9:56 PM 7/7/2017
I’m having a wonderful evening. All day I’ve been listening to Fields of the Nephilim and Midnight Configuration, feeling like a real Goth. My story is growing on me, I’m getting deeper into my characters’ minds and lives, feeling what it’s like to be them. I’m especially getting “into” Becky, their mutual best friend. I was even listening to old Siouxsie on the way home, which I don’t usually do because I’ve had a hard time identifying with the total femaleness of the lyrics – but I was listening “with” Becky, so it was cool.
I was also listening to Phantoms, the late 80s album by the Fixx which I didn’t get that into at the time but which I now think is completely amazing. I find that I’m managing to fulfill a lot of wishes with this project, and Tara-Jennifer continues to bring my imaginal world all the way down.
These characters are also doing magical things to my heptalogy. I could never really imagine the moment-to-moment lives of that gang, but the characters from The Darkening are making it happen, just as I suspected they would.
And I really love Fields of the Nephilim. I am really identifying with this music. Midnight Configuration and Sisters of Mercy are also in heavy rotation for me right now, but I’m really looking forward to going over the entire recorded output of Fields of the Nephilim in detail.
As for transits, the morning went pretty smooth for me. I had plenty of time to work on what I wanted to work on. Mercury sextiling Venus was pretty smooth for me, it just made me feel in control. I think it had something to do with my decision to keep my subscription to Apple Music Service, having discovered a huge array of goth bands on it for me to explore. I’m having thoughts about retconning myself into the goth movement. Moon trined Uranus and went void of course at 9:12 and I’m trying to remember if anything happened except new music. The Moon squaring Chiron was definitely about reaching back to the 80s with Fields of the Nephilim and the mid-nineties with Midnight Configuration, thinking about what I was doing then that led me to miss enjoying this music. Honestly, I wouldn’t have enjoyed the goth scene back then, but still I’m jealous of Jennifer and the crew from The Darkening, thinking about how they were listening to all this back when it came out. Chiron seems to be taking me goth.
I did read another couple of chapters in Wuthering Heights, as well.
The Moon’s in Capricorn now, we’ll see how the weekend goes. Meeting Raymond Moody is going to be a very grounding experience. I read his books forty years ago.
Moon inconjuncting Venus and Mercury, I was eating too much at Wendy’s on the way home. They had all these specials and stuff and I just kept adding food to my order to take advantage of them. However the drive itself went like a breeze because I was allowing myself to do deep occult meditation on the characters from The Darkening. They are coming to life in a very intimate way for me.
Tomorrow the Moon sextiles Neputune and squares Jupiter right after the IANDS meeting, so there should be some good visionary energy from Moody’s presentation. The full moon and the conjunction with PLuto early in the morning I’m expecting to bring a ton of information about my place in this world.
The Sun opposes Pluto right before the Moon exits Capricorn for Aquarius on Sunday night – I wonder if there will be some kind of climactic scene.
I’m off now to think about the Darkening, and formulate a policy. I have so many fragments and snippets of dialogue, I have to wonder whether to post them raw or wait until they’re complete.