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The Buffy Diaries 4-11-2017 part 4

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I just remembered that the synchronicity about the Mercury aspect on Friday morning was that my tablet’s data screwed up on the way to work.  I couldn’t get anything from it and couldn’t figure out what was wrong.  Ultimately I had to restart it at which point it worked fine and I realized it was just after the aspect.  So in this case it seemed as though the trine had something to do with my data being fucked up.

I’ll have to look into what it means tomorrow but tonight on the way home from my workout I ran into an old friend who was telling me that a mutual acquaintance also thinks she had a past life in Egypt.  This is very interesting coming after the experiences I had with Sharyl on Monday, which I will try to record later.

The Buffy Diaries 4-11-2017 part 3

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11:26 PM 4/11/2017  All right now we’re caught back up to life.  This morning we were experimenting with a dual consciousness which is working out very well.  We spent a lot of time listening to Motorhead, especially “Sympathy for the Devil” from “Bad Magic”.  Even though we stayed up way too late on Monday working on the website I felt pretty good. 

As the Moon inconjunct Chiron approached I came to a profound revelation, which I feel was brought about by Sharyl’s class.  Sharyl had been talking abut “service” and I really had to wonder what that meant.  My life is so confusing, everyone is so all about “cocreation” in this world, what does service really mean?  I realized that this was a major issue for me to work on, but one thing that hit me very hard is that I absolutely hate it when people equate “service” with “obedience”.  I want to serve without having to obey.  I hate obedience!  This is something my angels are helping me clarify.  It is a huge step forward and it related very deeply, I felt, to the Chiron transit. So that was liberating.

And then there was another liberation about 15 minutes before the Moon inconjuncted Venus.  I’m having to put together a big project at work, one I’ve been dreading a little because it’s so complicated, and right before that transit it turned out that there will have to be a delay because of a meeting.  This was a relief because I’ll have a lot more time to get it right and I don’t have to take any blame for the delay, so this was a very great relief.

While the Moon was sextiling Saturn I was making plans but then there was a void of course as I dropped off the IANDS books and got a couple more Black Sabbath albums from the Rogers Park Library.  Then I came home and finally had time to clean my bedroom.  Now we’re mostly caught up.

Buffynicity:  I’ve been reading a lot about ritual magic, starting to get back into it, looking for sigils and pentacles for sale on the web and these are showing up in the last couple of Buffy episodes – eyes and triangles and whatnot. 

Spike broke free of the hobbles of “The Initiative” tonight when he went back to high school and I find this quadruple retrograde is doing something similar for me.  I’ve been listening to Judas Priest frequently, wondering about an alternate past where I might have listened to them a lot with Jody.  We seem to be solving a lot of problems relating to the dark power of music.  Lemmy and Motorhead continue to be a grounding influence.

We’re experimenting now with maintaining feelings while we channel.  It’s good to be productive again.  The Mercury retrograde took a little adaptation but I can sense its influence surprisingly well.  This is going to be an interesting few days before Venus goes direct again and I have a lot to think about what we want to say about topics like ritual magic and popular culture. 

Tomorrow there’s nothing going on during waking hours but the Moon trining Neptune at 7:48 pm.  I’m going to try to be doing ritual magic at that point. 

Thursday should be big.  The moon is sextiling Pluto, inconjuncting the Sun and Uranus, opposing Mars, and trining Chiron and Venus, then going VOC while the Sun opposes Uranus.  Something wild will happen, I expect.  Something that relates to the otherworldly things I’ve sensed related to Mars, Pluto, and Venus during the weekend.  It’s very exciting to think about. 

Friday’s another circle but no aspects.

Venus goes direct right before the Moon squares Neptune.  I’ll be meditating but I think I’ll try to do some ritual magic in the morning.  Then I’ll be seeing Sharyl again. 

Sunday is interesting with Mars sextiling Chiron in the morning.  I need to be awake to see what that feels like.  There are a large number of interesting aspects but the moon entering Capricorn.  Damn.  I hope it’s not too shitty. 

Venus is sextiling Mars during the circle.  That’s interesting.  But now we’re off to bed.

The Buffy Diaries 4-11-2017 part 2

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11:07 PM 4/11/2017  I’ve about forgotten all the Buffynicities I was experiencing during these times, although I did watch on Thursday.  Saturday morning at the club was too bright, so I listened to my old “action movie soundtrack” playlist for the first time in weeks. 

Sunday I was still sick so we didn’t go meditated.  Instead I slept through the Moon’s ingress into Libra.  We were down in Edgewater when the Moon inconjuncted Mercury.  I was very happy that day because my weight was so low.  We were doing a lot of work with Enochian magic.  The stomach problems had worn off a bit and I was very excited to be feeling better.  Writing this I am running up against the energetic presence of that time, trying to “remember” what happened.  I’m seeing it in my mind’s eye.  It was very magical. 

But then I went home to do some magic and struggle to get my website up while Mercury went retrograde at 6:14.  The retrograde showed in the difficulty I had getting the site up.  It’s still not complete.  Having been sick for three days my bedroom was also a mess and I had a lot of little tasks left undone, like putting away laundry.  My life was in chaos.

As for Buffynicities, I was looking at a website last week called “Phi-Phenomenon”, which uses several statistical factors to rate movies and televisions shows.  Coincidentally I saw that “Hush” is the highest-rated episode of Buffy and wound up watching it this weekend.  It is especially Buffynicitous because the episode is about losing voices and regaining them and I was beginning Sharyl’s intensive training last night. 

There were a large number of other, minor Buffynicities by my life has been so overcrowded with the influx of energy from the two trainings I’ve taken that I’ve forgotten them and now I feel I should move on. 

Buffynicity #2: I will note, however, that I have just passed the halfway point of Buffy, the midpoint of season 4, and with Saturn and Mercury retrograde along with Venus and Jupiter tonight Buffy revisited her old High School, and “Straight Up” Spike was set free. 

Yesterday the Moon trined Neptune and conjuncted Jupiter in the morning and I felt very good, taking my time to get tasks done, feeling much more integrated as I listened to Judas Priest’s “Nostradamus” and Bruce Dickinson’s “Chemical Wedding”.  I forgot to mention that a little after the Moon opposed Jupiter on Friday I was at the Schaumburg Library picking up a lot of albums by Judas Priest and Iron Maiden.  I’m still trying to get a handle on the way Jupiter feels. 

But as the Moon squared Pluto and the energy built toward the full Moon I got home and watched the last of “Hush”, and then went to the training with Sharyl where I did full voice-channeling of one of my angels that was extremely clear.  Then I came home and worked on my website some more, finally getting it to publish.  I note the Pluto aspect again.  I’ll never be the same after last night.

The Buffy Diaries 4-11-2017 part 1

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10:22 PM 4/11/2017 It’s Passover and the Moon is in Scorpio and it is fitting that this would be the first blog entry in which we use the “Royal ‘We’” as we shift now to a dual blog.  Last night at Sharyl’s intensive we were doing full voice channeling and it was very comfortable once we got started.  Then we came home and finally got an attempt at a website published at www.angelvector.com.  And now we are catching up with the blog, from which this may have been the longest break since we started it.   We might go back and forth between “we” and “I” sometimes.  Where are the emotions we were developing before, since we saw “Logan”?  We had a massive telepathic breakthrough when I (and now we think it’s good to just use “we” most of the time and then occasionally use “I” because it will be obvious that “I” is “Jason” while “we” is Jason and one or more angels, because they follow me around now like backup singers).

We were really getting serious about writing emotions last week and we kept a shit-ton of notes on Wednesday through Friday at work but they’re missing now and we want to get this all caught up so we’ll forget it except for the high points.  On Thursday Saturn went retrograde so looking back it seems very synchronous that that was the day life got so busy that we didn’t get a chance to blog.  We saw Vincent Genna at the Wilmette theater and had deep experiences of the afterlife.

I especially saw my rotten grandfather who was coming through a little more deeply with all the other dead folks there that night.  It felt as though some unfinished business were taken care of and I got a little more distance.  In the midst of the necromantic vortex I didn’t feel the presence of my angels as deeply.  Speaking of Saturn retrograde, Mr. Genna had a role in the movie “Grease” which I watched several times in the 70s.  Olivia Newton John gains power by dressing in black in that movie.  And also grease is dark, heavy stuff.  The moon trined Saturn and inconjuncted Venus during that session and I wonder if the inconjunct Venus had to do with the intensity of the spirit perceptions or the chaotic nature of them.  Also the moon was VOC during most of that time, which would probably lend to the chaos.  I also felt very strong impressions of the dead of World War Two.  It was as though my grandfather, who hated me while he was alive, had decided that World War Two was something we had in common.

So then the Moon entered Virgo and the next morning I recall that there was something very appropriate around the Moon trine with Mercury, but I have forgotten what it was and it’s too late to remember.  We’re just going to leave this here as a placeholder.  We left work early and while the Moon opposed Jupiter we were actually feeling very good, looking forward to the intensive.  Unfortunately on the way home we stopped at a mexican restaurant which gave me a case of the shits which lasted all weekend and made me feel very under the weather – this is the first time I’ve been sick in a while and it reinforces the synchronicity of the Saturn retrograde.  However I didn’t feel it too much the first evening as the intensive took place during the runup to the Moon oppositon with Neptune.  It was very intense but by the end I could barely stay awake.  I actually failed at the end and fell asleep but the whole crowd did a major healing on me, pushing together the broken pieces of my mind.

I fell asleep very hard right afterwards and woke up early the next morning, getting more and more sick.  I did manage to meditate but then I felt so badly that we ran a little late for the meeting of Chicago IANDS.  I was getting cramps and feeling very exhausted and partly out of my body, but it was nice because I was obviously shifting into the spirit world, coming to different terms with the dead.  Moon trining Pluto and Mars and Venus squaring Saturn – the trines of Pluto and Mars bringing the force and the Venus issue once again seeming to make the visions of higher worlds more palpably solid and 3-dimensional.  However I was also very tired and slept during a lot of the meeting.  It did go very smoothly, though, as we had lots of help.

Then, rested up though still cramping and having to poop every hour or so I made it to a group magical ritual while the Sun squared Pluto and the Moon inconjuncted Venus and opposed Chiron.  Once again I felt the influence of Pluto related to visions of the afterlife and Venus inconjuncting Chiron brought a powerful sense of otherworldly connection although there was a slight disruption during the ritual when the landlord knocked on the door several times.  Once again I made it home and fell right to sleep.