10:42 PM 7/27/2017

Well, I’m done.  I guess I’m fully Buffynitiated now.  And I have a big finale of my own to report.

Buffynicity #1:  From tonight’s episode.

BUFFY
 (looks at Angel) Because—OK, I’m cookie dough. I’m not done baking. I’m not finished becoming whoever the hell it is I’m gonna turn out to be. I make it through this, and the next thing, and the next thing, and maybe one day I turn around and realize I’m ready. I’m cookies. And then, you know, if I want someone to eat— (eyes go wide as she catches herself) or enjoy warm, delicious cookie me, then…that’s fine. That’ll be then. When I’m done.

Just this Saturday when I was out at Navy Pier for the Rolling Stones exhibit, I had some “Dippin’ Dots” for the first time – that brand of ice cream that comes frozen in lots of little round balls.  I had “chocolate chip cookie dough” flavor.

Buffynicity #2:  I had to rearrange my evening because I had a date to play Magic: The Gathering with some friends, and in the episode Giles, Xander, Andrew, and Amanda are playing some kind of role-playing game.

Buffynicity #3:  My MTG pals and I were texting each other and at one point I wanted to type “np” meaning no problem, but my spellchecker put in “no” and caused some confusion.  My exact text in response was:

“That’s stupid.  I mean that to type "np” meaning “no problem” but my dumbass spellchecker said “no”.

I had to fight my dumbass spellchecker to get the word “dumbass” onto the screen.  I was being very specific about that word so in tonight’s episode it was Buffynicitous when this happened:

10     INT.     DINING ROOM AT BUFFY’S HOUSE – NIGHT
 Dawn is waiting by the front door when Buffy walks in. Buffy’s surprised to see her. Dawn kicks Buffy in the shin.

BUFFY
 Ow.

DAWN
Dumbass.

And finally, the last Buffynicity:

Buffynicity #4.  I’ve already posted a picture of this.  Tuesday night I decided to clear out my toy collection and I found four Angelas and three Brigids, all these duplicates.  I “chose” one to keep.  Then in the penultimate episode Buffy comes out with “The Scythe” which is styled in a way very similar to the spear of my chosen.  And didn’t realize the irony of all the duplicates until today with Willow giving the power of the chosen to all the “Potentials” going out into the world now.  And that’s just where the seven other figures in the picture I just posted will go, too.

What an amazing ride it’s been!  I’m going to watch Firefly now, and then I’ll probably watch Angel but I may just start Buffy over again and then when I get to season four start alternating episodes.  I don’t know.  I know this has been an amazing, wonderful, magical, transformative experience for me.  My angels have used this show in a way that should be obvious if anyone should ever read this blog.  It’s a lot to think about and I’m not going to force myself.  I’ll let it end just like the TV show ended, with something new about to happen.  But I’ll always remember the magic.

Now as for transits today, Moon iconjunct Uranus and oppposing Chiron while I was on the way to work – I had just had a very powerful dream of Jody, the most intenst ever with the most detailed conversation.  I wish I could remember it.  I was listening to Nine Inch Nails a lot and thinking about how Riot Fest is going to ground a lot of my daydreams.  Those are all Plutonian and Chironic issues, death, sex, society, darkness.

All was Void of Course until 10:37 and I guess that was how the work flowed as well.  I really got down to it and accomplished some things in the afternoon.

I was playing MTG while the Moon sextiled Mars and the Sun.  I was indeed focusing on Kara at that time and she was showing me the differences between the way I used to be while playing such games and the way I am now.  She’s coming through very clear.  So clear, in fact, that I don’t want to think about it too much.  I have adaptations to make.

Tomorrow I’m expecting psychic news around the Moon inconjunct Neptune in the afternoon.  Moon conjunct Jupiter at 5:35 as my weekend is beginning will probably have Kara showing me some things about my collecting hobby.  I’ll be selling all these toys too, getting money and letting go of the past, integrating my feelings about art and entertainment on a deeper level.

Moon squaring Pluto at 7:38, I have no idea what I’ll be doing.  Possibly I’ll be on my way home.  I’m expecting big news from Kara though.

Goodnight, Scoobies.  I’ll see you again soon.