10:22 PM 4/16/2017 I woke up just a couple of minutes after Mars sextiled Chiron and the Moon trined Uranus.  I felt pretty good, having gotten a full night’s sleep.  I had wanted to do some ritual magic and there were many other projects on my mind, but I couldn’t find the time.  I am having very good spiritual presence this weekend but I haven’t been able to focus it to get anything done and once again I would have to relate this to the Moon in Sagittarius.  Moon entering Capricorn similarly feels as crummy as it did last time, like I have no life and no future – even as I get all these great intuitions.  It’s just a bad mood I’ll have to put up with for the next few days, as it usually gets worse through Moon in Aquarius. 

Afterwards I gave my friend a ride to Whole Foods and I was remembering all the times I’ve given people rides to grocery shop.  I was seeing society in a very different perspective.  I feel I’ve been getting in touch more with past lives and the more I do the more irrelevant and tediously repulsive American life becomes, and the more I hate perky cheerleaders who dribble slogans like “be here now”.  The Moon was squaring Chiron and inconjuncting Mars during that time, and I felt very secure in my spiritual perceptions but also “comfortably numb”, to quote the old Pink Floyd song, as if nothing in the world really mattered.  The person I was helping has a very strong astrological presence and I got a lot of intuitive information from her aura.  Once again I’m a little frustrated at this dopey game I have to play with relationships, getting enormous amounts of intuitive energy on one level and not being able to put it into useful terms on a practical level.  I have so much that happens to me during the day I’ll never be able to describe.  I was pretty happy after I dropped her off and went to do my own shopping, wasting a lot of time just listening to music as the Moon trined the Sun and then heading home as it squared Venus. 

There were a bunch of aspect and I felt a very positive revelation of the world and my place in it, but now I am struggling to say what it meant.  It was nice to help my friend.  This related to Sharyl’s statements about “service” on Monday.  I am getting the idea of service, I guess.

I was very tired when I got home, but I swept the floor before I took a nap.  The Moon conjuncted Saturn during that time and I guess it was related to a sense of happiness I felt, that even though I’m having a lot of chaos I’m taking care of the day-to-day aspects of my life.  I also think I felt the closeness of the angels who watch over me.  I feel that I don’t have to care too much about the world anymore and I can just let go of it and focus on the supernatural.  Specifically I think the election of Donald Trump is the final proof that this nation is too stupid to survive and there’s not a whole lot of purpose in being involved in “America” in general.  Like an ageing dinosaur it’s fallen into a tar pit to be fossilized and forgotten.

I slept through the void of course and woke up after the Moon had entered Capricorn.  I was too tired to get up and go to Edgewater.  I had to run before the circle and I just didn’t want to make myself get up.  I also wanted to save for C2E2 next week. 

The Buffy episode I watched while running was fun. It was nice to see Faith again.  There were a couple of Buffynicities but I’ve forgotten them already, although Faith as usual reminded me of one of my old, evil girlfriends who thought she could solve every problem by talking complete crap and humiliating herself with her own stupidity. 

The one Synchronicity I had was that yesterday I saw “Willy Wonka” and I was thinking about the character Violet, and then today I saw that there’s a new Monster energy drink flavor, “Ultraviolet”.

Mars sextiled Venus during the circle and it was very interesting.  John was talking about how Mars relates to the fifth chakra, which was news to me because I always thought it was the second chakra.  My angels were giving me quite a bit of focus and I was actually exploring my “reading” state.  It’s getting more stable but I’m still wondering what I’m supposed to be saying about these beings.  I know they’re bringing me this summer to a “public persona”, an image to use for my website and my practice with clients.  But I have a few details to iron out about what approach I want to take to “the business”.

I did feel the presence of Jesus much more today, and I know that with my exporations of Rennaisance magic and my past lives in Europe, I’m going to be doing some work on integrating him into my worldview. 

The Moon is trining Mercury in a few minutes, which is interesting because the Moon-Mercury inconjunct on Friday had actually set off a few episodes of miscommunication which seemed troublesome on the surface.  I wish I could take full advantage of this aspect but it seems I have to somehow go deeper within myself before I can bring through the necessary emotional resonance.  I do feel that the angelic presence is “taking” in what I write now, or “grabbing hold” or “gaining traction”.  I am more able to spontaneously express myself as “a person who has angelic companions” rather than struggling to act out an image of what I should be.

I’m not as afraid of the darkness anymore, I’m not as worried about what traditionalists would think. 

Sun trining Saturn in the morning I expect to make me feel very comfortable with my life, especially with C2E2 coming up.  Moon sextiling Neptune and Mars inconjunct Saturn during my class with Sharyl tomorrow promises a big development, an extension of what I’ve experienced tonight. 

Sun conjunct Mercury on Wednesday night when I’m seeing the author of “13 Reasons Why” at the Schaumburg Library.

Mercury goes back into Aries on Thursday.

Mars enters Gemini and Moon enters Pisces on Friday.  I’ll feel good, but probably very passive.  I’m very interested to see how Mars in Gemini feels.