11:14 PM 4/19/2017 This has been a very interesting and relevant day. The Moon squared Mercury while I was driving to work which was interesting because as I started driving to the remote site I was working at I was using my GPS and I mistook “39 miles” for 39 minutes, and it wasn’t until I was underway that I realized my error and I arrived 20 minutes late. So this is a definite instance of a Mercurial awkwardness surrounding the square.
The morning went fairly well. I am getting better at staying focused. I listened to a lot of Judas Priest, especially the song “United”. I thought of making a really vicious mashup of this song with images of conservatives beating up airline passengers and immigrants. But I am also looking forward to writing a scene in my sci-fi series with this as a backdrop. The character based on 2Pac Shakur has come to the forefront with this, I have a lot more ideas for him, and I am also getting more into the main character with an increased sense of vitality.
I was taking a lot of notes on what was going on, which is good. I’m more able to keep the narrative line running through my day and this is a big step toward regular channeling, developing the emotional presence of it. Now I need to keep my notes more organized because I keep losing them in the sheaf of papers I take back and forth to work every day.
One thing about suddenly being in charge of these remote sites is, even though it’s fun to get paid for travel and work by myself where I can listen to music uninterrupted, it’s very clear that this company will give me more and more responsiblities without giving a damn about me until I’m used up. I suspect it’s that way everywhere in America now, you can climb the ladder as long as you don’t mind being dehumanized to the point of annihilation. I really think the U.S. is a big waste of time now and I’m very serious about taking a magical stand against the status quo. I’m just not interested in normality at all anymore and I do a lot of work cutting away psychic involvement with anyone I’ve met in the past who represents “normality”, “obedience”, or “conformity”. I don’t feel I’m competing with them or antagonizing them – it’s their planet, they can have it – but I’m not going to “cocreate” it – and that includes that insipid Hay House cheerleading crap which is mostly just phrasemongering and moneygrubbing.
I’m done arguing with America. It’s nice to feel I’m withdrawing more from the world.
Buffynicity: Even though I didn’t watch Buffy tonight I’m finding meaning in that recent episode where Buffy and Riley were having sex so hard that they began to vanish into a huge darkness while poltergeist activity swirled all around. I feel I’m receding from the world in that way even as my magic gets stronger.
So I cleared up a bunch of stuff at the remote site while listening to cool music, which was good, and then I drove back to my main location and did a little, and then I was off work. Quake was closed, but I went to Keith’s and bought a copy of “Underwinter” for Ray Fawkes to sign at C2E2 this weekend. *** Angels are reminding me of feelings. For instance should I mention Keith’s in the same entry where I rebel against “normality” because I wouldn’t want anything to disturb my “normal” afernoons shopping at Keith’s. I have to think about that. It hurts my head a little but the truth is that I am a channel. I have to be responsible to angels for consistency now. There’s some kind of structure on the inner planes that’s revealing itself.
The Sun entered Taurus right around the time I was picking up “Underwinter” and the new “Lady Death”. It feels good. I feel ready to take definite steps about issues like my website. I feel a lot more secure in myself and I think this is due to the relations of angels to Saturn in Taurus in my natal horoscope. Also the Moon is in Aquarius and the worst part of my lunar cycle is mostly over.
By the way I am starting to think I knew Sarah Michelle Gellar in a former life. It’s eerie. I feel like I know her. Maybe it’s one of my angels using her image.
I am looking for feeling relevance now as the evening winds down toward the Sun conjuncting Mercury. It was very appropriate to be at the Schaumburg Library tonight, seeing James Asher, the author of “Thirteen Reasons Why”. He was very interesting and I got a lot of telepathic information. A portal opened to higher worlds over the head of the crowd and I got a lot of insight about the “life path” of the author in 21st century America and what it is exactly that authors do and what it is the souls of their audience are doing. I got a broader picture of society in the image of all those teenagers reading about suicide and learning to be good citizens through the normative power of story. I was grateful for the insight but also very disappointed in the emptiness of the society those teens are joining. There was a lot of movement on the inner planes and I am still assimilating it. My years-long, uncontrollable daydream about the world of entertainment is coming to an end, finally “grounding out” as one might say.
So it was a very “Mercurial” day, as the Sun entered Taurus and I am getting ready for Pluto retrograde (come to think of it, the societal influence of a popular novel about death is a very Pluto topic) and Mercury entering Aries tomorrow. The character I was thinking of based on 2Pac is also very Mercurial, and even picking out a new looseleaf notebook for the notes I take at work (as I just did) is a Mercury influence – not to mention a Moon-Aquarius one.
Moon trining Jupiter should be expansive as well. I expect a good day tomorrow in preparation for my C2E2 adventure. The pressure is building. It’s exciting and frustrating because I feel that if I can turn some kind of corner with these blog entries I can find that literary depth that would let me write some good angelic stories that would serve the purposes of my guiding spirits. We’ll see what kind of inspiration I can get at C2E2 as Mars enters Gemini.
I expect a distinct sensation when Pluto goes retrograde in the morning, as well.