10:19 PM 6/19/2017  It was a very busy, crowded day, but I had good spirit contact so I feel satisfied even though things are hectic for me now.  I think I’ll be picking up my new car tomorrow, which should give me a chance to settle in to a new routine.

Venus was inconjuncting Jupter while I was being late for work this morning, but no one noticed and I didn’t care very much.  However I really hadn’t noticed how late I was running because I had gotten so involved with my own inner world so I believe that could have been due to the inconjunct.  The Moon trined Saturn while I was still on the road.  So even though I felt pretty good, there was still an issue of time and timing.

First thing in the morning I got an e-mail from one of my bigger bosses that I had been assigned some training, an online class that was due Friday and since I was overdue with it he wanted me to do it today, so there was more about time.    But I also felt very secure in my Neptune Retrograde working.  Tara-Jennifer is coming through loud and clear and I was taking some time out to look up Amber Benson on the web, checking out pictures and reading snippets of interviews.

I looked up just as the Moon was sextiling Mercury.  The class was going well and I felt I was getting caught up with work.  Even though there’s a lot going on it was pretty smooth.  The insurance company called with more information about the claims process, and it seems to be pretty simple going. 

I felt I was getting a lot out of the Lunar conjunction with Uranus.  By helping me focus on my own imagery, Tara-Jennifer is helping me detach from the world around me.  The conflicts I’ve had with people in the past are feeling more real but at the same time more distant.  I can barely believe I knew such a disgusting bunch of freaks as I have known in this world, but they are getting farther away all the time. 

I was on lunch, taking a nap, while the moon sextiled the Sun and went VOC.  I didn’t get much done after I came back, and then I went to the library to print out a Fed Ex label to mail my title to the insurance company but the label the insurance company had sent had already downloaded from Google to my PC so I couldn’t do it.  The Moon entered Taurus.  I went shopping at Meijer and I was thinking all about The Darkening of the Light and the characters in it. 

It was a long and tedious drive home.  I had forgotten to get some stuff at Meijer so I had to make a second stop at Jewel Osco in Skokie.  I was late getting home so I had to park far away.  I barely made it to the club in time to run half an hour, but I’d forgotten my headband so sweat was quickly filling up my eyes, making it diffiult to see. 

10:16 PM 6/20/2017 Then with about ten minutes left to go I bumped into my tablet and it closed the program.  I think when I run my skin somehow gets too hot to use my tablet’s touchscreen because I can never get it to work.  I couldn’t restart it so I ran the rest of the way in relative quiet.  Then I came home and fell asleep after writing what I wrote above.

Early this morning I woke up right around the time Mercury sextiled Uranus.  I was feeling pretty good.  I was still feeling numb from the drama of having to get a new car, but I wasn’t thinking about it too much either.  I was letting it happen, knowing that somehow I was being changed by this experience and that I would probably come out better for it even if it was uncomfortable.

I got to work and ran around playing catch-up with a lot of scattered tasks, but things had settled down by 10:21 when the Moon sextiled Mars and I was feeling very confident, as though the trials of this lifetime were over.  Tara-Jennifer was extremely clear and I know she represents a new era for me.  I spent a lot of time thinking about “TDOTL” – The Darkening of the Light.  Tara is really insisting on writing this and I have some scenes and dialogue.  Perhaps I’ll get to them tonight if I don’t fall asleep.

When the Moon inconjuncted Jupiter at 3 PM I was getting back from lunch, feeling slightly dazed at all the work I got done today, very confident in the spiritual guidance I feel, but still a little numb about how trivial this world has seemed, how tawdry and empty this country is.  I was thinking a lot about Joss Whedon and Amber Benson.  I am thinking that they represent beings who are waiting to talk to me.

Mercury squared Chiron at 4:01 PM.  I was still working, I wound up staying perhaps 10 minutes late to get something done.  Also my headphones had broken.  I had to get gas and I didn’t wind up leaving to get my car until the Moon was sextiling Neptune at 4:25.  I was feeling extremely calm, even though I was about to spend a ton of money.  I was leaving the whole thing up to fate. 

While the Moon was conjuncting Venus I was picking out my new car and after that I just sat and did paperwork for an hour.  It all went very easily and now the adventure is mostly over, except I didn’t get home until ten so I couldn’t run.

When the Sun entered Cancer the whole thing was over and I was back to feeling “at home” in the world.  Then the moon trined Pluto and went VOC.  Buying a car did indeed bring lots of insight into the experience of life on this plane, and also a sense of distance from it.  I’ll have to write about it tomorrow because I’m too damn tired to do anything but catch up now.

THe Moon is VOC all day, but Mercury enters Cancer, the Sun conjuncts Mercury, and the Moon sextiles Chiron before it enteers Gemini.  I should get some writing done, and get it on this blog.