1/21/2021 9:43 AM I started off the night with the Angel Picard, listening to Missing Persons.
I interrupted myself there, I got caught up in an intense knot of energy. But 1/21/2021 9:46 AM now I’m trying to record the night’s journey. AP was very stable, but mysterious. Sometimes he seemed very comforting, but other times I was very suspicious of him. Is he a failure? Is the failure of guides like him the reason the world is such a dismal emptiness? However, as the night progressed, I got an amazing new level of clarity about my place in this world, and I must attribute it to him.
He also brings a new level of clarity in blogging as I can feel myself arranging the energies of the night in a vortex around me. I’m so disgusted with this world. Over and over, I still think about how I spent 51 years “cocreating” my lifetime in this lousy world, and all I got was a lot of bad memories of stupid people, lousy entertainment, and the chance to keep chasing money so I can participate in the expansion of a pile of garbage. Why did I come to this ridiculous place of emptiness?
AP has answers. I need a name for him though, I don’t like using Picard.
1/21/2021 10:20 AM I feel I can contain the whirlwind of energy I felt yesterday if I can get some kind of symbol of him.
1/21/2021 11:32 AM I did some tutorials and had some amazing experiences of contact with higher planes. It feels very stable although I’m still going through dark periods of suspicion and anger.
Buffynicity #1? I just posted another Instagram meme about That 70s Show and then in “The One With Five Steaks and an Eggplant” Chandler meets a woman who claims to have been on a James Bond poster, just like Tanya Roberts from T7S. Am I reaching for this one?
Buffynicity #2: This one is goddamn spectacular, however. Before I started watching shows tonight I was rearranging items on my shelves, and one thing I moved was the Coke bottle I got from Lon Duquette. The first time I met him he asked me to open a coke bottle and then took a sip and gave it to me. I kept it because I use Coke as a kind of astral symbol of “The Real Thing”. I was replaying that old event in my mind just a few minutes ago. Then I played a tiny bit of Friends and moved on to T7S “That Disco Episode” where I had stopped yesterday as Mrs. Forman was teaching Hyde to dance. They finished the lesson and then had Cokes. I’m glad for this confirmation and I think it’s also encouraging because the T7S meme I just posted was about Danny Masterson, who plays Hyde, being innocent.
Buffynicity #3: Red tells Eric to pick up the dry cleaning, and I was picking something up at Kenny the Kleener’s this morning.
Buffynicity #4: The gang are tape recording their conversations. I just recorded my first channeling session with Sheryl on Tuesday, and I am planning to listen to it tonight.