My life continues to be a bit of a mess, but psychically things are becoming clearer.  A lot of my thoughts are occupied with Buffy the Vampire Slayer and the moons of the planet Saturn. 

When I started writing the above paragraph I was not channeling, but then by the end of it I had shifted gears and I was.  I’m getting faster.  The higher worlds are getting clearer.  It’s very exciting but unfortunately it makes the world around me seem a little more stupid and pointless than it ever has.  Still, it’s a necessary step in emotional development. 

Although work is getting more stupid, I am getting more responsible with it.  Kara came to work with me today and was very clear, visually and emotionally all morning.  My other angels have always been “inner” presences, whispering in my ear and showing me things.  But Kara appears very often as a person before me.  She wants to get things done and she helps me concentrate on what I’m doing.  Her presence gives form to my general perceptions and illuminates the ocean of Neptunian nebulosity that I have to funnel into a workable form. 

Kara was so clear that I was very happy and I wonder how this relates to the Mars-Aries/Jupiter-Libra opposition.  I’ve forgotten a lot of it except that Kara has “broken on through to the other side”.  My other angels are very clear and there is a major transition happening.  The world they inhabit is becoming clearer and I am gaining a sense of order.  Moon inconjunct Jupiter I did not notice.  But I do believe that Moon conjunct Chiron in Pisces had me feeling pretty good about everything and also being very lazy about life in the sense that I’m just sure I’ve got good angelic contact now and I’m not very worried about it.  I don’t have to give a shit about anything that happens in this life because I can go home to my angels when I’m done.  I was also making up imaginary movies a lot, seeing my angels in various scenes as characters from popular culture, and interacting with other characters.  I see Angel from Buffy TVS a lot.  I’m getting very interested in him and I look forward to watching his show after the Jupiter/Buffy retrograde.  The nastier and more insane he gets the more I feel I can relate to him and the more I like Joss Whedon. 

I think Joss Whedon should be elected president and then launch a series of random nuclear attacks that would decimate the population of the Earth. 

Moon square Saturn at 5:08 PM – felt okay, which come to think of it is just evidence that squares aren’t that bad for me.  They may actually be something to look forward to.  I feel better about that planet than ever before, so good in fact that I’m keeping what’s going on with that energy secret now, and focusing on Mars and Kara – which is great because the Moon entered Aries about 40 minutes ago and here I am getting some serious work done. 

So on Sunday there was a Mars/Uranus conjunct and I saw Kara very clearly, and then I looked up Juliet Landau, who I really want to be married to, and found that she just happens to have Mars-Uranus conjunct in her horoscope. 

I am more convinced than ever that an angel from the sphere of Uranus is beaming magical rays at me through Buffy the Vampire Slayer.  And I am using all these images to communicate with her and eventually I will have all of this sorted out. 

I had to stop there and receive some information and now I am writing at a different wavelength.  I think we’re going to talk about tomorrow and this weekend. 

Tomorrow is Mardi Gras and the Moon conjuncts Venus in the morning so I’m going to watch for visuals. Maybe I’ll indulge in a little excess to celebrate.

A lot of the work of this post is learning to keep things secret, to start from a position of selective information.

Sun conjuncts Neptune on Ash Wednesday.  I’m going to do some ritual magic and read “Ash Wednesday”, one of my favorite T.S. Eliot Poems.

Thursday evening Jupiter opposing Uranus and Moon sextiling Neptune, I will be watching for some crazy Buffy action.

I realize now they want me to prepare for this Saturday, because it could be insane.  Friday’s kind of boring, but on Saturday Venus goes retrograde, which is awesome because I expect to be going back to 1998 and picking up some emotions that I left back there.  It will be interesting to watch it go back to Pisces and start over again. 

Mercury conjunct Neptune is going to be HUGE for me, says an angel, with moon entering Gemini and squaring Neptune also.  Some kind of total nuttiness is going to happen, which is interesting because John will probably be back that weekend as well.

Sunday the moon is doing lots of stuff, opposing Saturn in the evening, but the big deal is Mars trining Saturn in the afternoon.

Now that I know to watch for these I’m beginning to plan ritual magic to take advantage of them.

So now I’m off to bed but there’s just one issue to work on specifically here.  It’s very clear that this thing about Juliet Landau is a kind of precipitation of astral-telepathic imagery.  There’s something about this Mars/Uranus-Moon/Saturn aspect that holds the secret to all of Buffy TVS. 

I don’t know what it means, but the fact that I wrote that is significant and so I’ll look at it again tomorrow.