10:10 PM 4/2/2017 I just had a very interesting experience during John’s circle, Sandra was channeling very deeply and I was talking to the group about how close she felt. Then later, while someone else was talking I drifted off into a trance and John said he could feel my energy shifting so he called me back, “woke me up” and I felt as though two parts of my mind had been foribly pressed together. It was a very wild, high-energy moment, a kind of healing shock that remained palpably real for several minutes. It pointed out very clearly that there is still a broken place in my mind, one I can’t sense by myself, and my angels are helping me get back and forth across it. Still I have resentment at the complexity of my life, still I wonder, “If we’re all just cocreating, why does everything have to be this difficult?”
I didn’t write part two last night because I went to Blade Runner and then when I got home I did Enochian magic. The movie was amazing and just as powerful as ever. This has been my favorite movie for 35 years and it just gets better for me.
The Enochian went off really well and I still have to think about what kind of thing I want to say about it.
I was probably lying awake in the morning when the Moon squared Chiron, feeling a little anxious about my crowded schedule for the day, meditation, wanting to do Enochian again, and also to run but wanting to attend Brian’s astrology symposium at LFAC, and the John’s circle in the evening.
I went to meditate and I was finishing up just as the Moon opposed Saturn and went VOC. It felt pretty good, even better because I remembered my notebook and I was able to record some detailed perceptions. Note-taking is definitely speeding things up for me now. I took a nap and slept while the Moon entered Cancer. I woke up right after it squared Venus and I was so drowsy that I was late for the symposium. I did get some good perceptions, however, of karmic structures in the houses related to the auras of the participants. This is another type of perception I have to learn to express. I saw a translucent world of higher energies around everyone, and it was as though my inner focus was perceiving everyone from a great distance. The strangest thing is that someone I work with was also attending the symposium. It was like a collision of two sides of my life – my days as corporate drone in the amoral normoverse, and my life as an intutive. I tried to go with it and assmilate the energies. My angel of Saturn made herself very clear.
I left early to go run. When I got home John had set up for the circle. I drew the “Nightmare” card from his deck and set it aside for the evening. I was running while the Moon sextiled Mercury and I felt really good about the show. I’m too tired to go into all of it in depth now, so I’ll put off those feelings for tomorrow.
Buffynicity: I had been doing Enochian magic and this episode was about some college students who draw a magical sigil which summons a demon. Like Enochican magic, their sigil isn’t totally undersood and you wonder how much of what it does is real. And it messes with their haunted house so that everyone is experiencing his worst nightmare.
Venus entered Pisces during the circle and my spirit presences were very solid and profound – so profound that I can make some concrete decisions about what it means to be talking about them. This is a major step forward.
That’s enough for tonight, I want to sleep but I’m going to make prognostications for tomorrow:
Moon in Cancer trining Neptune in the morning will be a major event, considering the depth of what I’ve gotten tonight. I’m going to get some deep stuff and I’ll be rocking out to “Nostradamus” while I do it. Hooray for me! Some of it will come from applying things I learned at the symposium about natal degrees and transits. It’s nice to be on the upswing of a lunar cycle anyway. Moon-Cancer squaring Sun-Aries will be exciting, like something’s going to happen.
Moon sextiling Mars, squaring Jupiter, and opposing Pluto – I’ll probably be doing Enochian magic, telling the rational world to fuck off, having a great big adventure with my angel. It’s going to be a good day.
The big thing to look out for is John’s intensive starting Friday and Saturn also going retrograde.