6:41 PM 5/14/2017 There’s some kind of dark magic on me now, I’m a little afraid of it, but I’m hoping it will get better.  It could be a powerful release from some limitations. 

8:12 PM 5/14/2017  Even though the above statement has almost no concrete value to anyone, I’m going to leave it just as a taunt to the universe, a dare to get it to give me something more specific to say.

*** And now there’s a presence here, interrupting me again.

Buffynicity #1: “My blood is the key.” A theme from season one that I’ve been recalling with the revelation that Dawn is “the key” in season 5.  Now Dawn comes forth cutting herself, with her blood flowing in the living room, and then Buffy mixes her blood with Dawn’s at the end of the episode.

This is a definite sign to look back into my Celtic ancestry, past my disgusting grandparents to someone who was a better person.

Buffynicity #2: Glory preys, via white light, on the force that gives the mind coherence.  I’ve noted her resonance with “Kara” which means “stormy”.  I was given the visualization of white light at Sharyl’s intensive the day before I saw Glory using it on a guy to wipe out his mind.  All this has resonance with what Kara is doing, and with the chaotic part of my own mind which I’ve been seeking to tame for years.

Buffynicity #3: Recently I have been using a new technique of viusualization which I’m not going to discuss here, one I’m finding more powerful than the goofy “perfect day” crap the goons of Hay House will feed you.  I’m really getting powerful results from it and intending to make it foundational to my practice (which is why I’m not revealing it), and tonight there was this line from dawn about her homework:

DAWN: We have to imagine what we’ll be like ten years from now and write a letter to our future self.

That was cut and pasted from a website which has scripts of all the Buffy episodes – a very nice tool for studying writing which I’ve discovered.

Buffynicity #4: There was a lot more imagery in this episode related to the Knights Templar.  I’m not going into it in detail, just noting the resonance.

Buffynicity #5: I was looking up tire irons on the web last week, they are an awesome symbol of Angels of Saturn, and Xander was trying to kill Glory with one tonight.  She wound up stabbing Buffy with it.

So those were all really good and now I’m moving on to the several days worth of astrological transits I missed because I had a jam-packed weekend which was very fun for me as well.

Friday there was a lot going on at work, there are big changes taking place and now I have to run my department at 3 different sites and deal with a lot of red tape, and also manage all the people under me.  I made it through the “assessment” which ran simultaneously with watching the Council’s “review” of Giles, and then Friday while the Moon was squaring Neptune I had some very dramatic conversations with my boss about big changes in the department.  I cam out okay but I was also rushed for time in a week of a relatively high degree of pressure which will last until this Tuesday, when hopefully I can relax again.  This square of Neptune is something I’m going to have to look back at because a lot of concrete changes happened at work during that time.

But then I was off to the library to pick up some more music as the Moon was sextiling Jupiter and then I was rushing home to do a one-on-one session with another participant in the intensive.  I think the Jupiter sextile had a lot to do with ultimately feeling better about having some more people to share the work in my department and also getting a little more understanding from/with my bosses.  Also I am overcoming somewhat my split personality at work and accepting that my guides are with me there and being a better worker is healing even though I have less faith than ever in the economic system of the United States. 

The energy is burning now within!  Whee!

So at 5:45 when my one-on-one was scheduled to start the Moon was opposing Mars.  I was actually late getting back across town and I was sitting in traffic very frustrated.  I didn’t get home unitl a little after 6 but my partner walked in two minutes later – she was late too and it was perfectly synchronized.  We both felt like crap with all the traffic and other lousy things so we agreed not to try too hard, and to schedule a follow-up later.  But the telepathic connection between us got deeper and deeper and by the end I was feeling triumphant and quite ready for the full circle, which was similarly deep and productive.  The way my partner and I had felt so crummy around the Moon-Mars opposition was a topic of conversation, and a validation of astrological timing for all of us.

After that I was feeling very nocturnal so I stayed up until 4 am cleaning and organizing, and so I only had a few hours of sleep.  I did manage to run in the morning, listening to music instead of watching Buffy because of the sunlight at the club, passing through the Moon-Sun inconjunct without much incident, although my lack of sleep may have been associated iwth that.  I made it out to the IANDS meeting in good time, stopping to pick up a CD at the public library on the way.  The Moon trined Uranus at 4:46 which I found associated with a strong feeling that things were changing for me and for Chicago IANDS, but that ultimately they were going to work out.  I had been through some crazy stuff which I am not going to write about, but it fit the transit very well and although there had been some moments of crisis I felt much better, much more like I am where I need to be in the world and doing what I need to do. 

Moon square Chiron and trining Mercury, then entering Capricorn:  I went to a very powerful ritual and participated at a much deeper level.  I’m entering a new era of spirit contact.  While I was helping people do this ritual I got a very concrete awareness of cooperating with their spirit guides to “serve” them. The whole concept of “service” which Sharyl brought up at her intensive a few weeks ago is finally making sense to me and I have a lot of work to do with the spirit world to get it straightened out in my mind and move to some new level I can sense. 

Ironically however right after the ritual I got really drunk for the first time in months and fell asleep in my car.  I woke up around 2:30 and drove home.   I quit drinking sodas and Monsters last week but I’ve had them both occasionally in the last few days when I find myself out and about needing something to drink.  I will probably always have sodas with fast food but I have thoroughly quit buying them otherwise.  I have had a few Monsters this weekend and I need to work on that, but it is still “quitting” compared to how much I used to guzzle them and keep them around the house in bulk. 

However the interesting thing is that I quit drinking those things early in the week and then I “relapsed” buying them and even drinking alcohol for the first time in months.  I’m going to have to look into the occult nature of “drinking” because obviously liquids are giving me trouble.  However I’m confident that this is working out in general.

But the square with Chiron and trine with Mercury during this powerful ritual were very powerful for me.  I had lost track of the transits at that time and learning of them in retrospect is very illuminating. 

So now here I am with Moon in Capricorn, the worst time of my Lunar season.  I can put up with it.

9:20 PM 5/14/2017  I can put up with it because I just caught up with writing my transits and checked for today to find that today’s only aspect is the Moon squaring Venus which takes place in four minutes.  So after three days of feeling guilty for not keeping track of transits I cleaned up the mess just before the only transit of the day.  It’s great validation of my progress in this. 

I wonder how the square with Venus relates to blogging?  I’m thinking of Friday’s square with Neptune, which was challenging but ultimately felt better.  It did change how I see myself related to work and tonight’s aspect is … what?  I’m going to sit back and try to feel it.

That was pretty cool.  I got a bunch of stuff I can’t describe, but I also remembered that today I’ve been daydreaming a lot about Paris Hilton.  I really like her.  I think it’s cool that she’s a DJ.  She’d make a cool friend, I think.

Tomorrow:  Moon incj. Mars at 10 am should be exciting.  I feel more powerful and focused than ever, although Moon in Capricorn is also lousy so I bet I’ll feel a little put-upon.  Moon conjunct Pluto at 3:24 – well, I have the big event downtown on Tuesday morning so I bet I’ll be involved with something related to that.  When I work downtown I work on the 2nd sublevel of a very high tower so it’s definitely an “underworld” atmosphere.  But it’s a conjunct so I bet I’ll feel really on top of things.  I feel like I’m integrating Pluto energy in general these days, feeling more at home in the world. 

Mercury enters Taurus at 11:07 so I’ll be thinking about that transition tomorrow night.  Mercury in Aries has been cool.  I definitely feel that I’ve gotten some things started well, and I’ve actually been adding scenes and dialogue to my heptalogy for the first time in months so I’ll bet Mercury in Taurus will see me getting things done in that area.

*** my angel just reminded me that she radiates from that sign.  I’m still working on how to talk about their activities, but she sent me a very encouraging, detailed picture of some things that are making me feel pretty good.

Tuesday morning is what I’m concerned about, the consummation of a project at work that’s taken weeks of planning and been relatively frustrating and confusing.  It should be over by noon so I’m looking forward to the day but I see that the moon will be VOC all morning and I wonder what that’s going to mean.  I’ll be getting out of bed while the Moon is squaring Uranus, I probably won’t feel the way I’d expect.  The Moon sextiles Chiron right before it starts so I’m thinking that I’ll be pretty integrated.  During the last Chiron aspect while I was headed downtown I remembered a really cool song for my soundtrack, “Hunger Strike”, and I’ve been listening to it for several days. 

There’s nothing else until the Moon enters Aquarius at 12:50, so I’m basically expecting things to go smoothly. We’ll see.

Moon squaring Mercury at 1:55 pm – having gotten the project over with I’ll be moving full speed ahead with other projects, especially doing the setup for all the things that have been on hold for this one.

Sun inconjuct Saturn in the evening, late after I have a one-on-one with someone … hmm.  I’m thinking it will be okay but a new kind of insight into “channeling”.