1/26/2021
3:21 AM I had an awesome night at King Spa, with a wonderful Cancer Moon. I’m
developing my own sense of where I’ll go in the afterlife. I came home and got
a lot done. But now I’m frozen solid by
the ghost of Harry Brant. What picture
does he belong in? They say Audrey
Hepburn was one of his favorites. He liked “Citizen Kane”.
Harry
Brant in a field. He wanted a movie
about him directed by Sofia Coppola. The
information is coming down furiously now.
Rain.
Harry
has me watching Fox News to see how bad things have gotten. It’s important to know what’s going on. I think he’s also giving me ideas for my
YouTube channel. But the key is,
1/26/2021
4:38 AM I’m having big conflict between feeling this intensity and wanting to
get something done tonight. I’m very
glad that I have this overwhelming sense of unity. It has to do with all the forces of my life
coming together. But where should I
direct this energy to make sure the upcoming week is as happy as possible. How do I give myself a good memory to look
back on while I’m at work? What will
make me feel like I accomplished something?
1/26/2021
5:26 AM I posted a meme, so now I feel better.
Maybe I could think about accomplishing something in the midst of this
turmoil. Some picture that advances my
awareness of influences like the ghost of Harry Brant?
1/26/2021
6:18 AM Now I’m working on 3D and surprisingly, even though it was difficult to
get started because I was so confused by all the impressions, Harry is actually
helping me feel the “sacred moment” of 3D illustration. I had perhaps gotten too lost in the mood of
“productivity”, making memes about the Capitol riots, etc. But Harry is reminding me of the eerie beauty
of listening to albums from Cryo Chamber and just feeling in control of my
dream.
I
have also noticed, during the week, an objectively real approach to my
“voice”, the point of view that arises from the merging of my inner
and outer worlds. The
“ectoplasm” of my daydreams is getting contained in a self-aware
vessel.
This
is because his inner and outer live were unified. For the public, he was himself. Possibly this kept him from evolving? He’s also given me the impetus to start
putting my 3D assets in databases, not worrying about one huge one for everything,
but breaking stuff up into individual projects.
1/26/2021
6:48 AM I worked on a simple pinup while listening to Hastur. I’ve got the mood down pretty well. It was good to get lost in time. I need to remember that the point of the Tea
Parties isn’t to know what’s going to happen first, it’s to go into them and
get lost in timelessness. This is very
inspiring advice I’m getting from having Harry Brant around.
1/26/2021
8:28 AM The magic is definitely here. I
felt very peaceful at King Spa, if dark.
I enjoyed the Cancer Moon. When I
got home I thought a lot about Harry Brant and I do think this experience has
pushed me that much farther into the spirit realm. I struggled to complete some pictures with
Poser, though, although I did catalogue some things.
I
think the loneliness problem is getting solved – in the sense that when I have
spirit perceptions now, they are more grounded so I don’t get “lost”
in them as much, which – they just interrupted me there. I think Harry is helping me believe in Jesus.
I
think it’s because he had so much money and such overwhelming influence so
young that his spirit is impressing upon me that I’m not “going
anywhere” with these inner imaginings.
They have to be brought forth into the world in some way. This isn’t just him, it feels like an
energetic shift associated with my upcoming session with Sheryl.
1/26/2021
9:05 AM I just watched a bit of a movie.
I just thought of something sad that might have happened to me in grade
school, or might not have. It still
lingers. And then there’s some other
memories crowding in, but all of it is 45 years ago, so what can it
matter? This is the first time I’ve
written about these recurring phantasms of grade school. I have them of high school as well. I think this presence I know as Harry Brant
is helping me, although he might also be the Angel Picard. Yesterday I was intending to work with the
Angel Picard all night, but instead I wound up with Harry Brant, looking at
news videos. I felt very scattered but
at least he got me into the right mood.
Life must be nice as a billionaire, when you must often have the time
and money to set whatever mood you want.
Now
I’m having a very powerful glimpse of the evil people who were influencing me
then.
1/26/2021
9:22 AM Then I was thinking of a couple of people I talked to about once back
when I was in junior high. They’re very
gone now. Why did I have all this energy
and imagery swirling in this? However as
I was watching a video just now I was very sure someone was in the room with
me, watching. Watching Friends I
remember a group of people I knew who were really into it. They’re gone, too.
1/26/2021
9:33 AM I feel the spirit world very close, but at the same time I feel
unhinged. I wonder what will happen?
1/26/2021
11:56 AM
Buffynicity
#1: When Eric is pretending to be tired
and running off to bed he rubs his chest just like Sheryl told me to when I
came out of my channeling session an hour ago.
The
main thing is that I just had a spectacular session with Sheryl and I channeled
Kara for 24 minutes. My entire world is
changed. I have a lot of work to do this
week. It’s a whole new world.