Last night I was so messed up and tired with the void of course moon that I thought I might give up blogging aspects, but today I can see the shift that’s taken place – it’s actually more important.  I wanted to put my website up but I ran into difficulties with hosts and site-builders.  This was intensely frustrating and a little embarrassing, but I went ahead and put up a half-finished version just to get it done.  I know you’re not supposed to do this but psychically it was very important for me.  I can feel the shifts in vibration that come from doing it and I can tell this is how the process of putting up the site is to be in general– going a little at a time so I can study the changes and make it solid.

Heading toward Moon squaring Venus and trining Neptune now.  I feel pretty good, very secure. 

This morning I accidentally left my astrological calendar at home so I felt a little chaotic, a continuation of my web-programming disaster last night.  But things picked up through the day, and ironically it led me to observe a little more closely what was happening to me.

I work for a multinational corporation that has two main bosses for my division in the US.  This morning about 11:30 am, an hour before Mercury in Aquarius trined Jupiter in Libra, one of them mentioned to me that the other one was fired.  He didn’t even tell me when.  I figured it out from when the guy’s e-mail stopped working.  There was no announcement.  I was associating this with the aspect, and the fact that I put up my website last night.  I was wondering if I was being professional, and also wondering what would happen if people at work formed the wrong impression of my site, but seeing how even high-level employees of this well-known, well-established corporation get disappeared overnight, I knew I’d made the right move.  That was I felt as I hit the trine – that I don’t owe that company anything and I may as well make money doing this because normo corporate America offers nothing to anyone but bullshit.

So I felt great and I also feel (Moon in Capricorn) that I’m getting my life a little more under control.  I’m actually happy taking my time to tweak the site, and getting used to working with Kara.  I have to work out now how to talk about all the magical energies I’m experiencing. 

I’m still thinking all about Buffy all day, listening to Peter Murphy and wishing Juliet Landau was my girlfriend.  I’m also thinking a lot about Cool Hand Luke.  Last weekend was an amazing trip through the inner planes as the Sun entered Pisces and I’ve decided I’m just going to obsess about everything that took place then, and continue listening to “All Night Long” over and over until I have come to understand the mystery that is Juliet.

The Moon is squaring Venus in Aries in less than 15 minutes, and I feel like I’m burning, I feel totally at odds with myself, and yet really free at the same time.  There’s an awesome Neptune aspect before the hour is up and I feel I’m seeing my angels more clearly than ever, and understanding the afterlife better.  I’m actually working hard to develop the concrete, specific sentences that I need to relate these things, but at the same time my vision of who I am is changing dramatically as well.  What is my purpose in this world? I’ve never known and now the journey is half over – and I must say I’m glad.  What a trivial world this seems to be, sometimes.

I’m getting decent boundaries now, psychically. Buffy seems to be filling the gaps.  I do wonder if there’s some angel presiding over that entertainment franchise. 

Moon is conjuncting Pluto in the morning, I bet I’ll feel pretty good about what I’m doing.  And then it’s going to square Mars, Uranus, and Jupiter for the rest of the day.  More restlessness, although squares aren’t so bad for me. 

The divine light is very strong for me right now and … I want to use it in the right way.  I feel like I’m being lifted very far out of this world.  I was thinking today about an old college professor, who introduced me to some interesting things but who I ultimately didn’t become close with.  And then I close my eyes and there’s a wave of energy passing through me.  This entry is really changing my approach to writing on the web. 

I’m working on it.  I’m still talking to the ghost of Paul Newman a lot.  I think he liked Juliet.  Man, I must be in love with her or something, I keep thinking so much about her.  How could I be listening to this song “All Night Long” so often if it wasn’t love?  I don’t know.

Moon in Capricorn has me wanting to work and I’m very tired now so I’m going to go do my 500 words of fiction.  The only other thing I’m going to note is that this weekend should be pretty crazy, with Mercury and the Moon both entering Pisces and then conjuncting each other on Saturday, and then on Sunday 3 conjuncts and an eclipse – Sun/Moon, Moon/Neptune, and Mars/Uranus.  It should be big and what a great weekend for dreams and communication.

So there’s something to look forward to, even as I struggle to get my life worked around so I can get enough sleep.