10:11 PM 9/11/2017 Catching up with my narrative after several days of working on 3D instead. Last night I tried to render on Ultra Subsurface and it just took forever. Way not worth it until I start to publish things. Meanwhile I’m satisfied that Subsurface Medium is better than GPU medium and much faster so I’ll be able to render more often.
I was being a bit lackadaisical about Buffynicities, I’ve forgotten whether I had any the last couple of days, but I did have two tonight:
Buffynicity #1: I was looking on Renderosity at this ship, “The Cockroach”
https://www.renderosity.com/mod/bcs/aj-battle-machine-cockroach/106621/
And then tonight there was this line:
Gunn: “Well, isn’t that nice? I thought all we had to dodge was roaches and vampires! What is this demon up to?”
That was minor, but the major one was that I was seriously thinking about getting this room, “The Dark Council”, because I need a setting for my dystopian story about insane occultist spirit guides fucking up the lives of innocent people,
https://www.renderosity.com/mod/bcs/aj-dark-council/113847/
And then the main episode I watched tonight “Judgement”, was about “The Tribunal”.
–The pregnant woman is hurrying down an almost empty street at night, one hand on her belly. Suddenly three stone thrones occupied by dark robbed figures rise out of the ground behind her. A horse whinnies and a knight in armor rides up the street towards them.
The three thrones and the knight match perfectly. So that was great, and it also shows that my renders are getting more magical.
So now I get to catch up on several days of transits.
Friday, with the Moon trining Venus, inconjuncting the Sun, and squaring Pluto, was a day of strong visions about society, all the collective Plutonian forces, and how alienating they are. With a hurricane approaching Florida, one of our major computer new systems, which is based there, was shut down and I had to wait hours to see if I was going to get paid this week, not to mention I discovered that I’d forgotten 12 library books, 3-6 days overdue each, and so I had over 10 dollars in fines! It was tedious and horrible and I could feel impending doom hovering over America as punishment for the election of Donald Trump. Fear was in the air.
I went home and rushed to return my books but because of the wait for the system at work I got there after the library closed.
But then the dreaming circle was good as the Moon trined Saturn and I felt extremely focused with my guides, ready to go forward and do readings for people. Moon opposing Jupiter around midnight brought a sense of breaking free from this tedious world.
Moon was conjuncting Uranus as I woke up, and trining Mercury as I was at the library, paying my fine. I was also provoked into actually reading one of the books which had a very nice note-taking system which I’m now using, so Mercury definitely made its influence felt.
The Moon entered Taurus and trined Mars during the IANDS meeting and this brought some very important specifics in terms of my life as an intuitive, extremely exciting. I also found out about an event going on next weekend. I’m not going to write about it but the trine with Mars was definitely important. Mercury entered Virgo late that night as I worked on Daz3D and didn’t bother to keep up with my blog. I must say the Virgo aspect is extremely apt for working on learning new 3D software, which occupies my mind all the time now.
On Sunday I was meditating while the Moon sextiled Neptune and it was very good for me, pulling various spiritual influences together.
I worked on 3D all day and then I was in Edgewater when the Moon trine Pluto, thinking about all I’d learned at the IANDS meeting the day before, and also thinking about how rendering is changing my attitude toward comics and games, which is mostly what I shop for in Edgewater on Sundays. The acts of imagination I’m engaging in are getting more powerful and more directly related to the underworld and to society, represented by Pluto.
I was running when the Moon trined the Sun, fitting for the climax of the first season of Angel. Then the Moon squared Venus and went VOC which was very appropriate as I began a render on one of my highest settings then, which ran all night and which I eventually abandoned as ridiculously slow.
Today while the Moon sextile Chiron in the morning I was relishing all the new figures I’m going to buy this week – there’s a huge sale on Sci-Fi at renderosity and a lot of the stuff I’ve been looking at for a couple of weeks on it. I was listening to “Over Now” by Alice in Chains, thinking about a climactic revenge scene in my heptalogy, and thinking about that massive project I finished this week, and how most of the pressure I’ve been feeling for several weeks is being taken care of, while some amazing opportunities are also coming up. And the energy of rendering is brining certain psychic centers alive for me. A lot of the pseudotrances I’ve experienced around entertainment are getting resolved. The truly intuitive is coming through for me.
The day went quickly and I was relaxing at lunchtime when the Moon finally entered Gemini, looking forward to taking care of business on the way home so I could get back to 3D. The Moon was approaching its square with Mercury while I was shopping. I’m not sure what that meant. I was pleased that I’m controlling my spending and that I got everything over with so quickly. I’m saving tons of money.
At home I worked on more rendering and went to run as the Moon squared Venus. I did get a couple of good Buffynicities, as I said. And my renders are turning out to be amazing. I’m getting some discernment now, and I’m getting used to how nice it feels to be mastering this visual medium, realizing so many of my dreams.
I’m looking forward to the Moon squaring Neptune tomorrow. I bet I’ll get some good stuff about the big weekend coming up, with the event at Madame Zuzu’s on Friday, a ritual on Saturday, and a circle on Sunday. Also I’m going to try to get to the Art institute on Saturday.
In the evening the Moon inconjuncts Pluto and Venus trines Saturn. I’m expecting some magical rendering to be taking place.
Moon enters Leo on Friday – I’ll be at Madame Zuzu’s at the time. I bet I’ll have a psychically affirming experience.
Mercury conjunct Mars and Moon inconjunct Neptune on Saturday while I’m at the Art Instute – I bet I’ll have an intense, energizing experience.
Moon conjuncts Venus on Sunday night and they both trine Neptune – the circle will be a big breakthrough, I can tell, especially after a weekend of big events and also more breakthroughs on Daz3D. I’m still working on lighting and hair. Any day now I’ll feel confident enough to start posting online, which will be a big shift for me.