10:11 PM 9/14/2017  I’m keeping up with my narrative, even though it’s difficult.  Last night I just went ahead and worked on Poser instead.  I did get my first “real” render done, in the sense that I was willing to show it to others. I ran a high-quality process while I slept only to realize this morning that there was a mistake in one of the poses, so tonight I worked on it again and it’s a hundred times better.  I’ve uploaded it to Renderosity.  Now it’s official!  I’ve been sitting around thinking about how good it is. 

Tonight I could detect a couple of Buffynicities, things I’d been thinking about briefly that showed up in the episode, but I’ve already forgotten them.  However there was a major one from Tuesday that I forgot as well, which I have now remembered –

Buffynicty #1  While looking for items of magic to put in my renders, I came across this item

https://www.renderosity.com/mod/bcs/the-real-deal/97259/

A briefcase full of money I was planning to get as a magical symbol.  I almost bought it that day.  Then in the episode that night …

Judy:  “I’m pretty sure he works for my former employers, the City Trust Bank of Salina, Kansas.  I was a teller there. (She goes over to the bed and pulls out a satchel from under it)  I think maybe they want this back.”
She opens it and Angel takes a look inside.  It’s full of rolled bank notes, 1000 marked on each of the wrappers we can see.

Coming on top of the Hotely synchronicity itself, right after I’d posted about the black girl who died in the hotel (gosh, I just realized as I write this that this episode is about race –

Judy:  “Because I’m not what I say I am.  I’ve been passing since I was 15 years old.”
Angel:  “Passing?”
Judy nods:  “For white.  My mother was colored, my father – I didn’t even know him! My blood isn’t pure. – It’s tainted.”

And I would not have realized that if I hadn’t “Flashed Back” again. 

So the case with the bills in it was one of the more spectacular synchronicites I’ve had.  It was odd that I forgot about it when I got home.  I really have been coveting that 3D model for days and had gone so far as to put it in my cart on the Renderosity website, but then I wound up getting something even better instead.

Buffynicity #2:  Yesterday and today I was rendering pictures of one of my guardian angels, and in the show Darla has been appearing in Angel’s dreams.  It seems to resonate.

So a lot of the Buffynicities are blending now, the references to demons and fantasies are so thick and so totallyl related to my new hobby of 3D rendering that there’s just no point in remembering them all.  However the few that stand out, like this hotel/money one, are really spectacular and consistent enough to keep the whole thing going.

As for transits:

On Wednesday the Moon trining Jupiter and squaring Chiron had me feeling pretty good about my job, but the main thing was Renderosity and Daz3D – I was finding a lot of spectaularly good deals and really feeling the magic of 3D illustration, really feeling that I’m accomplishing things, getting control of my visual imagination and all the perceptions that go along with it.  I already mentioned the very dramatic Buffynicities that took place on Tuesday, and showed me something of the relatedness of my rendering to my intuition.

There was also a big “employee appreciation” event with a global conference call and I had a lot of interesting telepathic experiences around that that felt Jupiterian in scope.

I was also listening to a lot of Alice in Chains, especially the song “Over Now”, which was taking me back to the late 90s.  That fits with the Chiron stuff.  I also have this new method of organizing notes that I’m learning from a book, and it’s making me feel very on top of things.  That’s some Jupiter there.
 
The Moon sextiling Uranus in the afternoon brought some strange requests at work, and also an interesting sense of order as I left early for an eye exam that I scheduled last year.  It was a strange sense of success in keeping an appointment I made a year ago.  Also I haven’t been to the mall in a while, and I was looking back over a lot of the dreamlike things I’ve experienced there over the years.

I was on my way home when the Moon entered Cancer and I spent the evening very withdrawn into myself, working on Poser, enjoying the sense of control and security it gave me, especially with all my awesome new purchases.  I found out that a Platinum Plus membership on Daz actually saves me a ton of money, and membership in Renderosity is also very cost-effective.  So there’s a sense of Cancerian belonging in officially joining the online 3D community.

The Sun squared Saturn as I was finishing running.  I was feeling very excited by the power of what I was rendering and I think this square with Saturn had something to do with the clarity of my perceptions of my angel associated with this rendering.

Today I actually noticed the psi influences about ten minutes before the Moon trined Neptune in the afternoon.  I could feel them clearly.

Then as the Moon opposed Pluto I was having some interesting thoughts, having posted my first picture of my angel to Renderosity.  A lot of the intensity of the scene between Angel and Darla seemed resonant for me.  I was feeling dramatically lifted out of the mundane world into a more dreamlike place.

Tomorrow the Moon trines Chiron and Venus sextiles Jupiter.  I bet I’ll feel good and be listening to a lot of music.  I’m also going to be officially joing Renderosity Prime.  I think it will be a powerful afternoon that will enhance my sense of where I belong in this world, and where my visions belong.