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The Buffy Diaries 9-26-2017

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10:04 PM 9/26/2017 

Buffynicity #1:  In the episode I watched yesterday, Angel comes back to Cordelia after their big split several episodes before.  In the episode Cordelia is still mad at him, but that’s not relevant.  On Sunday I talked to a girl I haven’t talked to in a long time, confirming our plans to go see Tori Amos in October – that’s the Buffynicity, although it’s minor compared to other recent ones.

As for aspects, yesterday when Mercury squared Saturn I was feeling okay at work, but an hour or so later I found out the delivery I was expecting was cancelled for the fourth time, which counts as a limitation.  Other than that the day went well.  The Moon squaring Venus was fun, I’d gotten most of the day out of the way and I was able to focus on some important things that have been happening in the last two weeks – increased telepathy and a sense of impending revelation.

This morning went pretty smooth.  The Moon was conjuncting Saturn as I arrived at work and mostly it seemed to bring some concern with a full schedule I had planned for this evening and tomorrow – Padre Pio’s relics were on display at St. Ita’s in Edgewater, and there was an animal communicator at the Wilmette Theater – that was synchronous because I recorded a Buffynicity about that weeks ago when I first found out about it – that same day the telepath on Firefly was talking to animals.

And I also want to shop for new glasses tomorrow. 

The day went smoothly.  I had a deep experience at Saint Ita’s and I am thinking a lot about Jesus tonight.  My expeirence at the Wilmette Theater was positive, although I spent most of it thinking about what I experienced at Saint Ita’s.  I am feeling much closer to Jesus now, and I think this is a part of a general trend recently, both with the appearance of the Marlboro Man this weekend, and also my recent interest in The Smashing Pumpkins.  Their music sounds very different tonight.  I’m starting to “get” them better. 

I also had a dream about a hamster and a weasel this morning, which was related to the angelic kingdom and also the animal communicator.  I’m looking forward to a deep transformation after the Padre Pio experience and I bet I’ll have some insight when I wake up around the time of the Moon trining Uranus tomorrow.

Moon entering Capricorn usually brings money issues, this time it will be shopping for eyeglasses.  I hope there’s no more trouble with my car!

Mercury opposing Chiron while I’m shopping for glasses after work?  Hmm.  I’m sure it will bring some insights about my channeling.

Pluto goes direct on Thursday, which will be a nice change.  Synchronistically I’m working downtown again. 

Post 777: The Buffy Diaries 9-24-2017

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I’ve had a fantabulous weekend.  So much great stuff happened that I can barely bring myself to tell the story.  I don’t want to stop thinking about how great the whole thing was long enough to pick out any details. 

Buffynicity #1:  The biggest Buffynicity I’ve had in a few days.  On the way home from work on Friday I started thinking about I guy I worked with briefly several years ago.  He didn’t like me at all and then he moved away and I heard he died.  His spirit came to me and he said he wanted forgiveness, so that’s cool.  Then that night I went to run and the episode was about “Boone” (a reference to Daniel Boone perhaps, appropriate because this guy who didn’t like me, Ray, was a bit of a cowboy and I used to joke that he was the Marlboro Man).  Boone is a demon from Angel’s past who respects him but wants to fight him.  It was a dead-on Buffynicity as I started thinking about this guy with extreme clarity and focus just a couple of hours before I watched this episode.  This is a sign that my mediumship is getting much better as well.

Buffynicity #2:  Minor, but it’s been going on for a while.  At first I wasn’t sure it was real, but I’ve been spending a lot of time on 3D websites, there is a program called Bryce that comes up every once in a while, and tonight once again they mentioned “Virginia Bryce” this heiress that Wesley is dating.  So the Bryce reference has been an ongoing thing.  At first I wasn’t sure I heard it correctly but now I’ve looked it up.

And that’s part of the blending that’s going on with Angel, reference after reference to things I’m experiencing as I work on 3D.  There were quite a few phrases that came up which I’d just been thinking about and now I wonder if it’s worth it to go through the scripts and find them all.  I keep forgetting now.  It’s like 3D is taking my mind into an area that doesn’t want to be bothered with remembering things in detail.

Now for transits:

The Moon entered Scorpio and Mercury trined Pluto on Friday.  I was spending my latest paycheck on 3D items for the amazing images I’m putting together.  I was also feeling pretty caught up with my life, got my car back, major projects are out of the way, doing okay with money, and a lot of new prospects for the future.  I was very focused on having a powerful experience this weekend and I was sucessful in that.

I was also listening to a lot of Smashing Pumpkins, revisiting how that mercurial presence of pop music has related to the Plutonian, collective energies over the course of my life.  And also there was a lot of Scorpio/sex energy in that music as well.  I was gaining a new focus which showed up in the very clear ghostly communication from the Marlboro Man, backed up by the Buffynicity of Boone that evening.

The Sun entered Libra, a nice change to a more peacful, workaday mood, associated with the return of my car and a weekend without responsibilities.  The Moon sextiling Venus was related to the clear vision of the ghost as well.

On Saturday the Moon was sextiling Mars as I was getting to King Spa, I think that marked the beginning of the huge magical download I received, associating Mas with the heat of the saunas.  Moon trining Neptune was certainly validated by the depth of what I experienced and the sense of algnment with my own psi forces.  I’m still getting used to the new peak I hit.  I wound up staying 14 hours, through the Moon sextiling Pluto in the evening when I began to feel that the spiritual forces around me are really getting integrated into the collective, with all the new possibilities opening up for me.

Today the Moon was VOC all day.  Mars opposing Neptune in the afternoon brought a feeling of total security in my own psi experiences, but at the same time insulation from the world, like I’m somehow done dealing with the past.  I also confirmed my Tori Amos tickets and talked to the friend who’s going with me.  The Moon trined Chiron later and I was feeling very satisfied with my regular ritual Sunday trip to Edgewater to buy comics, reviewing all the successes I’ve had in the past and feeling very secure in the knowledge that it will get deeper as time goes on.  It was very healing to see how much better I’ve gotten since I started doing that.

I was on my way home when the Moon incojuncted Uranus, feeling extremely close to my Angels, on the verge of being a full channel for them. 

Then I went to run and watched Angel, finishing just as the Moon entered Sagittarius.  Now I’m feeling very relaxed and even unfocused, as this lunar phase always makes me feel.  I’ve got to plan for all the big stuff coming up.

Maybe I’m too lazy to focus, still fuzzed out from 14 hours at King Spa. I’m going to take it easy tonight, except to note that I’m looking forward to Mercury squaring Saturn tomorrow morning.  I expect I’ll cross some barrier to communication with my angels around that time.  I definitely came to see myself very differently this weekend.  I’ve hit some kind of critical mass with the magical energies I perceive and they tell me I’m ready to take clients now.

The Buffy Diaries 9-21-2017

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10:38 PM 9/21/2017  Holy cow, I haven’t blogged in four or five days.  3D is taking up all my time.  Even though I watched four more episodes of Angel this week I didn’t bother to notice too much in the way of Buffynicity.  Last night I noticed several phrases and images that I had just been thinking about, but I’ve already forgotten what they were.  I’m going to try to catch up with transits now.  If I have time afterward maybe I’ll go through the script of the episode I just watched and try to weed them out.

It’s hard to believe I haven’t posted anything since the 16th.  Maybe I lost an entry somewhere.  But going back to the 17th now:

I was meditating when the moon trined Saturn in the morning.  When the Moon sextiled Jupiter in the afternoon I was on my way to Highland Park to see William Corgan again.  That was fascinating.  I guess that sextile felt pretty expansive to me.  After years of thinking about that guy I finally got the chance to talk to him in person.  It made me feel like a part of society.

Moon inconjunct Chiron and conjunct Venus, followed by the trine with Uranus made for an intense circle, when I was very grounded and simply channeled for my dreaming partners.  They said I was pretty good with it.  The various levels of my trances are coming together.

Monday the moon conjuncted Mars and Mercury, and opposed Neptune.  I spent all evening working with Daz3D.  I got some amazing stuff done.  My pictures are moving the magical energies of my life around.  It’s a struggle to stay with my blog and keep tracing everything when all the interesting stuff is happening visually.  Especially significant is that I’ve been listening to a lot of Smashing Pumpkins and going on a journey back through time, seeing the 90s very differently.  Also, the people I met this weekend who were accepting of me as an intuitive changed some things about my approach to my career.

And making 3D images of my angels is making them much more clear.

Tuesday I worked downtown, and there was the expected Pluto transit in the morning.  I was feeling pretty good waking up to that, but what’s happening with Pluto transits recently is that the information about who and what I’m supposed to be in this world is so expansive I can’t really express it.  It’s more of a focusing of collective energies on where I am.  This has something to do with 3D, as that process is forcing me to choose which “dream” to manifest, day by day.

The delivery I expected downtown was cancelled, and the body shop called and said my car would take another day.  I felt very tired as the Moon squared Saturn in the afternoon and yet I also felt relatively peaceful.  Projects (like getting the car fixed) that have been hanging over me for weeks are getting taken care of.

Venus entered Virgo in the evening, and I relate this to 3D modeling in pretty obvious ways.  I was making good headway and also I spent a lot of time poring over the various sales on Daz3D and Renderosity, choosing exactly what I wanted for my next big project, “Energy Science”, which I’m working on now.  This is a big step forward in the depiction of my angels, very appropriate for the Moon opposition with Chiron and Mercury opposing Jupiter. 

There were no transits during the day on Wednesday.  I picked up my car after work and felt very complete having gotten that out of the way.  I got lost in 3D again all night long, although there was an upswing in the Buffynicities, with several minor ones echoing my thoughts of the day, I’ve forgotten most of them.

I was back downtown today – and there was another Pluto transit.  I took care of business although the delivery I was expecting was postponed again.  The square with Pluto made me feel more purposeful in this world than I’ve ever felt in my life.  At the risk of getting ahead of myself, I feel like I’m finally on the verge of figuring out what I’m supposed to be doing in this rotten world.  My angels are the clearest ever.  The square is related to cutting free collective energies of the past – especially those around rock music and art in the 90s, which is a huge chunk of my youth. 

I skipped running tonight and then I went to Brian’s salon.  The Moon sextiled Saturn a little while ago, and I think that’s related to the astrological intuitions I was having over there.  They’re getting really clear – so clear that the specificity of them requires a format other than blogging.

Moon opposing Uranus and entering Scorpio tomorrow should be pretty exciting.  Mercury trining Pluto – wow.  I bet there will be some kind of huge leap in my understanding of what I’m supposed to be doing with 3d.  I bet I’ll also have some impetus to get my website up and get some business cards made. 

The Sun is entering boring old Libra.  I guess this means I’ll be looking at the “work” of being an intuitive.

I’ll try to review that script of the last “Angel” episode tomorrow night.

The Buffy Diaries 9-16-2017

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10:50 PM 9/17/2017

Catching up with the narrative of my life, it’s been a wild weekend.  The more I experience, the less I have to talk about.  As usual, the Buffynicities are blending into a stream so there’s only one, relatively minor one:

Buffynicity #1:  On Thursday I posted my first picture to Renderosity.  There’s a woman in it with her ears showing through her hair.  On Saturday I was at an event sitting next to a woman whos hair was similar, except shorter.  Then tonight Cordelia showed up with a haircut just like the woman on Saturday.  Her ears weren’t showing, but it was the same length.  It’s the only one I could really think of outside the continuous flow of images I get now, which aren’t for public consumption.

As for transits:

The Moon sextiled the Sun, squared Jupiter, and trined Chiron.  Venus sextiled Jupiter.  I was having a great day, listening to Smashing Pumpkins, getting ready for a big event in the evening and also picking up a lot of items on Daz3D and Renderosity.  I joined Renderosity Prime and raked in the swag.  I also used some of my Platinum coupons on Daz3D.  It was a day of imagery and a sense that I could do anything.  It was also healing in the sense that I felt I was getting what I wanted out of life, finally able to get control of my own inner imagery.  That was the Jupiterian sense of order and expansiveness combined with Venusian imagery.  I even got some positive comments on my Renderosity profile, making me feel like I belonged there.

The Moon squared Uranus and entered Leo that evening as I was receiving a lot of psychic insight around the event, and also meeting a couple of people who are interested in my work as an intuitive.  There was a lot going on and now I have to think about what to write about it, but I saw more clearly than ever and the Uranus aspect was definitely validated.

Saturday Mercury conjuncted Mars and the Moon inconjuncted Neptune – I was out watching William Corgan perform a new single, seeing a rock star up close for the first time, and then at a magical ritual receiving a lot more.  The aspects were validated but I still have to think about what to write, if anything.

Today the Moon trined Saturn while I was meditating and I felt like I was getting answers.  The Moon sextiled Jupter while I was on the way to Highland Park to see William Corgan again.  It was very deep.  I got a lot of insight into all the daydreams about rock music I’ve had over the years.

Then I was at John’s cricle while the Moon inconjuncted Chiron, conjuncted Venus, and trined Uranus.  I was channeling very solidly, struggling to balance the forces of spirit versus my own personal resentment at how insane this process of learning to channel has been, but with a lot to look forward to after this intensely magical weekend.  I really got ahold of something this weekend and it’s going to build. 

It’s going to get even bigger tomorrow with the Moon conjuncting Mars and Mercury and opposing Neptune.  I feel like something totally insane is going to happen.  It may have something to do with making connections with the intuitives I met on Friday.  I know I’m ready to hang out my single now.  We’ll have to see what happens.  I’ll be listening to a lot of Smashing Pumpkins.

The Buffy Diaries 9-14-2017

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10:11 PM 9/14/2017  I’m keeping up with my narrative, even though it’s difficult.  Last night I just went ahead and worked on Poser instead.  I did get my first “real” render done, in the sense that I was willing to show it to others. I ran a high-quality process while I slept only to realize this morning that there was a mistake in one of the poses, so tonight I worked on it again and it’s a hundred times better.  I’ve uploaded it to Renderosity.  Now it’s official!  I’ve been sitting around thinking about how good it is. 

Tonight I could detect a couple of Buffynicities, things I’d been thinking about briefly that showed up in the episode, but I’ve already forgotten them.  However there was a major one from Tuesday that I forgot as well, which I have now remembered –

Buffynicty #1  While looking for items of magic to put in my renders, I came across this item

https://www.renderosity.com/mod/bcs/the-real-deal/97259/

A briefcase full of money I was planning to get as a magical symbol.  I almost bought it that day.  Then in the episode that night …

Judy:  “I’m pretty sure he works for my former employers, the City Trust Bank of Salina, Kansas.  I was a teller there. (She goes over to the bed and pulls out a satchel from under it)  I think maybe they want this back.”
She opens it and Angel takes a look inside.  It’s full of rolled bank notes, 1000 marked on each of the wrappers we can see.

Coming on top of the Hotely synchronicity itself, right after I’d posted about the black girl who died in the hotel (gosh, I just realized as I write this that this episode is about race –

Judy:  “Because I’m not what I say I am.  I’ve been passing since I was 15 years old.”
Angel:  “Passing?”
Judy nods:  “For white.  My mother was colored, my father – I didn’t even know him! My blood isn’t pure. – It’s tainted.”

And I would not have realized that if I hadn’t “Flashed Back” again. 

So the case with the bills in it was one of the more spectacular synchronicites I’ve had.  It was odd that I forgot about it when I got home.  I really have been coveting that 3D model for days and had gone so far as to put it in my cart on the Renderosity website, but then I wound up getting something even better instead.

Buffynicity #2:  Yesterday and today I was rendering pictures of one of my guardian angels, and in the show Darla has been appearing in Angel’s dreams.  It seems to resonate.

So a lot of the Buffynicities are blending now, the references to demons and fantasies are so thick and so totallyl related to my new hobby of 3D rendering that there’s just no point in remembering them all.  However the few that stand out, like this hotel/money one, are really spectacular and consistent enough to keep the whole thing going.

As for transits:

On Wednesday the Moon trining Jupiter and squaring Chiron had me feeling pretty good about my job, but the main thing was Renderosity and Daz3D – I was finding a lot of spectaularly good deals and really feeling the magic of 3D illustration, really feeling that I’m accomplishing things, getting control of my visual imagination and all the perceptions that go along with it.  I already mentioned the very dramatic Buffynicities that took place on Tuesday, and showed me something of the relatedness of my rendering to my intuition.

There was also a big “employee appreciation” event with a global conference call and I had a lot of interesting telepathic experiences around that that felt Jupiterian in scope.

I was also listening to a lot of Alice in Chains, especially the song “Over Now”, which was taking me back to the late 90s.  That fits with the Chiron stuff.  I also have this new method of organizing notes that I’m learning from a book, and it’s making me feel very on top of things.  That’s some Jupiter there.
 
The Moon sextiling Uranus in the afternoon brought some strange requests at work, and also an interesting sense of order as I left early for an eye exam that I scheduled last year.  It was a strange sense of success in keeping an appointment I made a year ago.  Also I haven’t been to the mall in a while, and I was looking back over a lot of the dreamlike things I’ve experienced there over the years.

I was on my way home when the Moon entered Cancer and I spent the evening very withdrawn into myself, working on Poser, enjoying the sense of control and security it gave me, especially with all my awesome new purchases.  I found out that a Platinum Plus membership on Daz actually saves me a ton of money, and membership in Renderosity is also very cost-effective.  So there’s a sense of Cancerian belonging in officially joining the online 3D community.

The Sun squared Saturn as I was finishing running.  I was feeling very excited by the power of what I was rendering and I think this square with Saturn had something to do with the clarity of my perceptions of my angel associated with this rendering.

Today I actually noticed the psi influences about ten minutes before the Moon trined Neptune in the afternoon.  I could feel them clearly.

Then as the Moon opposed Pluto I was having some interesting thoughts, having posted my first picture of my angel to Renderosity.  A lot of the intensity of the scene between Angel and Darla seemed resonant for me.  I was feeling dramatically lifted out of the mundane world into a more dreamlike place.

Tomorrow the Moon trines Chiron and Venus sextiles Jupiter.  I bet I’ll feel good and be listening to a lot of music.  I’m also going to be officially joing Renderosity Prime.  I think it will be a powerful afternoon that will enhance my sense of where I belong in this world, and where my visions belong.

The Buffy Diaries 9-12-2017

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11:10 PM 9/12/2017

After a lull a few days ago, tonight was a pretty spectacular Buffynicity. 

Buffynicity #1:  Tonight I retweeted this article:

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/kenneka-jenkins-chicago-family-demands-answers-teen-dead-freezer/

About a woman who was found dead in the freezer of a hotel.  The first coincidence was that this is the hotel where Flashback Weekend, the big horror convention is held – kind of spooky.  But then once I went to run I realized that tonight’s episode, which I started yesterday, is all about a haunted hotel.

In fact, I didn’t realize until I wrote this that I “flashed back”, since I was about 20 minutes into the episode yesterday but tonight I’d forgotten all about it so I rewound to the beginning.

Also add that today I was looking at hotel settings on renderosity. 

So that was a big deal.  I’ll definitely get one of those hotel settings I was looking at.

As for transits, there was some good stuff going on.  I decided to take a little off work and take my car to the body shop this morning.  I finally did make it there right before the Moon squared Neptune.  I was feeling pretty good about making headway with all my projects, and also dwelling deeply on 3D, and how the magic is really working out for me.

And I was indeed poring over Poser tonight as the moon inconjuncted Pluto and Venus trined Saturn.  I’m working on deep stuff now, depicting the beings that I see, or at least referring to them.  There was some resonance of that in the episode, as well. 

Buffynicity #2: The depiction of the Demon at the climax of the episode looked a lot like a “skydome” graphic I’ve been looking at the last couple of days. 

So rendering is merging with my daydreams and I am getting a lot of work done.  Lots about the underworld and the relation of collective energies.

I’m expecting good things tomorrow with the Moon squaring Chiron and entering Cancer, marking the upswing through my peak Lunar season.  And I’m still looking forward to an amazing weekend.  Also I will definitely have my first render to post in the next few days.

The Buffy Diaries 9-11-2017

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10:11 PM 9/11/2017  Catching up with my narrative after several days of working on 3D instead.  Last night I tried to render on Ultra Subsurface and it just took forever.  Way not worth it until I start to publish things.  Meanwhile I’m satisfied that Subsurface Medium is better than GPU medium and much faster so I’ll be able to render more often. 

I was being a bit lackadaisical about Buffynicities, I’ve forgotten whether I had any the last couple of days, but I did have two tonight:

Buffynicity #1:  I was looking on Renderosity at this ship, “The Cockroach”

https://www.renderosity.com/mod/bcs/aj-battle-machine-cockroach/106621/

And then tonight there was this line:

Gunn:  “Well, isn’t that nice?  I thought all we had to dodge was roaches and vampires!  What is this demon up to?”

That was minor, but the major one was that I was seriously thinking about getting this room, “The Dark Council”, because I need a setting for my dystopian story about insane occultist spirit guides fucking up the lives of innocent people,

https://www.renderosity.com/mod/bcs/aj-dark-council/113847/

And then the main episode I watched tonight “Judgement”, was about “The Tribunal”.

–The pregnant woman is hurrying down an almost empty street at night, one hand on her belly. Suddenly three stone thrones occupied by dark robbed figures rise out of the ground behind her.  A horse whinnies and a knight in armor rides up the street towards them.

The three thrones and the knight match perfectly.  So that was great, and it also shows that my renders are getting more magical.

So now I get to catch up on several days of transits.

Friday, with the Moon trining Venus, inconjuncting the Sun, and squaring Pluto, was a day of strong visions about society, all the collective Plutonian forces, and how alienating they are.  With a hurricane approaching Florida, one of our major computer new systems, which is based there, was shut down and I had to wait hours to see if I was going to get paid this week, not to mention I discovered that I’d forgotten 12 library books, 3-6 days overdue each, and so I had over 10 dollars in fines! It was tedious and horrible and I could feel impending doom hovering over America as punishment for the election of Donald Trump.  Fear was in the air. 

I went home and rushed to return my books but because of the wait for the system at work I got there after the library closed.
But then the dreaming circle was good as the Moon trined Saturn and I felt extremely focused with my guides, ready to go forward and do readings for people.  Moon opposing Jupiter around midnight brought a sense of breaking free from this tedious world.

Moon was conjuncting Uranus as I woke up, and trining Mercury as I was at the library, paying my fine.  I was also provoked into actually reading one of the books which had a very nice note-taking system which I’m now using, so Mercury definitely made its influence felt. 

The Moon entered Taurus and trined Mars during the IANDS meeting and this brought some very important specifics in terms of my life as an intuitive, extremely exciting.  I also found out about an event going on next weekend.  I’m not going to write about it but the trine with Mars was definitely important.  Mercury entered Virgo late that night as I worked on Daz3D and didn’t bother to keep up with my blog.  I must say the Virgo aspect is extremely apt for working on learning new 3D software, which occupies my mind all the time now.

On Sunday I was meditating while the Moon sextiled Neptune and it was very good for me, pulling various spiritual influences together.

I worked on 3D all day and then I was in Edgewater when the Moon trine Pluto, thinking about all I’d learned at the IANDS meeting the day before, and also thinking about how rendering is changing my attitude toward comics and games, which is mostly what I shop for in Edgewater on Sundays.  The acts of imagination I’m engaging in are getting more powerful and more directly related to the underworld and to society, represented by Pluto.

I was running when the Moon trined the Sun, fitting for the climax of the first season of Angel.  Then the Moon squared Venus and went VOC which was very appropriate as I began a render on one of my highest settings then, which ran all night and which I eventually abandoned as ridiculously slow.

Today while the Moon sextile Chiron in the morning I was relishing all the new figures I’m going to buy this week – there’s a huge sale on Sci-Fi at renderosity and a lot of the stuff I’ve been looking at for a couple of weeks on it.  I was listening to “Over Now” by Alice in Chains, thinking about a climactic revenge scene in my heptalogy, and thinking about that massive project I finished this week, and how most of the pressure I’ve been feeling for several weeks is being taken care of, while some amazing opportunities are also coming up.  And the energy of rendering is brining certain psychic centers alive for me.  A lot of the pseudotrances I’ve experienced around entertainment are getting resolved.  The truly intuitive is coming through for me.

The day went quickly and I was relaxing at lunchtime when the Moon finally entered Gemini, looking forward to taking care of business on the way home so I could get back to 3D.  The Moon was approaching its square with Mercury while I was shopping.  I’m not sure what that meant.  I was pleased that I’m controlling my spending and that I got everything over with so quickly.  I’m saving tons of money. 

At home I worked on more rendering and went to run as the Moon squared Venus.  I did get a couple of good Buffynicities, as I said.  And my renders are turning out to be amazing.  I’m getting some discernment now, and I’m getting used to how nice it feels to be mastering this visual medium, realizing so many of my dreams.

I’m looking forward to the Moon squaring Neptune tomorrow.  I bet I’ll get some good stuff about the big weekend coming up, with the event at Madame Zuzu’s on Friday, a ritual on Saturday, and a circle on Sunday. Also I’m going to try to get to the Art institute on Saturday. 

In the evening the Moon inconjuncts Pluto and Venus trines Saturn.  I’m expecting some magical rendering to be taking place. 

Moon enters Leo on Friday – I’ll be at Madame Zuzu’s at the time.  I bet I’ll have a psychically affirming experience.

Mercury conjunct Mars and Moon inconjunct Neptune on Saturday while I’m at the Art Instute – I bet I’ll have an intense, energizing experience.

Moon conjuncts Venus on Sunday night and they both trine Neptune – the circle will be a big breakthrough, I can tell, especially after a weekend of big events and also more breakthroughs on Daz3D.  I’m still working on lighting and hair.  Any day now I’ll feel confident enough to start posting online, which will be a big shift for me.

The Buffy Diaries

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10:13 PM 9/7/2017 No Angel-watching today, I went to see a movie about the Scole Experiment instead.  It was quite good.  As for transits, I was Feeling pretty good on my way to work when the Moon entered Aries, but 20 minutes later a huge disaster happened that derailed this project I’ve been planning for months.  It was very unpleasant and it didn’t get straightened out until 9:20, ten minutes before the Moon inconjuncted Mars, which is pretty amazing timing, if you ask me. 

After that the project went well and I was actuall pretty amazed that the whole thing was done by noon.  I listened to the Buffy soundtrack and then went to Wilmette for this amazing movie.  I relate the movie about the “end” of life to the end of this huge project. 

As for tomorrow, Moon trining Venus and Pluto during the day means I’ll be getting a ton of information about things that happened tonight, and trining Saturn in the evening will be powerful during the circle. 

I’m looking forward to a powerful weekend, but now I’m going to bed.

The Buffy Diaries 9-6-2017

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10:04 PM 9/6/2017 

After a total lull of Buffynicities last night, I got several tonight.

Buffynicity #1:  I’ve had an image in my mind for the last couple of days of a band I used to know who I think stole electricity from the city for their rehearsal space.  Tonight there was a gang of vampire hunters who was stealing electricity in a similar way.

Buffynicity #2:  Just before I went to run I was on Daz3D putting a top on Veronica 7, and Cordelia was wearing one just like it in the episode, although a slightly darker color definitely the same style.

Buffynicity #3:  I was thinking today and yesterday of a party I went to years ago where I was very underdressed, and then tonight Angel’s client was similarly underdressed.

Buffynicity #4:  This one is very strange and I don’t know how deep it is.  Around two o’clock this afternoon I started having flashbacks of a woman I knew in World War Two.  I remember we were both fans of Veronica Lake.  This was new and very powerful and I thought about her all afternoon.  She’s taking me to very deep places.  Then tonight the episode is about a Vampire Hunter and his sister.  There are some similarities there that are eerie.  I stopped watching right at the scene where she’s been made into a vampire and they are arguing, so I don’t know exactly what it means.  But I think it’s a hit.  Also I finished the previous episode, which was about the return of Faith. 

Buffynicity #5: Although I often think about World War Two, today has been a very viscerally real day of flashbacks and new insights on that subject, and so it is Buffynicitous that the Angel episode was called “War Zone”. 
As for transits, the day went well.

When the Moon sextiled Pluto I had gotten to work on time and I was waiting for the day to begin.  I was feeling a shift associated with being in charge of such a big project, and also a bit of a thrill with getting it over with.  Just after things got started with a few problems that made me dread the day.  It was rough going for a few hours but then everything turned around and it all came out much easier than expected so the whole thing was a success and I felt great.  I’m optimistic about tomorrow.

I had wondered if there would be a time-crunch around the Moon square with Saturn at 3:30 but instead I was on my way home feeling extremely relieved.  However the powerful images of World War Two may have been related to it.

It was around 2 pm, when things were wrapping up that I sensed this new spirit.  The loading dock reminded me a lot of places I was in WWII.  I remembered this woman and I feel she’s drawing me back into places in the spirit world I like much better.  So I dwelled on these energies all afternoon and then I came home and took a nap. Then I worked on Daz3D for a bit and swept the floor.

I think I was taking a nap around the time the Moon inconjuncted Jupiter, but in general it fit with the WWII imagery and also the way I feel like a responsible citizen when I sweep the floor.

I was listening to the Buffy soundtrack tonight for the first time in a while, and I just noted that the Moon conjuncts Chiron late tonight.  There’s a definite association in my life between Chiron and Buffy, especially that soundtrack.

Tomorrow the moon enters Aries, which is great and I feel optimistic about starting the cycle by clearing out the last of this massive project which I have been brooding over since March.  The inconjunct with Mars in the morning should bring a boost.

John suggested I do readings in October instead of September because he doesn’t think there’s going to be a big turnout.  I took him up on it because my week is already jam-packed. 

Moon in Pisces is the same as usual.  I feel fairly lackadaisical, so now I’m going to bed.  But I’m looking forward to applying Aries energy to working on Daz3D again tomorrow. 

The Buffy Diaries 9-5-2017

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9:45 PM 9/5/2017  It’s been a pretty fun day.  This huge project that’s been hanging over my head for months is happening during the next two days, as well as four straight days of events, circles, meetings, etc. culminating with me doing readings all night at Chi! Ka! Go!  It’s very intense and it needs some predictions.

Not much in the way of specific Buffynicity tonight, although it resonated in a general way with everything I’m doing with 3d.  Faith came back.  It was interesting to see the episode that dovetailed with the Buffy episode I watched months ago. 

So yesterday I spent 6 hours at King Spa.  The moon sextiled Uranus and opposed Mercury, and then I slept through the massive Sun opposition with Uranus.  However I got the real magic I wanted out of the whole experience, and the sense of transformation into the person I want to be, even if I still have to deal with the psychic slime of my disgusting family and all the reincarnated Nazis who’ve been after me all this time.

But my angels are clearer than ever and 3D is giving me a new hobby which makes me feel great.  Tonight, having developed a basic grasp of posing, I started working with my own lighting schemes and it’s really spectacular. 

Anyway, Mercury went direct this morning so I’m feeling very matter-of-fact about everything.  With Mercury and Saturn direct I’m feeling very purposeful.  However I’m also very alienated, like my old life is dead and I have to go on to something else.  How disappointing all the people I’ve known have been!  How dreary and dull this world is, how pointless … maybe they’ll come and take me away soon.

Venus inconjuncted Neptune a little after I got home.  I think this may have something to do with how I suddenly started working with lighting.  It felt like a crack opened up in the sky, it was so intense.  My stuff is incredibly beautiful now and I know I’m going to be able to entertain myself with it for hours and hours.

I’ll be asleep when the Moon conjuncts Neptune tonight, but I can feel it coming.

Tomorrow the Moon sextiles Pluto in the morning as this project starts, reaffirming this eerie regularity of Pluto transits when I work downtown.  I’m sure it’s because I’ll be in charge.  I’m getting to be a real manager now.  No more transits all day, I’m expecting smooth sailing until the Moon squares Saturn around 3:30 – could there be a rush to finish up?  I hope not.  I hope awareness can keep me from getting in over my head.  Moon inconjunct Jupiter in the evening, I suppose I’ll be congratulating myself over finishing day one, and also catching up with laundry and floor-sweeping.  Moon is VOC until Thursday morning, entering Aries and inconjuncting Mars – I expect I’ll be enthusiastic about having all of this behind me, and getting back to my routine.

Interesting to note that Mercury will go back into Virgo this weekend, nearing my natal position just around the time I’m doing a bunch of readings.

But for now it’s a lazy Pisces Moon (approaching fullness) so I’m going to bed.