feels different since I started “T70S”. I made a bunch of memes, but I haven’t done a 3D picture. There was interesting stuff about breast milk and the cowboy scene was cool. I feel different having posted all those political memes. I see how much nothing it gets me.
I was looking up articles on how to create memories online.
I dread going back to work, but I know I’ll have more experiences that narrow all this down for me. My imagination is collapsing. I have a session with Sheryl in forty minutes or so. I’m pissed because I didn’t do a 3D picture, but I’m happy to be watching sitcoms. The sitcoms, the emotional involvement with characters, are flattening out my inner daydreams but I think also making clear contact with Gen accessible.
I had an amazing experience with her this morning around four (I think) sitting in John’s old chair in the living room. There wasn’t anything to struggle for. This will get better for me, and I can do this every night. I also felt much better about Sahaj Marg, like I’ll get back to solid practice. I can feel the inner blockage, and the Phantasias that are the flipside of the dark blockage, coming into focus.
Experiences of playing Magic with Brian rewind through it all. This was my life. Possibly Kara will have something to say today. I just finished another episode of “That 70s Show”. It’s going to be fun getting involved with these kids. I like how dumb they are. They’re the friends I never got to have. But even though … man, my thoughts are crushing in now. The spirit presence is here and I guess I’m just going to let it carry me through.
I can go somewhere else and be happy.
1/12/2021 10:59 AM Let yourself celebrate you and who you are. Im in the semi-real world, with the structures, the obelisks …
1/12/2021 11:05 AM [During the session with Sheryl] I had a really amazing experience of obelisks … light and some concrete aspect of the afterlife. My guides are here, and the dead. Jack was very important, and I can be like him.