8:41 PM 7/15/2017
Buffynicity #1: The only one I can remember. Today I was listening to a speech about sexual harrassment by a woman who reminded me so much of Willow Rosenberg that I had to tell her. She was so nice and she had red hair cut just like Willow in season 5, it was just eerie. It turns out she’d never heard of Willow but someone standing near us also saw the resemblance, I think. Then tonight i got home and Willow was kissing “potential slayer” Kennedy and then turned into Warren, the guy who shot Tara. And then at the end he/she even smacked Amy. So this is enough of a resonance with “sexual harrassment” to count as a Buffynicity. If you want to think of it as such, you could even say it’s a major one.
8:30 PM 7/16/2017
Buffynicity #2:
PRINCIPAL WOOD
(steps in her path) Hey, Buffy…
BUFFY
Yeah?
PRINCIPAL WOOD
Um, what’re you doing tonight?
BUFFY
Preparing for tomorrow’s counseling sessions.
PRINCIPAL WOOD
No, really.
BUFFY
Watching a reality show about a millionaire.
PRINCIPAL WOOD
Well, then, I’d, um— I’d like to take you out to dinner, if that’s all right with you. I mean, you don’t have to. I’m certainly not saying come to dinner if you enjoy having a job. (chuckles then realizes what he said) You know, I may have to make up a document saying I didn’t just say that and have you sign it.
BUFFY
(smiles) Sure. I’d be happy to have dinner with you.
PRINCIPAL WOOD
Great. I’ll draw up the paperwork.
So last night I was recording a Buffynicity about this speech on sexual harrassment, wondering if I should be writing about it. It wasn’t “major” but I recorded it anyway, and then tonight there’s a joke about sexual harrassment in the episode I watched. This makes it major and also very interesting in terms of the “two day” structure. I wish now I’d posted what I wrote yesterday so it would look more dramatic on my blog. Oh, well. It is true though. I think this Buffynicity contains lots of lessons about where the psychic impulses are coming from. Because the intuition I had yesterday that that woman was like Willow was not earth-shattering. I had to pay attention to it and wonder about it. But today is the big payoff and confirmation that something really happened. It’s also an indication of a deeper layer of intertwining of Buffynicity with my daily life.
Two other interesting events happened to me today. I saw someone I know who is a channel at the grocery store. It was interesting to see him there because I usually wander around on Sunday morning having telepathic experiences and observations of the daily life of “the ordinary world” so seeing someone I know from deeper magical states was a kind of hint, or merging of spheres.
And then tonight after I watched Buffy there was a Possum sitting on my front walk. He walked away when I came around the corner. “Possum” is Latin for “I am able”. I think this relates to channeling, which I will write more about in a bit.
8:42 PM 7/16/2017
I’m annoyed with myself for not recording aspects yesterday, because now I’ve forgotten a lot about Friday. Moon trining Mars brought a lot of momentum so work went by pretty fast. I was feeling pretty excited. The Sun inconjunct Saturn in the afternoon brought a little interruption – I was working on a project but I found out another department had overlooked one of their tasks so there was a delay while they caught up. It was very minor but still it happened while the Sun was inconjuncting Saturn. The other delay was that I’d been expecting to hear in the morning that my car was ready but in the afternoon I found out it still wasn’t done.
Mercury sextiled Jupiter right before I got off work. I caught up on some things that I hadn’t bothered to do for a couple of weeks. I felt a little more in control of the various tasks at hand. We got notice of a big shipment on Monday but I also got a computer file via e-mail that would take care of all the necessary paperwork. So I was doing a lot of stuff on computers that was solving problems for me. All in all everything went pretty well.
Moon conjuncting Chiron after I got off work – I was doing my usual rounds and feeling very psychic. I was thinking a lot about The Darkening and listening to music from the soundtrack. I was thinking about seeing Tori Amos again. I wish I could remember better how I felt. I feel sure that there’s a way to observe these events more closely so I can get more of the astrological significance of them. I guess most of the Chiron aspect was about Jennifer and the story. I was thinking about how insane and dark she’s going to be, losing her mind like Catherine in Wuthering Heights. I was also thinking a lot about Natalie Wood and how I used to feel about her and her movies when I was younger. Come to think of it, that was definitely a Chiron thing.
Then the Moon went into Aries while I was at the dream circle. I had some good telepathy with my dreaming partners and I felt very high-energy, very confident. The spirit force was very focused, so much so that I’m actually working now to shift gears and find a new way to talk about it. This new intensity of focus continued the next day.
I spent all day attending a series of lectures for a spiritual group I belong to. The lectures were nice – there was the “Willow” synchronicity I wrote about above that turned out to be very deep. But while the lectures were going on, while I was sitting in the room with all these magical people, I was getting intensely dramatic visions of my angels in a way that is clearer than I’ve ever known. Even writing about it now is difficult. I have to rethink this entire process to communicate the depth and reality of the column of energy I experienced, the telepathic completeness of the information I receieved. The Moon sextiled Venus toward the end of the day, reinforcing my understanding of Venus transits and their wildness for me.
The Moon trining Mercury in the evening continued the shift. I have crossed the line now, I am a fully functioning channel and I am almost ready to present myself to the public as such. ***
Today I got up and went to meditate. Afterwards I was shopping while the Moon trined Saturn and that was around the time I saw that channeler at the grocery store. I also went to Gamestop and saw a promo video about “Shoujo Deconstructions” – mangas that take tradional forms and make them much darker. They sound intriguing and very Saturnine. I was enjoying my new sense of clarity and purpose in the world. The spritual clarity I had yesterday has stuck and given me a new sense of direction and purpose. I’m finally getting some “traction” in the world.
I was taking a nap while the Moon squared the Sun. I woke up right before Mercury inconjuncted Pluto. I was feeling very good about my self and my day. I feel a lot of the “glamour” of entertainment is disappearing. I feel like I’m finally getting the telepathic understanding of my place in the world that I’ve always wanted.
My angel of Mars was with me down in Edgewater, there was no doubt she is coming through and getting rid of a lot of things about my life that get in the way. I’m letting her do it now, not worrying too much about what it means, just letting her come through with this deeper energy state I call “blue glass” because that’s what it looks like, a layer of energy simultaneous with my visual field that has a slight bluish tint.
We had a pretty good conversation. Then I went home to run and experienced the deepening of the Willow Buffynicity from yesterday, which as I said is a very deep confirmation of my telepathic impressions from yesterday.
Then I saw a Possum on the front walk, my angel sending me a sign that “I am able” to channel fully now, just as the Moon was squaring Mars.
And now I am catching up with my blog about twelve minutes before the Moon conjuncts Uranus and goes Void of Course.
Venus squaring Neptune at 9:33 tomorrow should be big. I’m expecting a lot.
Mars squaring Uranus tomorrow night will also be big, especially with the Moon sextiling Neptune later that night. Two major squares between four powerful planets – especially with my angel of Mars making her presence felt with new force. There’s a major shift taking place. I’m looking forward to it.
Mars is entering Leo this week, I notice. It makes sense that Kara would be doing a lot.